I just wanted to thank everyone who has been a part of this board, it has really helped me over the past 2 weeks dealing with my first mc.
On Sunday, 10/11 I signed up for the bump so I could post to the June 16 board....and miscarried before I even had a chance to post. I was 5 weeks 5 days and started with light brown staining - which of course I explained away. My back hurt and I had some red spotting but hoped it was constipation/cervical spotting from straining, even though I hadn't had any before....although I had a lot of other symptoms and felt very pregnant, more so this early than in two other pregnancies. Then Monday it was very clear that I was miscarrying. I had cramping/contractions/back pain and bled rather heavily (like a heavy period day) for 3 days then lightly through Sunday. NO more pregnancy symptoms at all. On the following Tuesday I took a test and it officially said Not Pregnant.
I never even went to the doctor, my old obgyn has retired and I was researching docs on my insurance plan. I wasn't in a hurry to go either with my $6000 deductible, but was going to make an appt for 10 weeks.
I haven't told anyone at all except my husband, this page has been a life-saver. (My mom is of the opinion that there is no such thing as an early miscarriage, just a late period. Also, among other things, people with morning sickness just don't want to be pregnant and I am much to old to have children. So no talking to her. My sis would have been my first choice to talk to but she was having a difficut in-law visit so I was waiting until after to Skype and tell her about the pregnancy - and now I don't even know whether to share because it will make her feel so bad and nothing she can do. There's one friend I blew off 10/17 and I feel like I should explain to her but I just don't want to.
I'm not being very eloquent here but I just wanted to share with others who will understand how important it was and how much it has impacted me. Reading everyone's stories has helped me feel a bit more normal even when I was crying through them and I wanted to thank everyone for sharing, and write my own. I am feeling better and not so sad but it is still hard. My DH is great but I feel like I can only express that I'm better to him, and not that I'm still sad or he will worry too much. So thanks to all of you for sharing and I hope we all heal....