sometimes I cry or get sad thinking about how my baby is growing up and that time is going by so fast. Would this be baby blues or just a normal part of being a mother and loving your baby? I don't really feel sad other than that. And also since I'm almost 4 weeks Pp (on Sunday), does this mean I have postpartum depression? I know that I have postpartum anxiety. I feel anxious at random times when I'm just sitting there like there's something I should be doing and also when Jackson is inconsolable for a period of time. I also feel really anxious when people pass my baby around or when certain people hold him. Basically anyone other than my mom haha. I have struggled with bad depression and anxiety before I was pregnant (and some anxiety during pregnancy) and I just wanna keep on top of it.
Re: Line between baby blues and PPD
Congrats on your sweet baby! From what you have said, it sounds like you are experiencing the joys of being a mama. Anxiety and some bouts of sadness are fairly normal. Hormones can really effect how we feel in those first few months after birth. Here is an article that might help you too. https://bit.ly/1TwqN4e Don’t be afraid to reach out to a counselor too. It can be a great help to have someone to talk to during those first months.
***and just something to share from my experience... I was first prescribed zoloft because I was BF-ing but it was not working. The dr I saw at the time just told me to wait it out and it'll get better. Saw a different doctor who prescribed lexapro (traditionally not a go-to for BF-ing mamas with PPD due to not AS MUCH research done on effects in milk vs zoloft. But still deemed safe!) Night and day difference! Keep at it if you're feeling bad. There's always another option!