I'm not sure if it's okay for me to start my own thread or not on this, but I did a search and it seems my search isn't working. I'm also mobile, so that could be an issue.
Anyway, I posted on an FFFC a week or two ago that my confession was that I was 12 to 13 weeks and I hadn't been to a doctor yet, but I was taking care of myself and taking prenatals. I can't remember who, but someone had asked me why I hadn't been to a doctor and I explained and then the person and a few others wanted me to keep them posted.
Well, today, at 2:30 pm central time, I am finally seeing a doctor. I'm scared and nervous and I'm just praying that everything is going as it should be.
I will update on this after the doctor's appointment.
Back story: At Christmas time this past year, H and I found out I was pregnant. So, I did what I normally do...applied for insurance (medicaid) and WIC. A day after I got approved for both, I had a mc. We were devastated. Fear got into my head, which made me think that if I got pregnant again and did like I should by getting insurance (medicaid) and WIC, that I would possibly lose the baby again.
Yes, I know that's not how this works, but I had had three healthy pregnancies before the mc. I never expected to have an mc. My irrational fears paralyzed me when we found out I was pregnant again, in June. I didn't want to apply for medicaid and WIC. I was just too terrified. Then, something snapped and I realized that I couldn't continue going without seeing a doctor because eventually, I was going to have to have the baby and I do want to make sure that the baby is healthy, so I finally got insurance and now finally have an appointment.
(I apologize if I shouldn't have opened my own thread about this. I just didn't know where else to post it.)
Edited to post back story so everyone understands why I haven't been to a doctor before.