How's it going ladies?
Glad to say my anxiety/depression have improved somewhat. The mornings are REALLY hard for me, but the days have gotten a bit better. I'm dealing with a weird medical issue right now and have to see a urologist. The OB/GYN threw out a wild guess that I have Interstitial Cystitis (which really scares me) but I probably won't know what's going on for a while. I'm imagining a lot of tests and trial treatments. I think that's what's causing me the most anxiety right now, because I'm in pain / uncomfortable and there's really not much anyone can do about it.
I think going back to work helped a bit because I'm back into my "normal" routine vs the unpredictability of the holidays. I can't say I'm SUPER EXCITED about the pregnancy yet, but I know I'll get there. I have a therapy appointment tomorrow morning and I'm looking forward to it. Love my therapist.
Re: Pregnancy/Mental Illness Weekly Check-In
I'm a little high strung because the OB hasn't called me back yet - I'll be calling her tomorrow bright and early to find it why (it has been 3 days now)! Otherwise I'm feeling pretty good! It's easy for me to avoid my triggers, though.
I'm sure the anxiety is going to come washing back in as soon as the reality of pregnancy hits me again, but for right now, I'm appreciating the calm before the storm.
Luckily, I've been sleeping well. I'm too tired not to. I had vivid nightmares very early on, but they've been exchanged for either (seemingly) dreamless nights or vivid dreams that are just weird, not scary.
● IUI #2: BFP - early M/C :'(
● IUI #3: BFN
● IUI #4: BFN
● IVF/FET #1 (2 transferred): BFP! TWINS!
● FET #2 (1 transferred): BFP! BOY #3!
● Natural #1: BFP - M/C @ 8 weeks :'(
● Natural #2: BFP - M/C @ 5w5d :'(
For me - I went to my acupuncture appointment today and was pleasantly surprised to find that, in addition to my anxiety, my acupuncturist was able to acupuncture for loss prevention points as well! So I will be receiving anxiety treatment and also treatment to prevent loss. I'm so thrilled and relieved it's possible, and keeping my FX. I've got a good feeling this pregnancy and also about the acupuncture treatment.
● IUI #2: BFP - early M/C :'(
● IUI #3: BFN
● IUI #4: BFN
● IVF/FET #1 (2 transferred): BFP! TWINS!
● FET #2 (1 transferred): BFP! BOY #3!
● Natural #1: BFP - M/C @ 8 weeks :'(
● Natural #2: BFP - M/C @ 5w5d :'(
My depression is being treated in other ways (therapy, group therapy, essential oils, etc), and I'm actually feeling like I'm getting to a better place with that.
However, my anxiety has increased since getting my BFP because we were not planning on having our fourth&last for at the very least another year. And I'm worried what this pregnancy will do to me mentally and emotionally. I'm already having irritability, which has me very concerned for the next 9 months.
Evelyn (3.24.10), Graham (5.30.13) & Miles (8.28.16)