This isn't so much of a question as it is a vent - I'm seriously over these hormones and I've only just begun. I'm not the most mentally stable to begin with - have dealt with a lot of depression and anxiety - and now that I have these extra hormones going on, I can't even stand myself. And I'm not even pregnant yet! If was pregnant I feel like I would at least be able to accept it, but I honestly cannot stand myself. I can't stop eating. I'm constantly angry. That's all. Just anger. We are in the middle of our first round of IUI. First. Pretty sure there will be more round I don't know how I will survive. And my husband? My poor husband. At least he's busy with work so he can avoid me. Is this normal?? How am I supposed to handle this? On top of it my brother and his wife tried for like a day and got pregnant. My best friend's husband got a vasectomy and they got pregnant. They say they know how I feel. Really?? I'll refrain from saying what I'm thinking at this point.
Re: hormones
Me:34, Wife: 32
IF reasoning = MFI: Zero Sperm Count using FairFax donor bank
IVF: 2011 = BFN, lost all 10 embryos (with C/Ps)
Jan 2014 - OBGYN (not RE) found and removed wife's "field of" uterine polyps after failed IVF
Moving on to surrogacy (actually a planned adoption)
Surrogate IUI#1: 7.17.12 = BFP!! 15dpiui = 256, 17dpiui = 346
Oliver Zane born - 3/29/2013 on Good Friday!
IUI #4 - #6: 2014-2015 = BFN (with C/Ps)
Switch sperm donors, start ketosis diet to reduce inflammation late 2015
IVF 2: Jan and Feb 2016, 3 great looking, 8 cell 3 day embryos. Two ET, one frozen
2.18.2016 (8dp3dt) = BFFP!
2.22.2016 (12dp3dt) = 649!!
Started foster care experience in 2012. Now waiting to adopt our foster daughter, 7, who has lived with us for 3 years.
"Wait for your God, and don't give up on Him - ever!" Hosea 12:6 (msg)
Wow @Cmartin6706! That is just beautiful. It actually brought a few tears to my eyes reading that. It's nice that you're on this board and can offer us ladies a bit of insight as to what our DHs may be feeling.
Me - 28, Lean PCOS
DH - 31
Married June 2010, TTC since March 2014
Blog: ourbinarystar.com
FET cycle #3 Transfer July 28th 2016, Triplets born healthy on February 26th 2017 at 33w1d!
And I know that everyone's different but, if it helps, the moodiness got better with me. I'be been on one medicated cycle or another almost non-stop since April. I learned how to tolerate the hormones, I think. Somewhat.
7 IUIs, 7 BFNs.
2 IVF attempts, both cancelled and converted to IUI, both BFNs.
Decided that my tired old ovaries are ready to retire.
Next step- reciprocal IVF, using my wife's eggs, my uterus!
fresh 5 day transfer (2 embryos) 4/17/17- BFP!
Identical twins "due" 1/2/17 (but anticipated arrival sometime December)
We are taking a month off after our 3rd IUI. The hormones were making me insane!! I've never been so irritated, emotional, weepy, just all over the place. I hated it.
I just turned 34 so we feel like we have this one year left to give it a good try (without IVF... No insurance coverage) and I just am not sure how many more medicated cycles I can take!! If I just had a number I could get thru it easier... If someone just said, "2 more months of drugs/feeling crappy/having someone up in your "business" every two weeks/doctor's appointments etc" it would be so much easier!!
Good luck to you!! Hang in there
I too have had a depression before starting all this, and am very afraid to fall back. But haven't yet!
No hubby here to vent at, but boy am I glad for my two besties (and that they actually still want to hang out with me) as they have gotten the full load way too many times.
Its difficult to handle, and for some it gets easier for others it stays the same.
I'm an up-and-down kind a girl...some days I am doing fantastic, other days I like to murder someone...and not the clean kind of murder, no the-full-on-horror-story-like-murder-where-there-is-nothing-left-in-the-end...and whoops, I am back to being a kitten!
GL and keep going strong x
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