February 2016 Moms
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pgal check-in 12/23
rainbowminion
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How is everyone doing with the holidays? I know for me, I had a lot of daydreams for my baby centered on Christmas. Which just made it that much harder when Christmas rolled around and she wasn't there. Extra big hugs for anyone struggling!
Re: pgal check-in 12/23
How have the holidays been for you? I hope everyone finds moments of peace in what can be such a difficult time.
It's been over 4 years since our Mary died, so things are a little different for me. I remember those early times though, and how extremely painful they were. This pregnancy is keeping me plenty distracted with complications (for me, not the baby, thank goodness).
I am doing okay, it is more of Easter and my birthday for me that will be hard. We were going to tell our family on Easter, but we found out the week prior we had a MMC, and had to start the process on my birthday and the day after. I am very thankful though to have the support of this group to get through all of that, and I'll have this little girl to hold during those difficult times. Hopefully these next couple of weeks, will be a distraction with business before we are all due.
We told our families last year at Christmas with two different gifts/puzzles. I've got DH's family reveal video on my phone, he has mine. The pregnancy ended sometime around then based on the ultrasound we had about three weeks later. It's been in my mind a little more as Christmas approaches - but luckily I've been pretty busy and distracted. The quiet moments are tough.
I'm starting to get much more anxious about delivery. At 18 weeks, I was told I had vasa previa, along with placenta previa and succenturiate placenta with velamentous cord insertion. The MFM told me I would be monitored regularly with u/s and would delivery early (between 34 and 36 weeks) via cs. Fast forward to 28 weeks and I was told I only had succenturiate placenta. I got a second opinion and this MFM agreed with the 28 week scan. He said he was puzzled. My ob has been very patient with my questions and concerns; she is willing to do a cs if I want. For now, I've opted to try for a natural birth but I'm starting to get scared. What if they are wrong? VP is harder to find as pregnancies progress. The consequences can be dire (fetal exsanguination, brain damage, CP).
At the last scan, lo was transverse. If she doesn't move by my next us, I'll likely be booked for a cs. I would love to have a natural birth and avoid surgery but part of me hopes she doesn't move. Then the decision is made for me. I just can't imagine losing her because of a missed diagnosis.
Sorry for the long post - apparently I had more on my mind than I thought.