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Tearing my hair out (possible bfp mentioned)

PattersRNPattersRN member
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So, 14 dpo, cd 26. Test day on FF was yesterday. I've been having 26 day cycles and 13 day LPs lately. Though historically I've gone as long as 30. Temps did kind of a bell curve so they're down but still above coverline (and I haven't been sleeping well). Took an FRER this morning with 2MU, no line initially but after 3 mins there was a Squinter (and I mean Squinter). DH can see it and so can a friend of mine, so I know I'm not imagining it. We'll see what tomorrow brings, I hate the anticipation! I'm not calling it a bfp, but I'm cautiously optimistic.

Still no sign of AF, other than cramps the last two days. Usually I get brown CM the day before AF, but none of that yet.
Married: 7/9/15
Me: 37, DH: 36
Started TTC #1: 9/2015
Preliminary labs/testing @ 6 months: TSH, A1c, progesterone, prolactin, SA, HSG all normal
BFP: 5/19/2016, M/C: 5/29/2016
BFP: 6/22/2016  EDD 3//6/2017

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  • dolphin012dolphin012 member
    keeping my fingers crossed for you PattersRN!!!! Stay busy today so you don't go too insane (or bald!)!! Looking forward to your update tomorrow. 
    Me (42) w/ partner for 16+ years
    TTC #1: 11/2012 - 9/2013; 6/2014 - present
    Follistim + TI (3x): All BFNs
    Follistim + IUI (1x): BFN 
    IVF #1: 17 retrieved,15 fertilized, Day 3: 15, Day 5/6: 3 biopsied
    Result; 1 frozen blast (inconclusive PGS results)
    IVF #2; ER: 6/22 16 retrieved, 6/25: 5 transferred (CP), 2 frozen
    FET 9/17: BFN
    Current FET -- Transferred 2 day-3 embryos - BFN

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  • BernieRaeBernieRae member

    How exciting!

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  • jilligan14jilligan14 member
    OMG, this is exciting!!! I can't wait to hear what the next test brings! What was the wait time on the test? Sometimes they say 2 min, sometimes 5. I know you're not supposed to look at it after 10 min. so it sounds like you are in the 'acceptable' window so it really could be something! My fingers are crossed for you girl!
    ME: 36 (PCOS), DH: excellent SA
    NTNP since 11/12, actively trying since 8/14
    m/c @ 7w (4/22/14), m/c @ 6w (11/19/14)
    11/15: Letrozole, Ovidrel, TI = BFP!!!
    Beta #1(14dpo)=349, Beta #2(18dpo)=2,805
    12/17/15: Got to see the heartbeat (105bpm)!
    1/25/16: NT scan = normal (HB=163bpm)
    EDD: 8/10/16 
    8/8/16: Baby boy born @ 12:25am, 8lbs, 20.5 inches
    5/18/17: BFP!!! (11dpo)
    Beta #1(12dpo)=176.4, Beta #2(15dpo)=607.1
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  • MamafestoMamafesto member
    OMG, what a nail biter! Fx!!!
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  • Sporty1216Sporty1216 member
    Here's hoping for good news! I broke down and bought some digital tests due to my fear of the squinter--have you tried one of those?
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  • lickasticklickastick member
    All the fingers and toes are crossed- lets hope november is a good month for this board! Multiple BFP's come on! Good luck!
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  • PattersRNPattersRN member
    Thanks ladies....so much anticipation
    Married: 7/9/15
    Me: 37, DH: 36
    Started TTC #1: 9/2015
    Preliminary labs/testing @ 6 months: TSH, A1c, progesterone, prolactin, SA, HSG all normal
    BFP: 5/19/2016, M/C: 5/29/2016
    BFP: 6/22/2016  EDD 3//6/2017

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  • mileeenamileeena member
    Good luck! I hope this is your month!
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  • Jenniferk08Jenniferk08 member
    Prayers for you.

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  • rspalding001rspalding001 member
    Good luck! How exciting!!!
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  • Infantino22Infantino22 member
    FX for you!! Can't wait to hear how the follow up test goes!
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  • Sporty1216Sporty1216 member
    Thinking of you this morning and hoping for good news!
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  • PattersRNPattersRN member
    <3 thank you! Still seemingly inconclusive. FRER and Answer test were BFN this morning, but IC was a tad darker and no squinting necessary. Also, my temp went back up to where it was after I ovulated. A friend of mine and I have been discussing my chart. It's possible I ovulated later than FF told me and I may only be 13 dpo. I won't believe it until all my tests are positive ;).
    Married: 7/9/15
    Me: 37, DH: 36
    Started TTC #1: 9/2015
    Preliminary labs/testing @ 6 months: TSH, A1c, progesterone, prolactin, SA, HSG all normal
    BFP: 5/19/2016, M/C: 5/29/2016
    BFP: 6/22/2016  EDD 3//6/2017

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  • Sporty1216Sporty1216 member
    Ack! You must be going nuts! What is IC? Hope you get a conclusive BFP soon! Thanks for the update. I've kept checking. ;)
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  • lickasticklickastick member
    @PattersRN nail biter! Ahhhhhhhhh FX FX! Come on BFP.
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  • PattersRNPattersRN member
    IC=Internet cheapie (similar to wondfo)
    Married: 7/9/15
    Me: 37, DH: 36
    Started TTC #1: 9/2015
    Preliminary labs/testing @ 6 months: TSH, A1c, progesterone, prolactin, SA, HSG all normal
    BFP: 5/19/2016, M/C: 5/29/2016
    BFP: 6/22/2016  EDD 3//6/2017

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  • carrieandrcarrieandr member
    I hope you get good news very soon!
    TTC#1 since Jan 2015
    BFP 2/19/15  •  MMC found at 9 wks  •  D&E at 11 wks (age 36)
    BFP 8/29/15      •  CP (age 37)
    BFP 11/18/15  •  DD born at 41 weeks <3(age 37/38)

    TTC#2 since May 2017
    BFP 10/18/17  •  MMC found at 8 wks  •  Misoprostal at 10.5 wks (age 39)
    BFP 2/16/18      •  CP (age 39)
    BFP 4/13/18      •  CP (age 39)
    BFP 5/07/18  •  MMC found at 10.5 wks  •  D&E at 11.5 wks      •  Testing showed it was a girl with Trisomy 22. (age 39/40)
    9/5/18 Diagnosed with diminished ovarian reserve (4-5 follicles, one ovary had none and was very atrophied)
    RE says the low egg count is likely causing my recurrent pregnancy loss. Less eggs results in more aneuploidy.
    BFP 9/24/18  •      CP (age 40)
    BFP 5/11/19  •  Fraternal twins  •  MMC found at 10w5d (Baby A 6w, Baby B 10w)  •  Misoprostal at 11 weeks (age 41)













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  • happyktmomhappyktmom member
    Ah! the pressure is on!  now you have to give us good news tomorrow!!
    **child mentioned**
    Me(38)PCOS/Hypothyroid   DH(43)Low T/ED
    MMC at 10 weeks 03/2011 DD born 01/2012   TTC #2 since 04/2014
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  • PattersRNPattersRN member
    edited November 2015
    So, I took another test this morning. Got a line so faint it's hard to tell if it's an evap or a bfp. I'd assume at this point I'd be getting darker tests, so my guess is this is probably a CP. I'm somewhere between 14-16 dpo, still no sign of AF. Sigh.
    Married: 7/9/15
    Me: 37, DH: 36
    Started TTC #1: 9/2015
    Preliminary labs/testing @ 6 months: TSH, A1c, progesterone, prolactin, SA, HSG all normal
    BFP: 5/19/2016, M/C: 5/29/2016
    BFP: 6/22/2016  EDD 3//6/2017

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  • amimhofamimhof member
    Fingers crossed for you @pattersRN.  I think at this point I'd fork out the money and get a digital test.  Good luck!
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  • Sporty1216Sporty1216 member
    Dang it, @Pattersrn. I hope that line darkens up for you! Are you hanging in there?
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  • lickasticklickastick member
    @PattersRN T&P i'm sorry its not darker today. I'm still cheering for you though!
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  • rspalding001rspalding001 member
    Im sorry its not getting darker... have you considered getting your bettas done. This early in the game its tough to decide if its worth it but if your numbers are doubling I wouldn't worry even if the line was faint. The thing is you have to wait 24 hours between testing for betas anyway, in which case if it is a CP you will probably know by then anyway simply by testing with the IC's. Big Hugs to you! Ive been there too so I know how this feels.
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  • carrieandrcarrieandr member
    I'm so sorry it wasn't darker.  I've been there as well.  Are you temping?  I got 24 hours warning of my CP from a big temp drop.  There's no good way to get that news, but at least I knew what to expect.

    Hugs to you.  Take care of yourself.
    TTC#1 since Jan 2015
    BFP 2/19/15  •  MMC found at 9 wks  •  D&E at 11 wks (age 36)
    BFP 8/29/15      •  CP (age 37)
    BFP 11/18/15  •  DD born at 41 weeks <3(age 37/38)

    TTC#2 since May 2017
    BFP 10/18/17  •  MMC found at 8 wks  •  Misoprostal at 10.5 wks (age 39)
    BFP 2/16/18      •  CP (age 39)
    BFP 4/13/18      •  CP (age 39)
    BFP 5/07/18  •  MMC found at 10.5 wks  •  D&E at 11.5 wks      •  Testing showed it was a girl with Trisomy 22. (age 39/40)
    9/5/18 Diagnosed with diminished ovarian reserve (4-5 follicles, one ovary had none and was very atrophied)
    RE says the low egg count is likely causing my recurrent pregnancy loss. Less eggs results in more aneuploidy.
    BFP 9/24/18  •      CP (age 40)
    BFP 5/11/19  •  Fraternal twins  •  MMC found at 10w5d (Baby A 6w, Baby B 10w)  •  Misoprostal at 11 weeks (age 41)













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  • PattersRNPattersRN member
    Yeah, I'm calling it a CP. I started spotting today. My temp is still up, but sometimes doesn't drop until after AF starts. If it were viable, the line would be darkening. On to the next cycle, it was only my third cycle so I'm still early in this journey. If anything, I'm comforted by the fact that I know I can get pregnant (I don't have to draw a map for my husband's sperm) and maybe the preseed had something to do with it. Last cycle was our first using Preseed. Also, I get to stay here a little longer with you guys!! Thanks ladies for sharing that roller coaster with me!!
    Married: 7/9/15
    Me: 37, DH: 36
    Started TTC #1: 9/2015
    Preliminary labs/testing @ 6 months: TSH, A1c, progesterone, prolactin, SA, HSG all normal
    BFP: 5/19/2016, M/C: 5/29/2016
    BFP: 6/22/2016  EDD 3//6/2017

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  • amimhofamimhof member
    edited November 2015
    @pattersrn - sorry it didn't happen, but I feel like I'm in the same boat.  I think my last cycle was a CP too, but as you said, it means there was an egg, and there was sperm, and they managed to find each other.  Maybe next month!
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  • Sporty1216Sporty1216 member
    Darn it @PattersRN I'm so sorry. But I'm glad you can see a bright side to the situation too. Here's to next month!
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  • dolphin012dolphin012 member
    Oh shoot :(. Sorry to hear. But agreed good to know those sperm and egg can connect.
    Me (42) w/ partner for 16+ years
    TTC #1: 11/2012 - 9/2013; 6/2014 - present
    Follistim + TI (3x): All BFNs
    Follistim + IUI (1x): BFN 
    IVF #1: 17 retrieved,15 fertilized, Day 3: 15, Day 5/6: 3 biopsied
    Result; 1 frozen blast (inconclusive PGS results)
    IVF #2; ER: 6/22 16 retrieved, 6/25: 5 transferred (CP), 2 frozen
    FET 9/17: BFN
    Current FET -- Transferred 2 day-3 embryos - BFN

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  • jilligan14jilligan14 member
    @PattersRN - sorry to hear this. Fingers crossed for your next cycle.
    ME: 36 (PCOS), DH: excellent SA
    NTNP since 11/12, actively trying since 8/14
    m/c @ 7w (4/22/14), m/c @ 6w (11/19/14)
    11/15: Letrozole, Ovidrel, TI = BFP!!!
    Beta #1(14dpo)=349, Beta #2(18dpo)=2,805
    12/17/15: Got to see the heartbeat (105bpm)!
    1/25/16: NT scan = normal (HB=163bpm)
    EDD: 8/10/16 
    8/8/16: Baby boy born @ 12:25am, 8lbs, 20.5 inches
    5/18/17: BFP!!! (11dpo)
    Beta #1(12dpo)=176.4, Beta #2(15dpo)=607.1
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  • rspalding001rspalding001 member
    At least with a CP there is no down time, you don't have to wait to try again :) also I've heard that the month following a CP is a very fertile month!
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  • BernieRaeBernieRae member
    Bummer, @PattersRn :( I was getting so excited for you. If this really isn't it, I hope it happens for you soon. I like your roller coaster metaphor.  If my TTC quest was an amusement park ride it would be more like a ferris wheel. The car might pause and  rock back and forth for a few moments, but then it just goes round and round as expected. Ha. 
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  • PattersRNPattersRN member
    @rspalding001 yes, that's what I'm hoping. Things are finally moving with AF, and my temp plummeted today. But lordie, the cramps rival for those I had shortly after I had my IUD put in. Ugh.
    Married: 7/9/15
    Me: 37, DH: 36
    Started TTC #1: 9/2015
    Preliminary labs/testing @ 6 months: TSH, A1c, progesterone, prolactin, SA, HSG all normal
    BFP: 5/19/2016, M/C: 5/29/2016
    BFP: 6/22/2016  EDD 3//6/2017

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  • carrieandrcarrieandr member
    Oh man, @PattersRN -- new IUD cramps are the worst.  It felt like the doctor had accidentally put his keys inside me.  A heating pad helps a little, if you want to try it.
    TTC#1 since Jan 2015
    BFP 2/19/15  •  MMC found at 9 wks  •  D&E at 11 wks (age 36)
    BFP 8/29/15      •  CP (age 37)
    BFP 11/18/15  •  DD born at 41 weeks <3(age 37/38)

    TTC#2 since May 2017
    BFP 10/18/17  •  MMC found at 8 wks  •  Misoprostal at 10.5 wks (age 39)
    BFP 2/16/18      •  CP (age 39)
    BFP 4/13/18      •  CP (age 39)
    BFP 5/07/18  •  MMC found at 10.5 wks  •  D&E at 11.5 wks      •  Testing showed it was a girl with Trisomy 22. (age 39/40)
    9/5/18 Diagnosed with diminished ovarian reserve (4-5 follicles, one ovary had none and was very atrophied)
    RE says the low egg count is likely causing my recurrent pregnancy loss. Less eggs results in more aneuploidy.
    BFP 9/24/18  •      CP (age 40)
    BFP 5/11/19  •  Fraternal twins  •  MMC found at 10w5d (Baby A 6w, Baby B 10w)  •  Misoprostal at 11 weeks (age 41)













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  • happyktmomhappyktmom member
    So sorry to hear this!  But it's so good to know that it CAN happen!
    **child mentioned**
    Me(38)PCOS/Hypothyroid   DH(43)Low T/ED
    MMC at 10 weeks 03/2011 DD born 01/2012   TTC #2 since 04/2014
    BFP 8/26/2016


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  • PiperellaPiperella member
    I'm so sorry about this cycle for you but am hopeful the next will be it! Hope you enjoy the holidays a bit.
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  • mileeenamileeena member
    I'm sorry to hear this @PattersRN Hope you'll get your bfp very soon.
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