I want to go home and sleep today away. I can no longer lift things that I used to be able to and everyone can just suck it up. I'm too tired to deal with much today.
I've decided today I'm officially done with being pregnant. I love this little turkey more than anything and want her to come when she's ready but I'm over it. I loved being pregnant until last week. I can't breathe at all, I can't sleep, I have to pee at all times, her movements are now violent and painful, my expanding belly aches, I'm tired of only being able to have sex in one position, I'm independent and always on the move and feel like I can't do anything anymore with out a struggle or help. I want to have 4 cups of coffee and then chase it with three margaritas! I want to sleep on my back and stomach! I want to eat and then not have vomy burps and heart burn for hours! My husband commented recently how I haven't really complained at all about being pregnant and now I feel I've let it all out at once and it feel glorious!
I have been awake for about an hour, but I haven't gotten out of bed because I don't want to have to be the one to take the dogs outside. Sorry, DH. I just can't bend over to pick up poop these days.
So it's day one and I went to bed last night without putting out the elf on the shelf. DS1 woke up running around looking for it and DH had to distract him while I hid the elf.
I often let the dog "clean" DS2's highchair tray, but I don't always remember to actually clean it after that. Gross, I know, but I don't feel bad about it.
I have the day off and had a giant list of errands to do today, but I am seriously considering going back to bed out of depression. I only have four weeks of paychecks left before I'm on maternity leave (I don't have a choice in it being so early, sadly) and this is the time where, of course, we get a nearly $400 vet bill for my cat's recent illness and my husband's car decides to break down spectacularly (over $1000.) We were on target to get to at least $7000 of my $7500 maternity leave goal next week, but now that's out the window and I think I'm just going to have to accept we'll have $6000 for maternity leave instead of $7500, and we'll just have to be frugal and make it work.
It's not the end of the world, but in my hormonal state I just want to cover my head with blankets and try to sleep. I volunteered to work this week even though everyone else had 9 full days off because I thought it would help us get to that maternity leave goal and now it's not going to happen.
It doesn't help that I didn't sleep worth a damn last night and woke up sore all over my body for some reason. That's probably impacting how emotional this is making me. So anyway, f my errands, I'm going to sleep.
(PS - I'm sorry this post is so relentlessly whiny.)
@maureenmce I can relate! I quit my job in October, I haven't had a pay check since mid October or somewhere in there. I was fine with it until now... I cry almost daily, I can see that I'm getting depressed over it. But, I can't go back to work because baby I'm almost 35 weeks and there's just no point to go back to have to leave. I'm lucky my SO makes good money, but I am struggling with that fact that I don't have my own money anymore.
My FFFC- I decided to go Black Thursday shopping last night. Saved $15 on a pack n play.. I tried putting it together and I have up. Babies r us can take that $15 I saved an shove it up their ass. My body is sore, good thing I decided to do it now than wait until after baby is born. Good grief!
Totally over this pregnancy thing. Cant wait to meet her and I hope she goes full term, but 40 weeks is a long time. My confession: today at work I was the only one in the office, I was unmotivated so I went and got my hair done and then took a 1.5 hour lunch woth hubby.. No regrets.
I'm tired of getting "advice" from people. At thanksgiving my SIL kept saying "Get ready because now you will have to start memorizing dinosaure names and buying trucks and Thomas the train. You'll have to get used to that stuff." What is there to "get ready" for or "get used to". He will like what he likes kind of like a girl will like what she likes. Why is a boy apparently something to "get ready" for but a girl isn't? We will encourage our son to like all things. Not be pigeonholed into only "boy" things. We will take him to the zoo and science center and plays and whatever else he shows an interest in. Stop trying to act like "boy things" are something to dread. In fact, we were so excited for a boy because I really dislike princess stuff. I would have LOVED a girl. I love my nieces to pieces and we buy them all the princess dresses they want from the Disney store. But we were not the slightest bit disappointed when we opened the card and it said boy. And I don't get why people act like I should be disappointed or I won't be able to handle a boy just because he has a penis. He's my son, he is the most precious thing in the world to me. How he pees means nothing to me!
I had zero desire to deal with Black Friday (plus I'm in Canada and have always been annoyed that it's a thing here now) but IKEA was having 20% off the dresser I bought for baby earlier in the month. I've been watching for it to go on sale so I could get a price adjustment. I called IKEA to be sure I could get the 20% off before hauling my butt down there and they said no because it was a special promotion. Don't tell a nesting, bargain-hunting pregnant lady no. She WILL find a way.
I marched down to IKEA, went and bought the same dresser at 20% off (and felt bad that the nice guy working was so helpful putting it on my cart and telling me how to get someone to help me with it in my car), and then walked right over to the returns counter and returned it with my receipt from earlier in the month.
Re: FFFC
I've decided today I'm officially done with being pregnant. I love this little turkey more than anything and want her to come when she's ready but I'm over it. I loved being pregnant until last week. I can't breathe at all, I can't sleep, I have to pee at all times, her movements are now violent and painful, my expanding belly aches, I'm tired of only being able to have sex in one position, I'm independent and always on the move and feel like I can't do anything anymore with out a struggle or help. I want to have 4 cups of coffee and then chase it with three margaritas! I want to sleep on my back and stomach! I want to eat and then not have vomy burps and heart burn for hours! My husband commented recently how I haven't really complained at all about being pregnant and now I feel I've let it all out at once and it feel glorious!
DS1 2010
DS2 2013
DD1 2016
DS1 01/08/03 DD1 08/11/04 DD2 10/06/08 DS2 09/30/14
SURPRISE! Hannah May born 01/22/16
I quit my job in October, I haven't had a pay check since mid October or somewhere in there. I was fine with it until now... I cry almost daily, I can see that I'm getting depressed over it. But, I can't go back to work because baby I'm almost 35 weeks and there's just no point to go back to have to leave.
I'm lucky my SO makes good money, but I am struggling with that fact that I don't have my own money anymore.
My FFFC-
I decided to go Black Thursday shopping last night. Saved $15 on a pack n play.. I tried putting it together and I have up. Babies r us can take that $15 I saved an shove it up their ass. My body is sore, good thing I decided to do it now than wait until after baby is born.
Good grief!
I had zero desire to deal with Black Friday (plus I'm in Canada and have always been annoyed that it's a thing here now) but IKEA was having 20% off the dresser I bought for baby earlier in the month. I've been watching for it to go on sale so I could get a price adjustment. I called IKEA to be sure I could get the 20% off before hauling my butt down there and they said no because it was a special promotion. Don't tell a nesting, bargain-hunting pregnant lady no. She WILL find a way.
I marched down to IKEA, went and bought the same dresser at 20% off (and felt bad that the nice guy working was so helpful putting it on my cart and telling me how to get someone to help me with it in my car), and then walked right over to the returns counter and returned it with my receipt from earlier in the month.
I win.