i woke up to an email from my childhood friend who was letting me know she is now expecting. don't get me wrong, i am really happy for her, but at the same time, i feel like someone punched me in the stomach. i know in my heart i'm not ready to try again, but damn. why is this so hard?
Married my BEST FRIEND on December 1, 2007.
Started TTC in March 2008.
Found out we were expecting our first child in October 2008 - but had a m/c in December 2008 - resulting in a d&e.
Met with a RE in May 2009 and set a plan - but conceived unexpectedly on our own!
Our precious little Sophia was born on February 9, 2010!

Re: woke up to this...
I know exactly how you feel. I had my m/c 10/10/08 the day before my wedding, about 3 days before that we found out a relative was pregnant. She is also a recovering drug user. Glad she gets to have her baby and I didn't. Not to mention both my sister-in-laws were pregnant at the time. The one had her baby about 3 weeks ago, it was hard to go to the hospital and meet our new niece, even as exciting as it is. But I had the worst time with the other relative, obv bc i never did drugs or even drank during mine and look what happens, where as she didn't know for atleast a month and half and she was still doing drugs! ugh. I guess that's life?! And she's due about a week after i would of been due!
We started trying again after 2 cycles. And we just found out this week we're pregnant. Hoping not to go through that again!!! I hope that whenever you do try again you have the best success. And that you find a way to cope with everything. I don't know that I totally have, but I'm working on it!!