Just a rant!

Here it goes I've never been one to care that my bf goes out and has drinks every now and then or whatever, But lately everytime he drinks comes home I miss out, I'm home by myself most of the time as he is working, I would actually like him to do things with me to though. Last night was the last straw though he drank Saturday night I drove and then Sunday with his mates which I tagged along with to as I haven't seen them all in a while, we get home at 5 have tea ect and clean up he's passed out at 730 on the couch which was fine until the dog pooed on the new carpet and it was dark and I stood in it, I was yelling and yelling his name because I didn't want to get it evey where all over the carpet I reckon the whole street heard me except him, so I ended up having to move and get it everywhere (gross) finally cleaned my feet and woke went out and woke him up and i got into trouble for not closing the hall way door I started crying because what if it was actually an emergency something happened to me I know that's extreme but I feel like he's supposed to be able to wake up when I need him. And then he threw my pillows out and I had to sleep in the spare bed I gathered all because he wouldn't wake up. I want to be able to ask for his help but seems like such a hassle, so I do most things myself and then he cracks it at me because I shouldn't do something's alone but I already struggle with asking for help and then when I do I get shut down I've spoken to him about all these issues but they don't seem to change its like he forgets im pregnant and just thinks I've gotten fat!