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Loss, chemical pregnancy

pascorrapascorra member
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Hi ladies -

Just got confirmation that our one and only embryo ended up in a chemical pregnancy. I am numb and heart broken. We had PGD testing for this and I have serious doubts about doing another round of IVF when we did everything possible ( had a 60-70% chance) and this still failed.

This process also doing breast cancer and polyps in my uterus which is all now gone, and I am thankful for...but it has been a lot.

I feel lost, angry and hopefully all at the same time. I know I had to grieve and move on.

If anyone has been through something similar I would love to hear your stories.

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  • HBamama2BHBamama2B member
    @pascorra my heart breaks for you right now and the struggle you are going through. I have never been pregnant, CP or otherwise, so I cannot offer you my experiences, only my support. You are an incredibly strong person to travel this road, have such a difficult outcome, and still be able to identify parts to be thankful for. The anger is natural and understandable. I hope and pray your rainbow comes soon. Hugs.
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  • mskeenanmskeenan member
    Oh I am so sorry to hear . I was praying for you ! Still am . I felt/am feeling the same way after my loss . My emotions came in waves. First I was sad ... Then I was just angry at everyone . I took my anger out on everyone around me . Luckily people have been understanding but this is such a hard thing to go through . It will get easier though . That's what I keep telling myself . It just has to . It's so hard not knowing the reasons for these things . To make matters worse the doctors are just so casual about it - but unfortunately it is more common than i thought . Take extra care of yourself and allow yourself to feel what you feel without being sorry for it . I have been treating myself to massages , wine and shopping . Not that that fixes things but it's important to take extra care of you right now . Sending you a big hug and lots of love !

    **BFP and loss warning**

    Me: 29
    DH: 29
    Us: Married Valentine's Day, 2015
    DH: No issues.
    Me: PCOS, unexplained infertility (whatever that means!!)
    June 2015 Medicated TI cycle: BFN
    July 2015:  Medicated TI cycle: BFN
    August 2015: IUI: BFP. Chemical pregnancy :(
    October 2015: IUI: BFN
    January 2016: Egg retrieval: 10 frozen embryos!
    March 2016: FET Cycle- 2 embryos transferred!: BFP !
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  • misshopeful1misshopeful1 member
    @pascorra I'm sorry you're going through this. My heart hurts for you. Having never been pregnant I can't imagine how awful this is. I'll keep you in my thoughts.
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  • 2legbaby2legbaby member
    I had hoped so much that you would get good news....I can't imagine how you feel right now, take your time to grieve and regroup and you will know how to move forward from here...I am just so very sorry. Hugs!
    ******TW*****
    Me 39 DH44
    Married 8/2/14
    TTC 9/14
    Dx: PCOS, blocked L fallopian tube, suspect poor egg quality
    MFI (low #, poor morphology)
    IVF #1 9/15 Failed
    IVF #2 12/15 Failed
    1st DE FET  5/16-BFN :(
    2nd DE FET 7/18-BFP :)
    8/17 Baby HR 140/min EDD 4/6/17
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  • Binnie505Binnie505 member
    I am so sorry for your loss. Sending Hugs and prayers your way.
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  • erica0901erica0901 member
    So sorry for your loss, you are in my thoughts and prayers.
    Me 32 DH 34
    Married 9/2012 

    TTC #2 starting 9/2019
    BFP 7/13/2020!
    Due 3/18/2021

    TTC #1 since 2/2015
    Diagnosis: Unexplained Infertility 9/2015
    IUIs #1-#5: 9/2015-2/2016 all BFNs
    Moving to IVF with ICSI and PGS 5/2016-6/2016  Just kidding, BFP 4/4/2016!
    Spencer Elliott born 12/7/2016


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  • vssbrmvssbrm member
    I sm so sad reading this. My thoughts and prayers are with you. I can not imagine going through everything that you are. Spoil your self a little and know we are all thinking about you.
    Married May 2009, TTC since November 2012 (Together since 2006 ish - had my eyes on him since 2001)
    Me: 32 (33 in May), Him: 37 (January)

    DX: Me: High Prolactin, Possible Autoimmune Disease Issues, though RE not concerned (?)  New RE has a plan!!
           Him: Minor Varicocele, low morphology, slightly low count

    History:

    Beta 5/9/2016 BFP!!
    Embryo transfer scheduled for April 28, 2016 and beta test May 9, 2016 (day after Mother's Day!)
    Transfer Meds include: Lupron Depot (4/1), Minivelle Patch (every 3rd day), Estradiol (3x daily), Amoxicillin, Progesterone in Oil, Methylprednisonlone. Lovenox and baby asprin added after transfer. 

    3/22/16 - Sono Saline ultrasound cyst to be aspirated on 4/1/16 if not cleared up by 3/29 US - It cleared on its own
    Retrieval 3/4/16 - 26 eggs retrieved, 23 mature, 20 fertilized, 14 embryos currently frozen
    Starting IVF Stims on +/- Feb 22, 2016
    HSG scheduled for 1-26-16 - All clear "beautiful uterus" (though inverted)

    Switched clinics and now prepping for IVF in February / March

    Fourth IUI -  CD3-7 100 Clomid w/ Ovidrel Trigger - December, 2015 - BFN
    Third IUI -  CD3-7 100 Clomid w/ Ovidrel Trigger - November, 2015 - BFN
    Second IUI - CD3-7 100 Clomid w/ Ovidrel Trigger - September, 2015 - BFN
    Started Prolactin Medication October 15 - Levels quickly regulated to with in normal range
    First IUI - CD3-7 100 Clomid w/ Ovidrel Trigger - August, 2015 - BFN
    After no BFPs (ever) First RE/Urologist visit in Feb 2015
    HSG w/ OB, 2014 = all clear
    Trying to conceive since November 2012
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