Whirl wind (birth story)

whitemn04 · October 2015

So I went in Monday morning to be induced. Went through the whole day of cytotec/pitocin, then they broke my water and I labored hard for 3 hours. Got an epidural at 7 cm only to find out baby boy wasn't in a good position to come down and ended in a c-section. I was ok with it all until they pushed the anesthesia and I had a panic attack because everything was so sudden and I felt claustrophobic from not being able to move. I puked 3 times while on the table, of course no where to go with it other than my face, ear, and hair. Ended up getting sick 2 more times then had tremors and couldn't even hold my little one on my own for a while. My anesthetist was amazing with his help and comfort and said for as bad as I looked and sick as I got I was stoic and super calm. The final prize was worth all of it though and I have a healthy baby boy, Maddox James. Now I find myself in tears that I created that baby, went through a tough day, and now he's at my home. Everything makes me cry all the sudden. It seemed to go so slow but fast and now I'm just holding on for the ride. Sorry so long, I just sob when I try to tell my hubby I'm ok just a lot to take in.