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Selfish moment

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That moment when you hear/see a new pregnancy announcement, and truth be told I'm not one ounce happy for them. I know I shouldn't be jealous but deep down inside I'm crying
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  • carrieandrcarrieandr member
    I saw a pregnancy announcement on FB yesterday and I hid it.  Didn't click "like", just hid it.  After losing my second pregnancy this weekend, I cannot deal with that right now. The sight of her ultrasound made me angry.
    TTC#1 since Jan 2015
    BFP 2/19/15  •  MMC found at 9 wks  •  D&E at 11 wks (age 36)
    BFP 8/29/15      •  CP (age 37)
    BFP 11/18/15  •  DD born at 41 weeks <3(age 37/38)

    TTC#2 since May 2017
    BFP 10/18/17  •  MMC found at 8 wks  •  Misoprostal at 10.5 wks (age 39)
    BFP 2/16/18      •  CP (age 39)
    BFP 4/13/18      •  CP (age 39)
    BFP 5/07/18  •  MMC found at 10.5 wks  •  D&E at 11.5 wks      •  Testing showed it was a girl with Trisomy 22. (age 39/40)
    9/5/18 Diagnosed with diminished ovarian reserve (4-5 follicles, one ovary had none and was very atrophied)
    RE says the low egg count is likely causing my recurrent pregnancy loss. Less eggs results in more aneuploidy.
    BFP 9/24/18  •      CP (age 40)
    BFP 5/11/19  •  Fraternal twins  •  MMC found at 10w5d (Baby A 6w, Baby B 10w)  •  Misoprostal at 11 weeks (age 41)













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  • Whiggrrl65Whiggrrl65 member
    I feel like there are constant pregnancy announcements from people in my newsfeed on Facebook and it drives me crazy but the ultrasound pics send me over the edge.
      • TTC #1 since August 2014
      • currently on 5th medicated IUI cycle
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  • jilligan14jilligan14 member
    The other day I saw an old friend at the grocery store. He was standing there with his very pregnant girlfriend (and I've see all the updates on FB). I quickly grabbed my groceries and ran out before he saw me because I didn't want to have to "meet" his pregnant girlfriend. But then I saw another friend in the parking lot, stopped to talk to her, and then the friend and his pregnant girlfriend spotted us on their way out. I just felt terrible for running away from a pregnant woman. I just didn't want to have to feign happiness, but I tried my best to put on a happy face. I feel like it's just getting worse for me...
    ME: 36 (PCOS), DH: excellent SA
    NTNP since 11/12, actively trying since 8/14
    m/c @ 7w (4/22/14), m/c @ 6w (11/19/14)
    11/15: Letrozole, Ovidrel, TI = BFP!!!
    Beta #1(14dpo)=349, Beta #2(18dpo)=2,805
    12/17/15: Got to see the heartbeat (105bpm)!
    1/25/16: NT scan = normal (HB=163bpm)
    EDD: 8/10/16 
    8/8/16: Baby boy born @ 12:25am, 8lbs, 20.5 inches
    5/18/17: BFP!!! (11dpo)
    Beta #1(12dpo)=176.4, Beta #2(15dpo)=607.1
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  • thistle8677thistle8677 member
    Xoxoxo
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  • C_GirlieC_Girlie member
    Lol we all share that same feeling. Damnit FB is making us all emotional. I was checking out my newsfeed today when . At that moment I didn't hide or like the post. I simply logged off and just stared at the wall for what seamed like an eternity with glassy eyes. That was her announced to the FB world. Perhaps she could be like us and had ttc#2, but either way I'm jealous and hurting inside. @CarrieandRoy I'm so sorry for your loss u had a chemical pregnancy right? Hang in there FX that next time it'll be a sticky baby. @kmetcalfe77 u/s, belly shots they all drive me over the edge. @jilligan14 that sounds like something that would totally happen to me (my kinda luck). I lol at your comment but I do feel your pain.
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  • BulgariHeartBulgariHeart member
    I'm thankful for not having FB at least once a day. :)
    Anniversary
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  • thistle8677thistle8677 member
    @BulgariHeart same, girl! 8-X
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  • happyktmomhappyktmom member
    I hate it when friends and family members pop out babies like it's nothing and then complain to me about money.  Then they want me to be excited for them, even suggesting that I throw them baby showers for their 4th and 5th pregnancies?!  Are you freaking kidding me!?
     I have stepped away from Facebook - best thing I've ever done!  It would make me crazy and though I miss peoples news and events, I feel free.
    **child mentioned**
    Me(38)PCOS/Hypothyroid   DH(43)Low T/ED
    MMC at 10 weeks 03/2011 DD born 01/2012   TTC #2 since 04/2014
    BFP 8/26/2016


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  • carrieandrcarrieandr member
    @C_Girlie I had a chemical pregnancy this weekend and I had a missed miscarriage in March followed by a d&e in April.  No kids yet.
    TTC#1 since Jan 2015
    BFP 2/19/15  •  MMC found at 9 wks  •  D&E at 11 wks (age 36)
    BFP 8/29/15      •  CP (age 37)
    BFP 11/18/15  •  DD born at 41 weeks <3(age 37/38)

    TTC#2 since May 2017
    BFP 10/18/17  •  MMC found at 8 wks  •  Misoprostal at 10.5 wks (age 39)
    BFP 2/16/18      •  CP (age 39)
    BFP 4/13/18      •  CP (age 39)
    BFP 5/07/18  •  MMC found at 10.5 wks  •  D&E at 11.5 wks      •  Testing showed it was a girl with Trisomy 22. (age 39/40)
    9/5/18 Diagnosed with diminished ovarian reserve (4-5 follicles, one ovary had none and was very atrophied)
    RE says the low egg count is likely causing my recurrent pregnancy loss. Less eggs results in more aneuploidy.
    BFP 9/24/18  •      CP (age 40)
    BFP 5/11/19  •  Fraternal twins  •  MMC found at 10w5d (Baby A 6w, Baby B 10w)  •  Misoprostal at 11 weeks (age 41)













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  • Whiggrrl65Whiggrrl65 member
    So after getting my official BFN beta about an hour ago, I went onto FB to distract myself and some JERK posted her "15.5 week" US.  She already posted her 12 week "announcement" US.  I just CANNOT deal with these idiots today. 
      • TTC #1 since August 2014
      • currently on 5th medicated IUI cycle
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  • MamafestoMamafesto member
    The cosmic f**k of the day: a third co-worker in a 14-person office just announced that she's pregnant today. Seriously?!?!? That means every other woman of child-bearing age in my office is pregnant, except for me. And I was "supposed" to be due right smack in the middle there, but the universe is cruel. Ugh...
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  • C_GirlieC_Girlie member
    @CarrieandRoy si sorry, but I hope the next BFP sticks. @kmetcalfe77 she's gonna be super annoying her whole pregnancy, the type that will say everyday how hungry or tired she is and the baby just kicked me in the ribs, smh. @Mamafesto fx that you will be next in line to join em. @happyktmom I despise going to baby showers. I try my hardest to make an excuse not to attend. I get a gc to avoid shopping in baby stores. The worst is someone who reveals how devastated they were when they found out they was expecting another baby "oh I was so depressed and I prayed that the pee pregnancy test was wrong". Statements like that makes my blood boil, if only I could be fertile
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  • carrieandrcarrieandr member
    I watched a tv show tonight that had a girl who got pregnant and wanted to get rid of it.  (bangs head against wall)  She said she tried lifting heavy things, but that didn't help.  (bangs head against the wall some more)
    TTC#1 since Jan 2015
    BFP 2/19/15  •  MMC found at 9 wks  •  D&E at 11 wks (age 36)
    BFP 8/29/15      •  CP (age 37)
    BFP 11/18/15  •  DD born at 41 weeks <3(age 37/38)

    TTC#2 since May 2017
    BFP 10/18/17  •  MMC found at 8 wks  •  Misoprostal at 10.5 wks (age 39)
    BFP 2/16/18      •  CP (age 39)
    BFP 4/13/18      •  CP (age 39)
    BFP 5/07/18  •  MMC found at 10.5 wks  •  D&E at 11.5 wks      •  Testing showed it was a girl with Trisomy 22. (age 39/40)
    9/5/18 Diagnosed with diminished ovarian reserve (4-5 follicles, one ovary had none and was very atrophied)
    RE says the low egg count is likely causing my recurrent pregnancy loss. Less eggs results in more aneuploidy.
    BFP 9/24/18  •      CP (age 40)
    BFP 5/11/19  •  Fraternal twins  •  MMC found at 10w5d (Baby A 6w, Baby B 10w)  •  Misoprostal at 11 weeks (age 41)













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  • emsmama15emsmama15 member
    I just have to keep saying "I really do love my job" so I can continue to deal with all the moms who do drugs or don't take care of themselves while they're pregnant.  And then they can't figure out why their baby needs to go to the NICU.  I'm worried I'm going to get so angry at some point that I'll say something that I'll regret - or that will get me fired.  UGH!  I hate this...  Why are sh*tty people so darn fertile??
    *** Child & current pregnancy mentioned ***
    Me - 41 (PCOS), Hubby - 43 (healthy)
    7/2013 - Sweet baby girl born (Clomid + TI)
    3/2014 - TTC #2, return to RE 7/2014
    12/2015: IVF #1 transferred two great looking embryos - BFP!
    First ultrasound: TWO beautiful little heartbeats!!
    Harmony: negative; level 2: babies look great and are boy/girl! :) 
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  • thistle8677thistle8677 member
    @kmetcalfe77 sorry for your BFN :(
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  • C_GirlieC_Girlie member
    @emsmama15 unfortunately those are the fertile creatures. Most of the time you get the opposite of what you want #ItSucks
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  • C_GirlieC_Girlie member
    Lol I log onto FB today to see another announcement. This time it's a u/s pic captioned "7 weeks and counting". This will be her 3rd child, uhm isn't it a little premature to basically tell the world. Welp you gets no like or comment from me, another bam in your face posting. Twice in one week everyone is getting KU except me :(
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  • BulgariHeartBulgariHeart member
    I see an insane amount of bumps everywhere I go lately!

    Though I must say that I also see people who are struggling with their health and pregnancies.
    A friend of mine wrecked her health and yet conceived at the first try because of the baby aspirin she's on. She smoked like a chimney her whole pregnancy so I can't imagine that poor baby having much health.
    Another friend is my age and barely conceived one child before screwing up her thyroid completely and having it removed. The baby has had more antibiotics rounds than birthdays, so she hasn't exactly lucked out in the parent department either.
    It just reminds me that getting pregnant is not always al there is to it, If that makes anyone feel better :)
    Anniversary
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  • C_GirlieC_Girlie member
    There isn't an easy road in this thing called life
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  • agillespie15agillespie15 member
    Before I was able to have my tubal reversal, I so desperately to be pg but obviously couldn't. I was soooo sad and discouraged every time I heard someone was pg or saw an announcement. I felt guilty for feeling that way but I couldn't help it. My sister in law got pg at the time, and when my DH told me I just said "That SUCKS!" And burst into tears. I cried for a long time. Now that I've had my reversal, I am sooooo encouraged and pray that it will happen fast so I don't get sad and discouraged again
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