9 fricken days until we move! Holy crap. Will be 35 weeks pregnant when driving 17 hours and then have over a week with no furniture, it's gonna be a crappy week. Lol, and of course it doesn't feel like Christmas either.
Benjamin born on - 4/5/12 BFP 12/31/14, EDD 9/08/14 ~ Natural M/C 2/21/14 at 11.5 weeks BFP 5/24/15 - EDD 2/4/16
i'm not sure what category it goes under.. but last night at birthing class, we were 'that couple' when my husband passed out in the middle of a video. funnily enough, it was showing how the epidural works when it goes into the spine and not anything really graphic. he has this phobia of seeing the inside of spines (random i know, but nonetheless he gets freaked out by it) and right there in the middle of class starting making weird breathing noises and went unresponsive for a good 3 minutes. it was scary as hell, but thankfully there were medical guys in the class. he's okay, but yeah, suffice to say he will not be in the room if i get an epidural!
I just had a complete and utter breakdown on DH. I was ugly crying and totally unloaded on him all the thoughts, feelings, and complaints that have been building and building. (I am also running on no sleep because we were at the ER last night because DS broke out in massive all over hives.) Both the crying and the dumping felt so good to just let it all out. I kind of expected it to end in DH getting upset or something because all of the complaints were about him. But he just said he was sorry and started talking to me about what he can do to fix it. I love that man.
I cried last night because SO went to see Star Wars with his friends. He even invited me to come, but I couldn't care less about it. I was just dead set on being unhappy about the situation I guess lol. In my defense, I've not been working much lately and I sat home by myself all day and so I just wanted to relax with him when he got off work.
Surprise BFP! 06/08/15
Nadine GraceMarie 02/10/16
Diagnosed with placenta increta post delivery:
emergency partial hysterectomy - cervix and ovaries still intact Gestational surrogacy or adoption TBD
Christmas is 3 days away and I have not a single present bought. I dont have that many to get but I just dont feel like doing it. Not to mention I have been sick since last week and it got worse yesterday making me unable to shop. So.. this afternoon I will take my sickly self out and try to get gifts. I have zero christmas spirit this year Not to mention all the added stress of personal issues with family going on. Im just done!
@BabySeaTurtles I do that on SO Every once in a while. I just get overwhelmed and ugly cry to him about all this random stuff. He usually feels so bad for me that he doesn't even get mad that half of my bitching is about him lol
I am just super cranky from lack of sleep, sore pretty much everywhere, and have terrible heartburn. I keep wanting to be done with this pregnancy (I know I don't have it as bad as some and should be thankful) but I really don't remember it being this bad this far along last time, I even said that to my husband last night and he agreed I didn't complain nearly as much when I was pregnant with my son. Obviously, I don't really want her out yet but I can't wait to have my sort of normal body back. I've been slacking more and more with the laundry/dishes, cleaning the house in general and cooking much more than usual this time around too. I chalk it up to being older this pregnancy and having a toddler.
Usually when I get out of bed, H is still asleep or he's not even home yet due to his work schedule. He got home at a normal time last night and saw me kind of turtle roll out of bed and started laughing at me. H: "You okay over there?" Me: "This is how I have to get out of bed now!"
I'm so tired of answering the same questions from the same CWs every day and usually it's the same person back-to-back days. It has long been to the point where she asks how I'm doing I just respond with "I'm good, how about you?"
Since we don't have much money this year we decided we can't buy gifts for everyone but instead I am making gift baskets as gift with home made fudge and cookies instead. Now just realized I will be baking all day xmas eve, sigh
I'm actually having a good day today. I got a few things moved around in our bedroom so that there is room for babies. Laundry is almost caught up as are the dishes and since I've been working on it for a few days I have been able to work a little here and there and rest.
I want to nap so bad but after 3 months of trying and 2 years of paying and it not working , the cable guy is finally coming (supoosedly) and of course that means I have to stay up. The last time someone was scheduled they didn't even come and they lied to me saying they did. I was home all day. I think I'd know..
We had a white elephant exchange at work and it was awesome. I got a fuzzy blanket! My coworkers also had gifts on my desk which I feel crappy about because I got nothing for them! Now I get to haul home my blanket, some jam, chocolates, peppermint mocha, and a thermos. Feeling the love
I've been getting bonuses from a lot of my clients and it seriously melts my heart so much. Of course they all sign them with their names and their pets names, but every single card has said "thank you for taking such good care of ____" and for some reason just seeing those words written makes my heart smile and makes me feel so important. I have a huge bond with all of my clients(I mean the animals not the people) so it's just an easy days work and I love it.
I uninvited my sister in law to my baby shower yesterday. She tends to cause drama during special events (my first baby shower and my son's first birthday). My husband told me he lost count of all the holidays she ruined growing up.
Anyway, she started drama with me on Sunday and blatantly lied/played mind games. When I finally got her to admit it, I told her to please not come to my baby shower because I want it to be a happy day.
She's never seen that side of me and I'm proud of myself. I'm SO sick of her treating me like crap and enough is enough! Her number is blocked and she blocked me on FB so good riddance.
She better not just show up or there'll be hell to pay!
We had a white elephant exchange at work and it was awesome. I got a fuzzy blanket! My coworkers also had gifts on my desk which I feel crappy about because I got nothing for them! Now I get to haul home my blanket, some jam, chocolates, peppermint mocha, and a thermos. Feeling the love
I LOVE white elephant exchanges! How fun. It sounds like you made out well!
H just told me that he can't come home for Christmas because the car is acting up. He is 8 hrs away and I have come up with atleast 5 alternative solutions so he can be home. He didn't want to hear about it and I got the wonderful task of telling our two kids that daddy isn't coming home and I get to pick up the heart broken pieces. I'm sooo pissed! Beyond pissed I asked if he would be home after the new year around when the baby is dues he said he didn't know. Ugh!!!! Gosh dang it I hate being a single pregnant parent of two alone for the holidays. Rant Over!!!!
I uninvited my sister in law to my baby shower yesterday. She tends to cause drama during special events (my first baby shower and my son's first birthday). My husband told me he lost count of all the holidays she ruined growing up.
Anyway, she started drama with me on Sunday and blatantly lied/played mind games. When I finally got her to admit it, I told her to please not come to my baby shower because I want it to be a happy day.
She's never seen that side of me and I'm proud of myself. I'm SO sick of her treating me like crap and enough is enough! Her number is blocked and she blocked me on FB so good riddance.
She better not just show up or there'll be hell to pay!
I uninvited my sister in law to my baby shower yesterday. She tends to cause drama during special events (my first baby shower and my son's first birthday). My husband told me he lost count of all the holidays she ruined growing up.
Anyway, she started drama with me on Sunday and blatantly lied/played mind games. When I finally got her to admit it, I told her to please not come to my baby shower because I want it to be a happy day.
She's never seen that side of me and I'm proud of myself. I'm SO sick of her treating me like crap and enough is enough! Her number is blocked and she blocked me on FB so good riddance.
She better not just show up or there'll be hell to pay!
H just told me that he can't come home for Christmas because the car is acting up. He is 8 hrs away and I have come up with atleast 5 alternative solutions so he can be home. He didn't want to hear about it and I got the wonderful task of telling our two kids that daddy isn't coming home and I get to pick up the heart broken pieces. I'm sooo pissed! Beyond pissed I asked if he would be home after the new year around when the baby is dues he said he didn't know. Ugh!!!! Gosh dang it I hate being a single pregnant parent of two alone for the holidays. Rant Over!!!!
Ugh this makes me so mad and its not even my H. I think when you have kids you really, really need to make an effort to be together for holidays. I hope he is trying to find a solution to make it home in time!
My hormones were TOTALLY out of whack in the first trimester, and then, it's like I was a brand new woman for the second trimester. I didn't cry, or get easily angered...third trimester has not been kind.
Yesterday I cried because my cat broke my crock pot. Then I cried because my husband couldn't decide what he wanted for dinner fast enough. The other day I was crying after building our LO's swing and watching it swing back and forth while my dogs laid on either side of it (in my defense there is a super beautiful song that it plays that hit me right in the feels).
I was a pretty sensitive person pre-pregnancy, and didn't think the hormones would be all that bad to me but DAMN was I wrong!
The other swim coach is on vacation with his fam for the holidays(CostaRica!). The older kids have been so whinny and negative that I've ripped into a few times. And then I feel bad because I hate yelling. But when they're not even trying and are 7th-12th graders and I'm standing on a hot pool deck for 2.5hours it's just frustrating
Also after two weeks of going potty great(except #2) this weeks DD is back to only using the potty while naked. And I have little energy to be forceful about training
It seems this week has been overly emotional hormones. Everything has been going wrong--when it rains, it pours. This morning DS managed to pull the tree down and all the ornaments came off as well. It was the icing on the cake. I just collapsed next to the tree on the floor and started crying. I did the whole over dramatic "I'm done with everything" rant while DS just stared at me
Maybe this will make some of you smile. I witnessed this beautiful thing happen this morning:
I got off the train to cross the street to go to work, and there is typically a homeless man that stands at the crosswalk with a sign. Today he was standing at a bench talking to a young woman who had a big bag tied with a red bow. I saw him hug her and so I watched as I got closer. She was pulling things out of the bag and telling him all these things she had bought him or was giving to him. I heard her say, “there are hats and mittens in here to make sure you stay warm when it gets cold this winter” and I also saw her take out a package of new white t-shirts. It may be because I’m pregnant, but I was seriously floored and moved to tears. I looked over at another woman that was in the crosswalk with me and I said, “That’s amazing.” She took her headphones off and said, “What?” And I repeated myself and explained what this young woman was doing. Then we had a nice jovial Christmas exchange ourselves. I wanted to go give the gift giver a hug but I didn't want to interrupt their moment.
I know I'm a total sap and it's partially because I'm pregnant, but seeing this happen really made me step outside of myself and my world and realize how good I have it. The holidays can be so stressful for so many reasons, but seeing something like this happen makes everything else seem so insignificant and petty to me. I'm now inspired to do a random act of kindness today and make a difference for someone who needs it!
Update..... H last minute booked a flight home. We leave soon to drive 2 hrs both ways to pick him up. Oh what a long day it's gonna be but it's so going to be worth it.
Update..... H last minute booked a flight home. We leave soon to drive 2 hrs both ways to pick him up. Oh what a long day it's gonna be but it's so going to be worth it.
Re: Weekly Randoms!
BFP 12/31/14, EDD 9/08/14 ~ Natural M/C 2/21/14 at 11.5 weeks
BFP 5/24/15 - EDD 2/4/16
Surprise BFP! 06/08/15
Nadine GraceMarie 02/10/16
Diagnosed with placenta increta post delivery: emergency partial hysterectomy - cervix and ovaries still intact
Gestational surrogacy or adoption TBD
H: "You okay over there?"
Me: "This is how I have to get out of bed now!"
Men..they will never understand...
Baby F.......02/02/2016
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Anyway, she started drama with me on Sunday and blatantly lied/played mind games. When I finally got her to admit it, I told her to please not come to my baby shower because I want it to be a happy day.
She's never seen that side of me and I'm proud of myself. I'm SO sick of her treating me like crap and enough is enough! Her number is blocked and she blocked me on FB so good riddance.
She better not just show up or there'll be hell to pay!
Yesterday I cried because my cat broke my crock pot. Then I cried because my husband couldn't decide what he wanted for dinner fast enough. The other day I was crying after building our LO's swing and watching it swing back and forth while my dogs laid on either side of it (in my defense there is a super beautiful song that it plays that hit me right in the feels).
I was a pretty sensitive person pre-pregnancy, and didn't think the hormones would be all that bad to me but DAMN was I wrong!
Also after two weeks of going potty great(except #2) this weeks DD is back to only using the potty while naked. And I have little energy to be forceful about training
I got off the train to cross the street to go to work, and there is typically a homeless man that stands at the crosswalk with a sign. Today he was standing at a bench talking to a young woman who had a big bag tied with a red bow. I saw him hug her and so I watched as I got closer. She was pulling things out of the bag and telling him all these things she had bought him or was giving to him. I heard her say, “there are hats and mittens in here to make sure you stay warm when it gets cold this winter” and I also saw her take out a package of new white t-shirts. It may be because I’m pregnant, but I was seriously floored and moved to tears. I looked over at another woman that was in the crosswalk with me and I said, “That’s amazing.” She took her headphones off and said, “What?” And I repeated myself and explained what this young woman was doing. Then we had a nice jovial Christmas exchange ourselves. I wanted to go give the gift giver a hug but I didn't want to interrupt their moment.
I know I'm a total sap and it's partially because I'm pregnant, but seeing this happen really made me step outside of myself and my world and realize how good I have it. The holidays can be so stressful for so many reasons, but seeing something like this happen makes everything else seem so insignificant and petty to me. I'm now inspired to do a random act of kindness today and make a difference for someone who needs it!
Baby F.......02/02/2016