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Introduction (loss mentioned)

mtracy25mtracy25 member
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Hey everyone! I'm new to the board but not new to TTC. I'm 30 years old and my husband and I have been trying for almost 4 years. I found out after year 2 that I had PCOS. What a shock. I went through so many emotions. Anger, sadness, hope. Okay I thought now that we know whats wrong we can fix it and get going. By the way I have wanted to be a mother and wife since I was a child. I had my whole life mapped out. After I was diagnosed with PCOS I was put on 1000mg of metformin and 100mg of clomid. Doctor said your a healthy 26 year old you will be pregnant right away. I thought great!! what a piece of cake....wrong... after 8 rounds of clomid with no success my husband and I decided to take a break but when your TTC you never really take a break its always in the back of your mind. All in the mean time my younger sister became pregnant....so thrilled for her and happy that the PCOS didn't get passed to her. Jealous was a bit of a understatement. Everytime she complained about getting fat or being uncomfortable or had heartburn I would just look at her and say do you know what I would do to be ALL those things and more!!!    In my mind I never thought that I would get pregnant, the day before Thanksgiving last year, I started to feel weird, boobs were killing me, little sick in the morning, being pregnant never crossed my mind. I decided to get a test from the dollar store and got home and something happened that had never ever happened. the test said positive. how could this be I thought. my husband and I were over the moon!!! I loved being pregnant, everything about it. I had never felt such happiness. I went to the doctor and confirmed that yes I was pregnant this was a dream that really came true. I felt completely normal the whole time around week 9 I started to have some brownish dc on my underware, no pain. I called the dr he said if I have no pain just to come in next week for my 10 week ultrasound. My husband and I went in so excited and.....left completely devastated. There was no heartbeat......baby was much to small and had stopped growing. doctor said expect to miscarry in the next few days. By the next day the process had started and 2 days later my dream was completely gone. there was no physical trace that he/she had ever existed. I couldnt touch my stomach and talk or make plans.
Its almost a year exactly since we lost our baby, I just saw the doctor again who said that because of the PCOS I am very unlikely to get pregnant again on my own. Plan is to do 8 rounds of Letrozole and if that doesnt work to do IUI. 
I havent got to tell my story since my husband and I kept things private. thanks for listening. 
Married for 5 years. TTC for 4 years
     DX: PCOS

History:
Metformin daily for PCOS treatment
8 unsuccessful Comid rounds - progesterone blood work confirm ovulation
MC 1-11-15
1/8  Letrozole round - on second round now
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Re: Introduction (loss mentioned)

  • riveridgionalriveridgional member
    Welcome! It sounds like you have been through a lot! It also sounds like you have possibly been seeing an OB instead of an RE. If that's true I definitely recommend you switch to an RE, who is much better at getting you pregnant and more thorough in monitoring and testing.
    Married to DH 10/6/12
    TTC since 5/14
    Unexplained with (controlled) hypothyroidism and suspected ovulatory dysfunction (but, I do ovulate on my own)
    Clomid 50 mg 3/15 (unmonitored) - BFN
    Clomid 50 mg + metformin 4/15 (unmonitored) - BFN 
    First RE appt. 5/15; Natural cycle 5/15 monitored with 2 mature follicles and Pregnyl Trigger (full dose) + prometrium - BFN
    6/15 HSG - clear tubes & normal uterus; great PCT test results
    TI - 100 mg Clomid + prometrium (AM & PM) + vaginal estrace (AM & PM) 6-7/15 (monitored) --> no additional response and thinned lining - BFN
    TI - Injectables (follistim + Gonal-F, Ganirelix, & 1/2 dose Pregnyl) + prometrium (AM & PM) 9/15 --> 3-7 mature follicles (3 definites and 4+ that could have matured due to trigger) @ O -->BFN + 5 large cysts
    BC for 2 weeks due to cysts
    TI - Injectables (Gonal-F, Ganirelix & full dose Pregnyl) + prometrium (AM & PM) 10/15 --> 1 mature follicle --> BFN 
    TI - Last attempt at injectables (Gonal-F, Ganirelix & 1/2 dose Pregnyl) + crinone (AM only) + vaginal estrace (AM & PM) 11/15 --> 3-4 mature follicles --> BFP!! 11/27/15 @ 13dpo (shockingly, actually waited until then to test)

    Beta #1 @ 16dpo (11/30/15) = 1,075
    Beta #2 @ 19dpo (12/3/15) = 3,150
    One baby: Saw heartbeat @ 5w5d (114 bpm; baby measuring 2.3mm)

    "Great Things are Happening"
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  • benaisy3benaisy3 member
    Sorry to hear your story; I am not a regular on this board - just lurking - but I wanted to share my condolences.  It must be so frustrating and somethings can't even capture.  I hope by writing your post, and sharing a bit of your story, you can feel a slight bit of relief.
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  • mtracy25mtracy25 member
    Thank you for your kind words. I will look in to a RE.
    Married for 5 years. TTC for 4 years
         DX: PCOS

    History:
    Metformin daily for PCOS treatment
    8 unsuccessful Comid rounds - progesterone blood work confirm ovulation
    MC 1-11-15
    1/8  Letrozole round - on second round now
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