Today I had another ultra sound, it confirmed no growth and combined with the increasing cramps and bleeding I knew before I even walked into that office. (Women's intuition)
I had a blighted ovum, this diagnosis was a relief to me. Although i'm still heart broken, I now have closure and know I did nothing wrong. This last week I was constantly replaying my previous weeks wondering if I did anything wrong. I now know it never even formed and I did nothing wrong.
I have to wait for it to naturally pass and after my next period I can start to try again.
My last few words of advice!
I believe the significant others are often over looked in this process, don't forget that even though your significant other night not be dealing with the symptoms, still drinking beer, and eating sushi. They are there trying to be supportive and as invested in this as you are!
I believe today was harder on my husband, for me it was closure, for him it was all his hope being crushed. I know my body wasn't right, he can't feel what a women feels even if I explain it to him. He cried in the US and was still more worried about me being ok. Please Don't forget that your significant other is your partner in this! Not only do they want the baby but, they also want to protect and care for you! I think this may have been harder on him than me...
Cherish your pregnancies!
Thoughts and prayers that everyone has beautiful healthy babies! Thank you for being supportive loving women!
XOXO
Re: Sad, relieved, and trying to be hopeful
4 rounds of clomid, 2 with IUI = BFN