I am a wreck... I thought that I was finally doing better and accepting the loss of my baby boy (not confirmed, just a gut feeling) in June with the continued growth of my baby girl (now 25 weeks). However, as I approach the due date of my first, all of the emotions are coming back. The guilt and sadness are consuming me. And I feel like nobody around me understands- I am so happy and thankful every day for my current pregnancy and love this baby girl so much. But I still wonder about the one we lost way too soon- why that baby? Why us? What did I do wrong?
I am wondering how anyone else has gotten through the first birthday? Any suggestions to make it easier?