Reluctant Intro

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• Raspberry1009 member

  September 2015

  I'm also new here from April 2016. I'm going through a natural mc now after spotting last week which turned to bleeding over the weekend. My Dr confirmed this morning that my HcG levels are dropping so I've miscarried. This was my first pregnancy and I was about 8 weeks. Never got to see the baby or a heartbeat.
  So far my mc has been manageable and pain free (guess I got lucky there, which isn't much consolation). I have also continued to work out and plan to keep it up. It helps get my mind off of everything and feel somewhat normal.
  I feel lost and sad. I didn't realize how much I wanted this baby until I had it, and now it's gone. I can't quite get used to the fact that I'm not pregnant anymore.
  Anyway, just wanted to say you're not alone.

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• tennisbabymama member

  September 2015

  I'm also here from April '16. I miscarried just last Thursday evening after spotting started on Tuesday. I was just over 8 weeks and saw a heartbeat Tuesday then miscarried Thursday. It's crazy how fast things change. The last week has been the absolute worst and hardest week of my life. I'm still waiting for it to "get better". Like you I am going to throw myself into working out and try again when we can. I'm still cramping pretty bad so as soon as that happens I can get back to "normal". I'll be thinking of you tomorrow. Please let us know how it goes. I'm so so sorry for your loss. Prayers.

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• camerainmyhand member

  September 2015 edited September 2015

  I also was due in April 2016. My baby was measuring right on track, but no heartbeat. I'm having a D&C on Thursday. So sorry for your loss.

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• KellieClairedueApril member

  September 2015

  So sorry for your loss. I just had my curette yesterday after my baby passed away at 10 weeks. Such a tough time. Try not to stress about the curette. I have been lucky that I had mild pain afterwards for about half an hour and have had no pain since. Haven't even had to take a panadol. You will be ok. I didn't want to get the curette because I wanted to keep carrying my baby with me, but I'm glad I have now, so that I can try to move on. Good luck xx

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• PeggyOlsonFTW member

  September 2015

  Thanks. I had my d&c yesterday as well. The pain is fine and I'm glad I did it because it does give me some closure. I think I'd still be a hot crying mess if I was waiting for nature to take its course. 

  
  

  Mentally I feel ok. My best friends came over this morning and we had a playdate with our kids. That helped keep my mind off the fact that I was supposed to be having my 12 week ultrasound this morning. Times when I'm alone are the hardest. Or random things that I remember - the packages of baby stuff I ordered online that haven't arrived yet, a random quote I read, seeing celebrity baby announcements.... I know it will get easier. I'm itching to get back to running so I have something to focus on and give me endorphins.

  
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• reesaXden member

  September 2015

  KDHB13 said:

  Moving over here from April '16. I started having some random brown spotting last week and it increased in frequency and intensity yesterday. I went in for a heartbeat check today and my OB couldn't find anything. She tried with a small ultrasound machine, but found nothing there either, so they sent me for a regular ultrasound. Tech couldn't see anything, so we had to try transvaginally. We could easily see that baby was way too small (Measured 7w1d when I was supposed to be 11w5d) and didn't have a heartbeat. I had to wait for 20 minutes for a midwife to come and tell me my options. I'm having a D&C tomorrow. 

  
  

  I feel numb, angry, frustrated - a whole mess of feels. I'm frustrated that I had one easy pregnancy with a healthy baby and now a MC. I'm angry that MIL went and told pretty much the entire population of her town that I was pregnant after we asked her to keep it quiet until after the first trimester. I feel like it serves her right to now have to go back and tell all those people that I had a miscarriage. I feel guilty that I openly said this surprise baby wasn't convenient and now I've lost it.

  
  

  I don't know what to expect for D&C recovery but I feel the need to throw myself back into running and training for a race of some sort to take my mind off things. I know this is rambling, but that's where I'm at right now.

  I'm from April 16' too. (Due date was actually March 30th but was on the April board)
  I had a D&c this past Friday...
  
  I'm sorry you are going through this as well.
  
  Thoughts and prayers!!
  ((Hugs))

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• queen_frostine member

  September 2015

  Another April 2016 club. Too depressing =/ We discovered my pregnancy was a blighted ovum last week and I had a d&c on Friday. Recovery for me was very quick. I never had anything worse than regular period cramps, although they scared me more because they felt less natural. I only took my pain meds the first day, ibuprofen once or twice after that. I was back to my normal activity level the next day, which is pretty low. However, if you're used to lots of physical activity, I would think you could start building back up pretty soon. I'm trying to make myself start start exercising again (30 minutes stationary bike a day - running hurts me) but I never got back into it after school started, a couple of weeks before my bad news. It's good that you have motivation, though! While I have every intention of trying again and therefore should be eating as healthy as possible, exercising, etc., I've been having feelings of depression that I don't matter or need to take care of myself because I don't have a baby to grow.

  
  
  

  

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• ggatewood78 member

  September 2015

  I'm from April 2016 too. I found out today that we lost our baby at 9 weeks, measured 7 weeks today. I had an ultrasound at 6 weeks with a 135bpm heartbeat. I had another at 7 weeks with a 149bpm. They had me do those after I started spotting and bleeding. My progesterone was super low and while my HCG levels were going up, they weren't doubling. Progesterone was their biggest worry, but I kept getting reassurance when I saw the heart flickering. During those ultrasounds I felt a tremendous amount of relief, but as the bleeding continued, I just knew something wasn't right. I wasn't allowing myself to get excited, defense mechanism I guess. I've been an up and down hot mess for a few weeks. Relieved then worried, relieved then worried. When we didn't get a heartbeat today, I melted down completely and have been sobbing on and off all day. I'm getting a D & C tomorrow. When I picked up my prescriptions, I melted down again. One is to start the dilation process, which makes me grimace. I'm laying on the couch now, rubbing my tummy, knowing my baby is in there, dead. It's heartbreaking. I can't help but feel completely hopeless, like it's my fault, perhaps because I'm too old (37). My body let me down and I'm not sure how I will be able to get past this.

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