Back now - Reintro (loss mentioned)

FireInWonderland · February 2016

Hey ladies. It's been a few weeks, but here I am again. I don't want this to seem like a drive-by, since I probably won't be posting actively for a few days, but DH and I found out at the u/s today that baby no longer has a heartbeat. So while we ride out the miscarriage I likely won't be posting much, but I should be back to posting regularly soon enough, I'm sure.

I'm Lizzie, I'm 26 and this is my 3rd miscarriage. I feel strangely like an alcoholic with the way that's worded. Hopefully I can find the same solace here as last time.

DinosaurJumper · February 2016

I am so sorry for your loss and hope you and your DH can find some peace

Wishilivedinflorida · February 2016

No words. I remember seeing your BFP when I was lurking. I'm so sorry. Hugs.

GhanimaAtreides · February 2016

I'm so sorry for your loss. We're here when you're ready.

silentP · February 2016

What?!! No! I am so angry for you. I am so, so sorry. There are no words

catiecatp · February 2016

I'm sorry to see you're back - hugs, love and support sent your way.

queenklau · February 2016

I am so very sorry you are back...I send you hugs. We are here whenever you are ready.

alanna3622 · February 2016

Oh no. I am so sorry. I wish there were some way to make this easier. Hugs to you.

zrain · February 2016

I am so so sorry to see you here. I hope this doesn't sound creepy, but I felt a connection to you on S16 being due date buddies. I hate that you're going through this pain too, and I really wish I could give you a hug.

loveinak · February 2016

I'm so sorry for your loss

AL_TwinCities · February 2016

I'm so sorry you are going through this again. Hugs.

chloe97 · February 2016

@FireInWonderland I am so sorry for your loss. Like the others said, they are no words. Take care of yourself and know we are all thinking of you. Hugs,

BornReady · February 2016

Sorry to see you here again. Sending you some healing thoughts.

m6agua · February 2016

Sorry for your loss. It sucks. Take care of yourself.

megsbrock · February 2016

Oh no...I am so very sorry for your loss and to see you back here.
We are here for you.
Hugs.

Daisydoodle86 · February 2016

Sweetie, I'm so sorry

I can only imagine how devastated you must feel. Sending hugs your way!

glamakitti · February 2016

I am so sorry for loss, heartbroken for you.

RiverSong15 · February 2016

Oh, I'm so incredibly sorry to see you back here. Creepy internet hugs.

MissPrint1219 · February 2016

I am so sorry to see you back here, but know that we all understand needing to take time away from posting, so don't feel pressured at all. Just know that we are all sending healing thoughts your way, and we'll be here when you're ready to talk.

dpjennifer · February 2016

I'm so sorry for your loss.

I was so excited to hear that several people made it 'out' of this group lately and was really hoping the best for you. Sending some hugs and peaceful thoughts to you.

Aquarius923 · February 2016

I'm so sorry for your loss.

cjs260 · February 2016

My heart breaks for you. There are no words. We'll be here when you are ready.

LaurenAsh23 · February 2016

Sorry you're back and sorry for your loss. Is your dr doing any testing since its your third loss??

FireInWonderland · February 2016

Hi ladies. Thanks everyone for all the love ❤️ This weekend was rough, but it had a couple bright spots. DH and I had a "funeral" where we released a balloon with well wishes and positive thoughts for baby.

We sent fetal tissue in for testing today, and we will wait a few weeks for those results and we see the doc on Wednesday to discuss referral for us both to get tested. We aren't even going to try until we get all the results back - we don't want to go through this a fourth time only to find out a simple treatment would have helped.

In the meantime, I changed my career plans. I was going to be starting nursing school next semester. Instead I'm taking the MCAT - I want to be an RE. I want to help moms like me and the rest of us who are having so much trouble conceiving. And being a nurse I can only do so much. (That's not to say nurses aren't amazing and awesome. I just want more control over what happens. Nurses are an integral part of health care and are irreplaceable.) So I have the distraction necessary to really focus on me.

I will be a dirty lurker for the most part, but I will post here and there and give as much support to other ladies as a I can.

@zrain - I felt the same way, I was so sad to see you leave S16. We can help each other through this. ❤️

MissAmeliaPond · February 2016

I am so terribly sorry for your loss @FireInWonderland. I think your plan to take the MCAT and apply to medical school is awesome. *hugs*

zrain · February 2016

@FireInWonderland I am so proud of you. You've taken this f@&$ed up hand you were dealt and are turning it around to help others in your situation. I agree that you would be limited in that endeavor by going into nursing. As wonderful as it is, we are ultimately limited in our scope. Your own experiences will make you an even better RE as you'll be able to personally relate to your patients. You are strong and resilient and courageous!

GoldenTMama · February 2016

I'm so sorry for your loss. I wish you all the best, and you know we are all here if you need us.

DinosaurJumper · February 2016

I love your plan to become a RE! You will learn so much to help others and also plenty about your own body and TTC doing that, I think it is beautiful and you will be a great RE for all those others out there that need some light

Good luck with your MCATs!

FireInWonderland · February 2016

Thank you @zrain @DinosaurJumper @MissAmeliaPond ! I know it will be a while before I make it to RE but this board and my experiences have taught me how important REs can be to women and families like us and ours. I really appreciate the support. My mom thinks I'm nuts

NamelessAria · February 2016

Nooooo.

I was so happy for you when you get your BFP and I was really hoping that it would be your take-home rainbow baby. This is terribly and horribly unfair. I'm so, so sorry. There aren't even words.

ETA since I was slow responding to this thread and I saw you had updated: the "funeral" for baby sounded lovely. While I'm so very sad for you that it's something you had to do I love the idea of having some sort of "funeral" for the babies we never get to meet. It was very touching. Hopefully it gave you and your DH a tiny bit of comfort and closure.

FireInWonderland · February 2016

@NamelessAria it did. We did the same thing for the last two miscarriages as well, and it brought us peace each time. We are taking a break now until all the testing is done which is also kind of peaceful. I'm just not ready to try again.

NamelessAria · February 2016

I admittedly don't know a lot about the testing for recurrent MCs. I guess it's one of those things I'm hoping I never need to know about. But hopefully, if there is such a thing, they'll find something that is an easy fix so next time you get your take-home baby.

FireInWonderland · February 2016

NamelessAria said:

I admittedly don't know a lot about the testing for recurrent MCs. I guess it's one of those things I'm hoping I never need to know about. But hopefully, if there is such a thing, they'll find something that is an easy fix so next time you get your take-home baby.

Me either. Supposedly there's a lot they can test for, and once we see the doc tomorrow I'll know more. In the meantime, I decided not to google anything because you always find the most horrifying stories when you google

queenklau · February 2016

FireInWonderland said:

NamelessAria said:

I admittedly don't know a lot about the testing for recurrent MCs. I guess it's one of those things I'm hoping I never need to know about. But hopefully, if there is such a thing, they'll find something that is an easy fix so next time you get your take-home baby.

Me either. Supposedly there's a lot they can test for, and once we see the doc tomorrow I'll know more. In the meantime, I decided not to google anything because you always find the most horrifying stories when you google

I can share my experience. I was tested for he following:
-genetic testing of tissue, to look for genetic de
-karyotyope (chromosomal analysis) on both DH and me.
-hormone levels (CD3 and CD21) for 1st cycle Post-mc-FHS and progesterone
-thyroid function
-blood clotting
-testing for PCOS/polycistic
-(Edited due to premature posting) I had a plan to look at my cervix with saline & u/s for 2nd cycle post-mc, but I got results for the genetic tests and my baby hadTurners syndrome.

FireInWonderland · February 2016

@klauerinaking I go to talk with my doc this morning about all the testing. Thanks for the info, now I have an idea what kind of questions to be asking. ❤️

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