Pgal?

Vinny424 · October 2015

Anyone else here pgal? I've had a rainbow baby but the anxiety is still all the same. How have you ladies been coping with the anxiousness?

queenklau · October 2015

Hi! For me it is different every day. Every twinge freaks me out. Also had some very light brown spotting a few days ago, so every time I wipe I look thinking it will be blood. It can be exhausting, but I can't help it. I just keep telling myself- you are pregnant today! I also keep looking at the post from May 2016 about chances of NOT having a miscarriage-it puts me at ease. Good luck!
PS. We should have weekly PGAL check ins, what do you think?

candicek15 · October 2015

I'm up for check-ins and am PGAL too. I was expecting to be totally BSC this time around but so far so good. Though there is lots of time for the hormones to pick up and for me to lose my mind! lol.

As terrible as it sounds, I have been taking this pregnancy with a grain of salt. I no longer have that blissful ignorance where I assume that pregnancy = baby. This summer I had a MMC where baby stopped growing at 6.5 weeks and HB stopped around 8-ish, but I didn't miscarry until almost 12 weeks. Some people use the mantra "today I am pregnant" but that just doesn't work for me given what happened. I have the Ovia pregnancy app that tells me what the baby is doing each day in terms of growth and I read them and always follow up in my head "maybe." This makes me sad because I want to be as excited this time as I was last time, but the loss was devastating and I can't deal with those extremes again.

Right now I am just trying to be patient and suspend my beliefs and/or craziness until I see the first US. If baby is on track I think I will feel a million times better.

Thanks for starting this check in. I think I really needed to get that off my chest! lol

PBear93 · October 2015

I had a miscarriage in June and it was so incredibly difficult.

This time I'm a timid happy. I'm waiting for the results of my second HcG draw and hopefully good news will help me feel better. But I'm trying to move forward and act as if I won't have a problem this time--I have to for me--if I am constantly questioning or wondering I will drive myself crazy.

DoodleLAK1 · October 2015

candicek15 said:
I'm up for check-ins and am PGAL too. I was expecting to be totally BSC this time around but so far so good. Though there is lots of time for the hormones to pick up and for me to lose my mind! lol.

As terrible as it sounds, I have been taking this pregnancy with a grain of salt. I no longer have that blissful ignorance where I assume that pregnancy = baby. This summer I had a MMC where baby stopped growing at 6.5 weeks and HB stopped around 8-ish, but I didn't miscarry until almost 12 weeks. Some people use the mantra "today I am pregnant" but that just doesn't work for me given what happened. I have the Ovia pregnancy app that tells me what the baby is doing each day in terms of growth and I read them and always follow up in my head "maybe." This makes me sad because I want to be as excited this time as I was last time, but the loss was devastating and I can't deal with those extremes again.

Right now I am just trying to be patient and suspend my beliefs and/or craziness until I see the first US. If baby is on track I think I will feel a million times better.

Thanks for starting this check in. I think I really needed to get that off my chest! lol

Me too... sometimes I find myself saying "if the baby comes" instead of "when". We actually were suppose to be benched this month but decided to go for it and here I am pregnant again.

ufsandra85 · October 2015

I've had 8 losses. I know that doesn't make my chances good but i did finally get a rainbow baby so in going to be optimistic. I scared out of my mind though

knw007 · October 2015

I am PGAL as well and super terrified. I am constantly anxious .

mepxw7 · October 2015

Anxiety THROUGH THE ROOF. Every cramp and back ache sends me right back to last time. Trying to be positive!

soralette · October 2015

Four losses here and finally starting to have my anxiety wind down after yesterday's 7w ultrasound coming back with good news (baby measuring exactly on schedule, good heartbeat). I'm sure anxiety'll be back up again by next week, though, let alone my next (and possibly last ultrasound until the anatomy scan, gah) scan at 9wks.

There's a line from an old Evanescence song (Field of Innocence) that comes to mind for me... "I want to go back to believing in everything and knowing nothing at all". $:\$ I miss that breezy assurance that seeing two lines on a stick meant I'd have a baby to cuddle and love in nine months, for sure.

nekedfeet · October 2015

PGAL here as well- PLEASE lets start a check in!! Great idea.

My last pregnancy was just a few months ago (conceived early Apr 2015- ended July 1, 2015). All was going well, but when we went in for the Nuchal Translucent (13wks) they saw big problems. Despite the fact that our baby was moving around a bunch and had a good heart rate, she was surrounded by fluid (cystic hygroma) and some had entered her belly and gone around her lungs. It was very severe and they assumed a chromosomal abnormality was the cause. After a CVS confirmed, they were correct: our little girl had Turner's Syndrome and the complications of that were already damaging her. They gave 0% chance of survival to term, let alone outside the womb, and gave us really no option other than termination. Had we let it go on, she would've suffered from the fluid in her body constricting her organs, and I would've suffered- a possible mirror syndrome of her cystic hygroma, not to mention months of being pregnant with a baby that would not survive.
So I was induced on July 1st, and gave birth to our little girl at 10:25pm.

3 d+c's later (for retained tissue) and here we are... pregnant again and completely terrified. I'm only 4w2d LMP, so it's going to be a long road... I only hope we can make it that far.

Thanks to all for sharing your stories-- so happy we're all in this together.

queenklau · October 2015

I am so sorry for all of your losses. Glad we can have a weekly check in! I had my first u/s due to spotting (mentioned in previous post) and everything looked great and we saw the HB at 6w1d! So a little relieve now. Surprisingly, I am extremely positive this time around, last time I was freaked out much more and would say the "if" now I am focused on the "when" the baby is born. I know this baby will be ok and I will meet him/her in June! But with these hormones, you never know how I will feel next week haha! So happy to share this experience with June 2016 mommies that are PGAL troopers. Love y'all!

TwoBadMice · October 2015

Hey ladies-new to the board and just added my intro to the thread. Edit- I'm sorry I dont know why my posts are half posting. I also had a MC back in Feb so I'm nervous as well. I would participate in a weekly check in

PressLove · October 2015

I suffered a loss before my DD was born. Having a successful pregnancy has helped my anxiety, but I'm still nervous. I haven't told anyone. I was leery of joining this group until I was out of the danger zone. However, I got past all of that. I'm glad that you ladies did too!

Arwen0503 · October 2015

we have lost 2 of our little ones, the most recent was in july. I am nervous about this pregnancy but I just have to take it day by day and keep on thinking Today I am Pregnant!! With our rainbow baby when I past the time we lost our first my anxiety when down, I'll probably be the same with this one as well.

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