We thought we had daycare set up but unfortunately that fell through. After contacting a ton of day cares and in home sitters, it looks like I may need to leave my job. DH is taking a three month paternity leave after my leave is up (we are super lucky there) but once his paternity is done I think I need to stay home with DS from then on.
While I am thrilled to have DS in my life, I'm mourning the loss of my career and all the work I put in over the past 9 years to get where I am today. I make less than half of DH so financially there isn't another option. I'm hoping for a minor miracle to happen in the upcoming weeks but I need to come to terms with reality.
I love being a stay at home mom right now. I'm enjoying maternity leave with my baby! Totally different from maternity leave with my DD1. I had PPD and I couldn't wait to get back to nursing school because I couldn't handle caring for her. I love napping with my DD2 (the cat joins in to cuddle up to her) and we go run a few errands that basically involve going through the drive through, like getting change for laundry from the bank or going to get medications from the pharmacy. I feel so much better since I can be on my medication and I was able to have it the day after my C-section in the hospital so I'm doing super well! No PPD this time. I will always feel bad about maternity leave with DD1 because I feel like I failed her.
I started my first post pregnancy period today... -holy effin cramps batman- SO got out of work early due to snow... Guess who took a nap and made SO take care of the 7 week old..
Babe is 3 weeks tomorrow and I've cried everyday since he was born. I guess it could be baby blues, but I think it's mostly because I'm bored and lonely. Living in NYC in winter it's not easy to get out let alone get around. It would be impossible for me to take the bus by myself to stroll around target or something - I can't even take my stroller into our grocery store - it doesn't fit in the store. I feel totally guilty for feeling so sad and lonely when I have this gorgeous, healthy little baby here with me. Blah.
@kgcnyc this! I've seriously been sitting in my room for the last 15 no probably 20 mins crying because I last minute can't go to my sister's galentine's party tonight. She lives an hour away but my car has been sounding really bad recently and my husband is super concerned now. The intensity was just realized the last couple of days and we hadn't been able to get it in the shop yet. I don't get to go out ever even before I was pregnant usually due to lack of money. I feel cooped up and super emotional. I'm resenting that my husband can go off and do whatever anytime. Even when I do drink (in the past ) I worry about getting up with my daughter the next day. I want out! Now the thought of sitting in my dirty house, being on parent duty or worse hiding out from my daughter and studying isnt helping. I know this sounds awful I do. I was just so looking forward to getting out of the house with just the baby and enjoying some girl time. Now I have a headache to add to the mess.
Re: FFFC
While I am thrilled to have DS in my life, I'm mourning the loss of my career and all the work I put in over the past 9 years to get where I am today. I make less than half of DH so financially there isn't another option. I'm hoping for a minor miracle to happen in the upcoming weeks but I need to come to terms with reality.
I love napping with my DD2 (the cat joins in to cuddle up to her) and we go run a few errands that basically involve going through the drive through, like getting change for laundry from the bank or going to get medications from the pharmacy. I feel so much better since I can be on my medication and I was able to have it the day after my C-section in the hospital so I'm doing super well! No PPD this time. I will always feel bad about maternity leave with DD1 because I feel like I failed her.
-holy effin cramps batman-
SO got out of work early due to snow...
Guess who took a nap and made SO take care of the 7 week old..
I feel totally guilty for feeling so sad and lonely when I have this gorgeous, healthy little baby here with me. Blah.
I've seriously been sitting in my room for the last 15 no probably 20 mins crying because I last minute can't go to my sister's galentine's party tonight. She lives an hour away but my car has been sounding really bad recently and my husband is super concerned now. The intensity was just realized the last couple of days and we hadn't been able to get it in the shop yet. I don't get to go out ever even before I was pregnant usually due to lack of money. I feel cooped up and super emotional. I'm resenting that my husband can go off and do whatever anytime. Even when I do drink (in the past ) I worry about getting up with my daughter the next day. I want out! Now the thought of sitting in my dirty house, being on parent duty or worse hiding out from my daughter and studying isnt helping. I know this sounds awful I do. I was just so looking forward to getting out of the house with just the baby and enjoying some girl time.
Now I have a headache to add to the mess.