I was part of the TTC board after loss and posted last week how we were done trying because the pressure was too much after two back to back miscarriages and all the rollercoaster of emotions that come with even just trying. I had a negative pregnancy test and a negative blood beta test last week and I honestly accepted them as true.
But then I all of a sudden wasn't myself this week-- crying at seriously EVERYTHING, round ligament-like pelvic pain i had with my son and peeing seriously the most i've ever gone in my life. So i retested, and was 99.9% sure I'd get a negative, since those blood tests are scary accurate from my understanding. NOT SO. I got a BFP! Once last night and then again this morning. Despite all odds and despite my chalking everything up to pms, I got a positive test. I'm so at peace, but i'm also so shocked. I feel absolutely great and normal just like i did with my first pregnancy with my son (And i plan to enjoy that while i can), and i don't feel abnormal and 'something's up' like i did with my last two pregnancies that ended with miscarriage. This i take as a very good sign! I'm hopeful, optimistic, I feel wonderful and I'm glowing with happiness after a lot of challenges.
Now my question is, how on earth do i keep this a secret for a while? With my first pregnancy we told right away but this time i want to be more careful and just do it on our own time when we're ready considering my history of m/c'ing. I'm wanting to soak this all in just my husband and I for a while, at least til we hear the heartbeat. BUT we see family all the time, spend time with them every weekend extensive periods of time. Any tips? Luckily, both my sister-in-laws are pregnant and add for some distraction from me for a while. I don't think I can make it til the first trimester with how much time we spend with them and then with all the symptoms and needing to give up certain foods (like feta, coffee, etc stuff we all eat regularly and wlill be noticed if i avoid them), but making it til we hear the heart seems more realistic. Thoughts???