Looking for a little guidance, advice, help for one paranoid mama... I'll try to make a long and complicated story short...
I'm a FTM and my DD is 10 weeks old and has had two UTIs accompanied with bacterial blood infections (e coli). We've spent time in the hospital for both instances - total of 16 days combined. During her first infection, she had an ultrasound done on her kidneys and bladder, as well as a spinal tap (two of them!) to rule out bacteria in her spinal fluid, everything came back fine. After the first infection she had a VCUG done to rule out her urine back flushing, came back normal. About two weeks after the VCUG, we were right back in the hospital with the same infection. We had a second ultrasound done and it came back normal again. She has been on antibiotics for so long and now she will be on a prophylactic to try to prevent any future infections. Her doctors have given us some theories, but no definitive answers. We are meeting with a pediatric urologist from CHOP to hopefully understand what is causing the issues, but I am a wreck (to put it mildly). I am constantly taking her temp (that's been the only way we've discovered there's been an issue). If she sleeps too long, I immediately think something is wrong. I've become the worst helicopter mom you could ever imagine, but I don't know how not to be. I feel guilty that I made her sick because I couldn't breastfeed or that it's our dogs or that she sat in a wet diaper overnight. Everything I do and everything she does, I analyze under a microscope. I've never heard of a baby getting two UTIs and bacterial blood infections but apparently it is somewhat common (but two back to back)??
Besides all of this, she is a healthy and extremely happy baby. She's eating well, gaining weight like a champ (almost 13 lbs!), she's developing normally, which is a relief, but still in the back of my mind, I'm waiting for the next infection, for the next hospital stay. I'm so scared. Maybe this post is just a rant/vent because my poor family has heard all of it and thinks I'm jumping off the deep end, though they've been very supportive. And my poor hubby, bless his heart, he's been so great dealing with my craziness. Mamas, how do you not drive yourself crazy worrying??? I welcome any advice, comments or words of wisdom.
Bekke
Married 8.27.2011 ~ EDD 5.13.15
Doxie Mama
Re: Paranoid FT Mama
And do you mean CHOP as in Philly? That's where we are seen and had our bone marrow transplant and they are great. Just make sure they look into all possibilities and causes.
Stay strong!