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MacBaby0805
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Surprise pregnancy after loss.
MacBaby0805
member
About a week and a half ago, the two lines showed up. Total surprise. And totally terrifying.
7 months ago today, we lost our little boy. He was almost 8 months old, perfect and healthy and amazing. We lost him in a sudden, terrible accident, and the day they told me in the hospital that they couldn't bring him back, I fell to the ground and a part of me is still there. Navigating through the after effects of losing a child is the most impossible thing I've ever done, and I still don't know that I can keep going.
But now I'm 7 weeks pregnant. We took a few days to think and process, and we know that we want this baby. That we'll love this baby every bit as much as we do our boys. But I am so very scared.
I'm not looking for answers or pity. I know what happened to my family and my baby is terrible and that it's painful for anyone to even hear. I am just so afraid, and I don't know where to turn. My partner is so supportive and just wants to keep me going. But I haven't been healthy since my son died. I've lost too much weight because I haven't been eating well in 7 months. I don't sleep. I haven't been able to go back to work. I have a hard time getting the energy together to play with our oldest son (6 years old) I don't even go out to see my friends or family anymore.
I try like hell every day to convince myself that my son passing was not because I failed him. And that's been a huge struggle. I worry every day that I'm failing my oldest son. And now I'm worried that this tiny innocent baby inside me is going to be failed by me, too.
If anyone has gone through this...please tell me how the hell to keep going.
7 months ago today, we lost our little boy. He was almost 8 months old, perfect and healthy and amazing. We lost him in a sudden, terrible accident, and the day they told me in the hospital that they couldn't bring him back, I fell to the ground and a part of me is still there. Navigating through the after effects of losing a child is the most impossible thing I've ever done, and I still don't know that I can keep going.
But now I'm 7 weeks pregnant. We took a few days to think and process, and we know that we want this baby. That we'll love this baby every bit as much as we do our boys. But I am so very scared.
I'm not looking for answers or pity. I know what happened to my family and my baby is terrible and that it's painful for anyone to even hear. I am just so afraid, and I don't know where to turn. My partner is so supportive and just wants to keep me going. But I haven't been healthy since my son died. I've lost too much weight because I haven't been eating well in 7 months. I don't sleep. I haven't been able to go back to work. I have a hard time getting the energy together to play with our oldest son (6 years old) I don't even go out to see my friends or family anymore.
I try like hell every day to convince myself that my son passing was not because I failed him. And that's been a huge struggle. I worry every day that I'm failing my oldest son. And now I'm worried that this tiny innocent baby inside me is going to be failed by me, too.
If anyone has gone through this...please tell me how the hell to keep going.
Re: Surprise pregnancy after loss.
Have you tried therapy? I went to it for other purposes but it helped me. I swear it saved my sanity, and therefore my marriage.
It might help you place your grief and still function and live.