What is going on with me??

Re: What is going on with me??

• ChrissyD1203 member

  January 2016

  @babybluu - I'm 17 days pp. I had every single feeling you mentioned above exactly how you are describing them (only I didn't have a planned home birth and I didn't end up with an emergency c section although I was 10 minutes away from getting one). I described my feelings to my therapist and she said they are all perfectly normal. I still am mourning the pregnancy and birth experience at this point but somewhere around day 14 the feelings got less intense (ie I'm down to 5 random crying episodes per day instead of 20). My only advice is to allow yourself to have those feelings.

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• scornwell717 member

  January 2016

  Omg I cried and cried when I left the hospital too!! I loved all the nurses and the excitement of people visiting and of course calling for room service and seriously I cried at every little thing for like the first two weeks. I wanted to have the baby all over again so I could experience the feeling of her being placed on my chest- over and over again. I knew it was all hormones but I was still so confused.
  I miss being pregnant now too. I went to Target all by myself the other day and missed it even more because nobody smiled at me or was nice to me for no reason. I just looked like an ordinary, ugly, tired person strolling through Target.

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• mltarrio member

  January 2016

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  The feelings you have about your birth experience really resonate with me. I had a very similar situation. I was planning a natural birth at the birthing center, and ended up with an emergency c section after over 24 hours of active labor. I cried for days over my birth experience, and I had a panic attack when we went back to the hospital where baby was born 10 days later to meet the LC. I think it's really normal to mourn the loss of the birth you wanted, especially if you had a rough labor that didn't go according to plan. My baby will be 3 weeks old tomorrow, and my feelings have faded a bit. It does get better.

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• jordans_wife member

  January 2016 edited January 2016

  I think it's just the way your baby blues are hitting you. The hormone crash causes baby blues and I think that's just what you're feeling sad about. After the birth of my first 2 for maybe 2 to 3 weeks after I would cry because of how much I loved them. I'd be fine the entire day but when the sun went down I'd get sad and incredibly lonely feeling. I'd sit in the bath and cry because they were my everything and someday- like 18 yrs down the road- they'd leave me. Lol! It's just what I would feel sad about and I think every woman going through the hormone crash is just sad about something.

  

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• l4rk member

  January 2016

  Yep, my midwife already prepped me for this. She said you get a surge of hormones when milk comes in and it will cause you to just want to cry for days. But to also know this is normal, completely temporary and not the sign of a downward spiral. :-)

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• babybluu member

  January 2016

  Lol thanks ladies! I have this overwhelming feeling of love for my baby. Like I can never put her down to be alone (safely) for a second because I feel so bad, like she knows she's alone and that breaks my heart. I hold her 24/7. I can't even put her in her rock n play at night cuz I don't want her to wake up alone. I'm a mess lol

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• alisongem member

  January 2016

  @scornwell717 yes yes yes yes! Everything you said! Haha. People couldn't even tell I was pregnant until the last couple weeks so I only got to enjoy the extra niceness for a short amount of time. I miss my nurses and I miss people only visiting for a short while.. As opposed to coming to our place and staying forever. Also the feeling of the baby coming out and being placed directly on my chest was unforgettable! I replay it in my kind over and over and over!

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• scornwell717 member

  January 2016

  @alisongem I play it in my mind over and over again too!! And the fact that her dad (who was a total douche throughout my pregnancy) kissed my hand right after she came out and looked like he was about to cry. Such a simple gesture made the birth experience that much better.

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• Firsttimer16 member

  January 2016

  Yes! To everything!! I knew I was going to miss pregnancy and boy do I!
  I miss my bump, feeling her move inside me, I miss knowing I could protect Her inside and that it was just us two!
  I miss the smiles and gestures from complete strangers and the attention from family and friends!
  I especially miss moments with my OH where we could plan and chat scout what was ahead and the way he looked at me and bump!
  I adore my little one and wouldn't change a thing but i keep asking oh questions about d day to relive it but also to make sure he's stllme excited and to hear him say how proud he is. It's like I'm worries that the novelty will Wear off! So much so that I'll cry if he even says he's tired when baby is crying in the night!!
  It's all madness and I know it but I cant help it and on days when im shattered the tears just come and no reason begind them! Glad I'm not alone

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• carlyhammond member

  January 2016

  I wish I could go back to the day my son was born.
  The hospital didn't take his newborn footprints and handprints / he's a month old and I don't have that.
  Which makes me so upset, he's already grown and I don't have that memory.
  

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• ondabianca member

  January 2016

  I also really miss being pregnant and would love to do the birth experience all over again. I had good experiences with both. I see now why people have babies so close together, I could literally be pregnant for years if we could afford lots of children!

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• MssyMmmy member

  January 2016

  @carlyhammond my hospital didn't do that either. I was really dissapointed. I keep meaning to do something with footprints myself but I so tired I forget. My baby is almost 4 weeks old and so much bigger now

  
  

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• alisongem member

  January 2016

  @scornwell717 my husband and I fought for a lot of my pregnancy but he was so awesome while/after giving birth. It was all so perfect!

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