Having a pity party for myself.

This has been a hard pregnancy for me. All day morning sickness for 5 months. Then 2 er visits on different weekends for stomach bugs. Finished with the stroke on the halloween. Now Imhave been put out of work till my after baby comes. I cant drive and really do much of anything. It absolutely sucks! I have been reminded again that people suck. My parents came and visited for a few days which helped. Hubby is trying which is better than most. I have had tons of promises for visits which have not happened. I have one dear friend who has helped me so much that it makes me cry when I think about how helpful she has been. We went to their house for thanksgiving. She offerred to throw a baby shower and I turned it down. She has already done so much I feel like I would be taking advantage of her. My son is 2 and we are having another baby so it seems gift grabby to me and the reality is I really dont think anybody would come. So last night, I had a small glass of wine and a good cry fest. The real kicker has been my work which goes on about how we are family. No we are a dysfunctional group of mean girls where a couple of girls are trying to steal my job while I am out. My one dear friend was pissed because we have a colleaugue that has worked their one year and is having a minor surgery. They did a collection for her and my friend was really upset. She didnt want to tell me but I opened my work email and there it was. Typical work though. They have their favorites and the rest of us dont matter. I've worked there 7 years and thats how it is. My mom says no more contributing at work anymore. I dont think I am entitled to money but some sort of acknowledgment would have been appreciated especially from the sunshine committee that is supposed to send cards! Argh!!!