TTC After a Loss

I'm back - waiting to miscarry (TW)

For those who are newer to this board and did not know me before, I got my second BFP in November after trying for 15 months after my first loss. We saw the heartbeat on US at 6+4, but had a very different experience at 9+4. Our baby no longer had a HB and measured only 8 weeks. I am now 10+2 and still waiting to miscarry naturally.

I will be benched for a while but found this board comforting and helpful before, so I thought it might be helpful to re-join, even while I go through the loss. I'm sorry we are all here but appreciate that we have each other - we all understand this process of grief and mourning.
me 30; DH 35
TTC since May 2014.
Aug 2014 BFP, EDD April 22, 2015. Low progesterone, started suppositories. Loss at 5w6d.
Nov 19, 2015 BFP at 13 dpo, EDD July 29, 2016. MMC discovered 12/29 (9+4). Natural miscarriage 1/16 (12+1).
AMH results 0.42, 1.2; FSH 12.1, AFC 10, dx DOR. 
RPL testing results normal. Nurse recommended progesterone suppositories in TWW.
Clomid + trigger + TI cycle August 2016 - failed. Thin lining.
Femara + trigger + TI cycle December 2016 - failed. Thin lining.
Short LP (8 days).
Acupuncture & Chinese herbs starting January 2017, lengthened LP to 10 days 

Summer 2016 LFAF awards: 



Winter 2016/2017 LFAF awards:

Re: I'm back - waiting to miscarry (TW)

  • @AL_TwinCities I am so so so sorry for your loss. There just aren't words for how much this blows.
    TW: MMC
    BFP1 12/24/14 - EDD 09/07/15 (D/C 8w1d)
    BFP2 6/12/15 - EDD 2/22/16 (D/C 10w3d)
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    Diagnoses and Treatments
    PCOS (myo-inositol, excercize)
    Indeterminant levels of APS IgM antibodies (baby aspirin)
    Sub-septate uterus (hysteroscopic septoplasty 12/18/15)
    ———
    BFP3 05/02/16 EDD 01/09/17 DS born 01/05/17
    BFP4 01/28/19 EDD 10/?/19 🤞🙏

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  • No! I'm so so so sorry @AL_TwinCities My heart is absolutely  breaking for you and your DH

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    BFP #1 12/2012, DS born 8/2013
    BFP #2 7/2015, MMC and D&C 9/2015
    BFP #3 11/2015, CP
    BFP #4 1/2016, DD born 10/2016




  • TW----------------

    I am so sorry! Concurrent mc is such a heartbreaking experience, I wouldn't wish it on anyone. I am currently ttc after 2 mc over the past year, similar situation to yours. HB at 7 wks and no HB at 9-10 weeks.
    Hang in there, you may feel differently. I had completely different emotions between the two. I was very angry second time around, but also very proactive to ID the root of the problem. Are you getting testing done this time around? I just got my results and everything came back normal with me, but my baby had turners syndrome, which was the cause of my second mc. It was good to find out the cause so that we can prepare better next time.

    I wish you the best in healing and then ttc when you are ready.
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    BFP1 04/24/2015 EDD Dec 2015 MMC 10W5d;
    BFP 2 09/25/2015 EDD June 2016 MMC 9wks; 
    BFP 3 03/22/2016 EDD Dec 6th 2016 

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  • @klauerinaking we are thinking we probably won't send the tissue off for testing. I'm not sure if the information would help, or just stress us out more for future pregnancies. We'll see though how we feel in the moment. When we got our BFP this time around we were two weeks away from an infertility consult appointment, so we will get that back on the calendar once the miscarriage is over.

    Thank you all for your support. I knew this would be a good place to come back to.
    me 30; DH 35
    TTC since May 2014.
    Aug 2014 BFP, EDD April 22, 2015. Low progesterone, started suppositories. Loss at 5w6d.
    Nov 19, 2015 BFP at 13 dpo, EDD July 29, 2016. MMC discovered 12/29 (9+4). Natural miscarriage 1/16 (12+1).
    AMH results 0.42, 1.2; FSH 12.1, AFC 10, dx DOR. 
    RPL testing results normal. Nurse recommended progesterone suppositories in TWW.
    Clomid + trigger + TI cycle August 2016 - failed. Thin lining.
    Femara + trigger + TI cycle December 2016 - failed. Thin lining.
    Short LP (8 days).
    Acupuncture & Chinese herbs starting January 2017, lengthened LP to 10 days 

    Summer 2016 LFAF awards: 



    Winter 2016/2017 LFAF awards:

  • I am so, so sorry to hear this. There is something about being in the "multiple loss" camp that just feels so surreal and awful, and I am sorry you find yourself there, too. Please be kind to yourself and I hope things progress soon so the physical part is over ASAP.

    We are here for you.
  • Hugs @AL_TwinCities I've been thinking about you a lot <3
    Me: 35 - DH: 34
    Married: 08/2009
    BFP #1: 11/2010 - DS born 07/2011
    TTC #2: 02/2014
    RE Dx-Unexplained IF: 06/2015
    BFP #2: 08/12/15 - MC 08/27/15
    BFP #3: 03/11/16 - CP
    BFP #4: 04/09/16 - DD born 12/2016  <3


  • So sorry to hear this. Take care of yourself!
    Me: 26     DH: 25
    DS1 -- 9/30/2016


  • I'm truly sorry for your loss. I hope this board does help in some small way, as I know it has for so many of us. 
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  • I'm so sorry for your loss and your struggles TTC. It's always so heartbreaking, and there are no real words of comfort, but I hope this board helps you again. Hugs.
  • So sorry you are back!
  • I'm sorry for your loss! I hope you and your family find peace and comfort in this difficult time. Also hoping your stay with us is short and that you don't find yourself needing to return again down the road. Multiple MCs are just tragic.
  • So sorry to hear about this. I remember that pain from my loss and I am so sorry you're going through this again after trying for so long. FX that it's much quicker for you the next time you are off the bench. Again, words can't express my condolences for you at this painful time, my thoughts are with you and your family.
    TTC #1 - Started 7/2015
    MC #1 - 1/10/2014
    MC #2 - 10/15/2015

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  • What an emotional roller coaster you have been on...sending good thoughts your way so that you have the strength to handle whatever is thrown your way over the next few months. I am so very sorry for both of your losses.
    H and I both 30
    TTC #1 started Aug 2014
    BFP Apr 3 2015
    natural M/C April 20 2015 @ 6w6d
    BFP Nov 18 2015
    natural M/C Nov 23 2015 @ 5w4d.

  • So sorry to hear about your loss. Hugs.
  • So sorry for your loss <3
    “Be present in all things and thankful for all things.”  ~Maya Angelou

    ~~~~ TW ~~~~~~

    Me: 40    DH: 39
    Married 12.19.13
    BFP #1 1/14, MC 2/14 (6wks)
    BFP #2 1/15, MMC/D&C 3/15 (12wks)
    BFP #3 6/15, MC 8/15 (9wks)
    BFP #4 4/16, MC 4/16 (5wks)
    BFP #5 7/16, MMC 8/16 (10 wks)
    BFP #6 3/4 , EDD 11/9/17
  • So sorry you have to be here again. We're all here when you need us.
  • Sorry for your loss.
    _______________________________________________
    TTC#1 July 2015 
    • BFP: 9/16/15 — MC: 11/8/15 Blighted Ovum
    • BFP: 3/10/16 — Baby Girl born 11/20/16
    TTC#2 April 2019 
    • BFP: 9/12/19 — EDD 5/15/20

  • I'm so sorry for your loss.

    MC #1: D&C Oct 23, 2015 (7.5 weeks)
    MC #2: July 1, 2016 (5.5 weeks)
    MC #3: October 17, 2016 (CP)
    RE #1: RPL testing November 2016-January 2017
    MC #4: Feb. 28, 2017 (CP)
    RE #2: Additional RPL testing March-November 2017
    MC #5: January 2019 (6.5 weeks)

    RE #3: More testing 2023. 
    Egg Retrieval Sept/Oct 2023, 2 good embryos after PGT-A testing.
    Surgery for endometriosis January 2024
    Lupron Depo March 2024.  Benched 3 months.

    FET #1: June 3, 2024 (failed)

    Lupron Depo June 2024. Benched 3 months again before next FET.

    FET #2: September 2024 (failed)

    FET #3: December 2024 (failed)

    #BitterHagPartyOf1

  • So sorry for your loss. I know there are no words right now, but my heart goes out for you.

                                        
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  • I'm so sorry you've had to go through this again.
  • I am so sorry for your loss. I remember you from when you were on TTGP a while ago, and it is heartbreaking to see this. *Hugs*

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  • I'm so sorry for your loss! I'm new to this board after a CP and can't imagine what you're going through. Heartbreaking. **Hugs**
  • Oh, this absolutely breaks my heart! I'm so sorry for your loss. I will be praying for you and DH.
    Rainbow baby Dean is due 2/17/17!
  • I'm so sorry for your losses @AL_TwinCities .  Going through it once was hard enough.  I can't imagine going through it a second time.  ((hugs))
  • I am so so sorry. I feel awful for you, I just can't imagine the pain. Take really good care of yourself and know that you're not alone. I wish you and your DH the best and will pray for you. It's never easy so cut yourself some slack while you grieve such a loss.
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  • Im so very sorry @AL_TwinCities...I'll be praying for you and your family, we are here for you.
  • @AL_TwinCities So very sorry for your loss...praying for healing for you and your DH.
  • I hate to see you here! I remember you from TTGP. I had a MC in Oct. So sorry for your loss

                            

    Me: 33 DH: 39
    DD 1: 5-24-13
    TTC#2: BFP: 8-23-15 MMC: 10-29-15
    DD 2: 9-15-16
    DD 3: 9-16-17


  • I'm so sorry. :( I wish there was something I could say or do that would take some of your pain away. Here is a creepy internet hug

    Hopefully, whenever you're ready to try again, you finally get your take-home rainbow baby.
    Me: 28 Husband: 31
    TTC#1: January 2015- September 2016
    Infertility, Recurrent Pregnancy Loss
    Rainbow baby born June 6, 2017  ❤️

    Baby #2 due June 12, 2018
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  • @AL_TwinCities hugs to you. I am wondering how you are doing? I hope things went as smoothly as possible for you. Please do check in if you feel up to it. And know that we are here with you.
  • Hey all, thank you so much for all of your support. I am still waiting for this to start, and have a follow up appointment with my doctor on Tuesday where we will talk about next steps if nothing has happened by then. I hate the wait, but still am really hoping this happens naturally. My last loss was just shy of 6 weeks, and it just felt like a heavy period. I had a really hard time accepting that loss and feeling like I had closure. For some reason I think physically feeling the miscarriage will help me process this one. Thank you all for your well wishes and kind words.
    me 30; DH 35
    TTC since May 2014.
    Aug 2014 BFP, EDD April 22, 2015. Low progesterone, started suppositories. Loss at 5w6d.
    Nov 19, 2015 BFP at 13 dpo, EDD July 29, 2016. MMC discovered 12/29 (9+4). Natural miscarriage 1/16 (12+1).
    AMH results 0.42, 1.2; FSH 12.1, AFC 10, dx DOR. 
    RPL testing results normal. Nurse recommended progesterone suppositories in TWW.
    Clomid + trigger + TI cycle August 2016 - failed. Thin lining.
    Femara + trigger + TI cycle December 2016 - failed. Thin lining.
    Short LP (8 days).
    Acupuncture & Chinese herbs starting January 2017, lengthened LP to 10 days 

    Summer 2016 LFAF awards: 



    Winter 2016/2017 LFAF awards:

  • @AL_TwinCities

    I did not want to see either of us here :( I am sorry you are going through this again too.
  • @AL_TwinCities

    I did not want to see either of us here :( I am sorry you are going through this again too.

    Oh @CoachBeckyCooper I'm so sorry you are also going through another loss. So many hugs.
    me 30; DH 35
    TTC since May 2014.
    Aug 2014 BFP, EDD April 22, 2015. Low progesterone, started suppositories. Loss at 5w6d.
    Nov 19, 2015 BFP at 13 dpo, EDD July 29, 2016. MMC discovered 12/29 (9+4). Natural miscarriage 1/16 (12+1).
    AMH results 0.42, 1.2; FSH 12.1, AFC 10, dx DOR. 
    RPL testing results normal. Nurse recommended progesterone suppositories in TWW.
    Clomid + trigger + TI cycle August 2016 - failed. Thin lining.
    Femara + trigger + TI cycle December 2016 - failed. Thin lining.
    Short LP (8 days).
    Acupuncture & Chinese herbs starting January 2017, lengthened LP to 10 days 

    Summer 2016 LFAF awards: 



    Winter 2016/2017 LFAF awards:

  • @AL_TwinCities I saw your update in the miscarriage board. It looks like there are other women sharing first hand accounts there so I didn't want to put condolences on there. That thread will be a helpful resource and I admire your bravery and willingness to do that.

    I am so glad that this ordeal/process has finally gotten you out of your waiting/limbo stage. I have had you in my thoughts these days, and have so much compassion for you.

    I hope you can rest today and start to heal.

    (((Hugs))) to you from an Internet stranger.
  • Thank you so much @alanna3622. This made me tear up - after all you have been through yourself, you still are able to offer such comfort to others. Hugs right back!
    me 30; DH 35
    TTC since May 2014.
    Aug 2014 BFP, EDD April 22, 2015. Low progesterone, started suppositories. Loss at 5w6d.
    Nov 19, 2015 BFP at 13 dpo, EDD July 29, 2016. MMC discovered 12/29 (9+4). Natural miscarriage 1/16 (12+1).
    AMH results 0.42, 1.2; FSH 12.1, AFC 10, dx DOR. 
    RPL testing results normal. Nurse recommended progesterone suppositories in TWW.
    Clomid + trigger + TI cycle August 2016 - failed. Thin lining.
    Femara + trigger + TI cycle December 2016 - failed. Thin lining.
    Short LP (8 days).
    Acupuncture & Chinese herbs starting January 2017, lengthened LP to 10 days 

    Summer 2016 LFAF awards: 



    Winter 2016/2017 LFAF awards:

  • I am so sorry for your loss @AL_TwinCities. Miscarriage is heart breaking. I had my 2nd one this summer and also decided to go to try to let it pass naturally. I used acupuncture to help and swear by it. I'm also from the Twin Cities and I can give you a great recommendation to a local acupuncturist if you're interested.
  • I am so sorry for your loss @AL_TwinCities. Miscarriage is heart breaking. I had my 2nd one this summer and also decided to go to try to let it pass naturally. I used acupuncture to help and swear by it. I'm also from the Twin Cities and I can give you a great recommendation to a local acupuncturist if you're interested.
    Thank you @Angela7Hickman! I have been seeing an acupuncturist weekly since we were TTC - I started seeing her the cycle I got pregnant, so I definitely believe in the power of chinese medicine and acupuncture! I go to Healing InSight in Saint Paul and love it.
    me 30; DH 35
    TTC since May 2014.
    Aug 2014 BFP, EDD April 22, 2015. Low progesterone, started suppositories. Loss at 5w6d.
    Nov 19, 2015 BFP at 13 dpo, EDD July 29, 2016. MMC discovered 12/29 (9+4). Natural miscarriage 1/16 (12+1).
    AMH results 0.42, 1.2; FSH 12.1, AFC 10, dx DOR. 
    RPL testing results normal. Nurse recommended progesterone suppositories in TWW.
    Clomid + trigger + TI cycle August 2016 - failed. Thin lining.
    Femara + trigger + TI cycle December 2016 - failed. Thin lining.
    Short LP (8 days).
    Acupuncture & Chinese herbs starting January 2017, lengthened LP to 10 days 

    Summer 2016 LFAF awards: 



    Winter 2016/2017 LFAF awards:

  • I'm so sorry for your loss love. Praying for you. I hope you take care of yourself and know that you are loved. <3
  • I am so sorry me amd my husband went through waiting to naturally miscarriage the last 2 weeks. It was such an emotional roller coaster. We had no heart beat just rising hcg levels. Ended up in the ed with a ruptured ectopic pregnancy. Couldn't imagine your shoes. Stay strong. Praying for you
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