Hello, and Help Please!

Hello, I'm 37 and just finishing going through a natural MMC/chemical pregnancy ( / since we never had an US before they knew it wasn't viable due to dropping HCG). Found out I was pregnant on 1/17 approx 4 days past O. Conceived on Christmas Eve, so this was going to be my Christmas present baby. Never had full morning sickness except for slight waves of nausea, until 1/29 when I was sick as my worst of worst hangovers with that toxicity feeling. Had constipation up to this point but that day I had the most severe diarrhea and vomiting every 15 to 30 minutes. I started spotting and the next day was bleeding bright iron red drops straight into the toilet. My OB was so kind when I came in a week early for my new OB appt and calmed me with the fact that many women bleed and still have healthy pregnancies, which helped me remain optimistic, even though in the back of my mind I was doing statistics on my age and the fact that out of all my many girlfriends, none had suffered that 1 in 5 miscarriage and somehow I knew I was the one. He had me test my beta levels that day and again two days later, but when they didn't call immediately I started to get my hopes up again thinking "no news is good news" but when I called them the response was the last thing in the world anyone ever wants to hear. "Your HCG levels are dropping. You've had a missed abortion or chemical pregnancy". I think I just screamed to the walls for an hour. This was on 2/3 and I'm still tearing randomly at any given time. I have a wonderful support group. My fiance is a prince and I told my closest girlfriends. I had to, since we had just gotten engaged this year and had set 9/10 as our wedding date. When I found out I was pregnant, due approx 9/21, we decided to tell people (cause they all kept asking about the wedding) that we were putting it off for a bit. I told the ladies that would have been my bridesmaids (almost every single one a recent mother) that due to timing and their experience that they were about to become nursemaids instead. So far I haven't had any insensitive remarks from those that know, yet it's so hard to hide the sadness at work and on Facebook when it seems everyone else in the world I know is either healthily pregnant or has their little one (or two) already. The saddest part for me being that I never knew I really wanted kids until recently, when I knew I had the most spectacular potential father and got bit by the pregnancy bug. Now all I can think is that I'm out of time for complications!

So, hello, I know all of you are going through your own Hell one way or another. Some day I hope to be able to be part of a true BMB (I was so excited to join the September '16 board, alas) but at the moment one of my true concerns and dilemmas is that I can't figure out how to reset mine. When I login it still is telling me I'm 8 weeks pregnant. What an awful reminder! Please someone help me navigate how to start anew. We will be TTC again soon, but I want to start fresh and I'm so afraid of offending anyone with a ticker that's incorrect.

Love and health to all that have lost their jellybeans. Oh, and if there's anyone in my age range with happy post MMC stories/pregnancies, I would so love to hear them!