TTC after 35

So sad...

sorry to be all attention seeking. The Bump won't let me comment on any threads. WTH?? My week is pretty much crap. Negative beta today. I'm officially broken. I just don't know how much more I can take.
*** Child & current pregnancy mentioned ***
Me - 41 (PCOS), Hubby - 43 (healthy)
7/2013 - Sweet baby girl born (Clomid + TI)
3/2014 - TTC #2, return to RE 7/2014
12/2015: IVF #1 transferred two great looking embryos - BFP!
First ultrasound: TWO beautiful little heartbeats!!
Harmony: negative; level 2: babies look great and are boy/girl! :) 

Re: So sad...

  • I'm so sorry :( I haven't been at this as long as some and I know how daunting I've even felt everything is. So I feel for you and hope good things for you soon!
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  • Oh, I'm so sorry!! I really thought this was it for you. How frustrating!! Sending you lots of hugs.
    ME: 36 (PCOS), DH: excellent SA
    NTNP since 11/12, actively trying since 8/14
    m/c @ 7w (4/22/14), m/c @ 6w (11/19/14)
    11/15: Letrozole, Ovidrel, TI = BFP!!!
    Beta #1(14dpo)=349, Beta #2(18dpo)=2,805
    12/17/15: Got to see the heartbeat (105bpm)!
    1/25/16: NT scan = normal (HB=163bpm)
    EDD: 8/10/16 
    8/8/16: Baby boy born @ 12:25am, 8lbs, 20.5 inches
    5/18/17: BFP!!! (11dpo)
    Beta #1(12dpo)=176.4, Beta #2(15dpo)=607.1
  • I'm sorry. Hugs.
  • I'm so sorry :(
    It's so unfair. I wish words could change all of this. Sending you love xo
    Lilypie Pregnancy tickers
  • Agree with thistle8677... Not even DH can say much to make it better for me. So big hugs and try to hang in there!
  • I'm so sorry @emsmama15 . So very disappointing. Thinking of you...
  • I'm so sorry!
  • Thanks everyone! The Bump is still being dumb and won't let me comment except on my phone. I'm sorry I haven't been back sooner.
    *** Child & current pregnancy mentioned ***
    Me - 41 (PCOS), Hubby - 43 (healthy)
    7/2013 - Sweet baby girl born (Clomid + TI)
    3/2014 - TTC #2, return to RE 7/2014
    12/2015: IVF #1 transferred two great looking embryos - BFP!
    First ultrasound: TWO beautiful little heartbeats!!
    Harmony: negative; level 2: babies look great and are boy/girl! :) 
  • I am so sorry @emsmama15. Hang in there and take care of yourself. Hugs. 

    btw --  i couldn't post for quite sometime too. Finally able to tonight. 
    Me (42) w/ partner for 16+ years
    TTC #1: 11/2012 - 9/2013; 6/2014 - present
    Follistim + TI (3x): All BFNs
    Follistim + IUI (1x): BFN 
    IVF #1: 17 retrieved,15 fertilized, Day 3: 15, Day 5/6: 3 biopsied
    Result; 1 frozen blast (inconclusive PGS results)
    IVF #2; ER: 6/22 16 retrieved, 6/25: 5 transferred (CP), 2 frozen
    FET 9/17: BFN
    Current FET -- Transferred 2 day-3 embryos - BFN

  • 2pups2pups member
    Hang in there @emsmama15! My parents had trouble conceiving for many years. They went on to adopt my brother and sister and had five biological children. They always say it's the people who have to work the hardest to become parents become the best ones. They're the most supportive, giving, wonderful people, so I believe them. Hang in there! You're entitled to cry and vent and have bad days. This is such a frustrating and heart breaking process, but you're not alone.

  • I'm so sorry.
    <a href="http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/5677e2">My Ovulation Chart</a>
  • no way attention seeking - this is the only place we can put ourselves out there and be brave enough to talk about our issues without judgement, right?  It sucks to feel defeated and deflated.

    I'm so sorry...sending hugs and positive thoughts.
    **child mentioned**
    Me(38)PCOS/Hypothyroid   DH(43)Low T/ED
    MMC at 10 weeks 03/2011 DD born 01/2012   TTC #2 since 04/2014
    BFP 8/26/2016


  • Thanks everyone! You guys are so awesome.  And you're right @happyktmom - I'm lucky to be able to vent to all of you.  My hubby is amazing and held me while I bawled my eyes out on Monday, but he doesn't fully get it.  

    I had a nice long vent/cry/discuss session with my favorite NP at my RE's office yesterday and I felt better afterward.  Baseline ultrasound is tomorrow and I'm just hoping there are no cysts, otherwise I get another month or more break.  UGH!

    @2pups - that was the perfect thing to say to me this week.  Made me cry a little, not going to lie, but it was perfect.  Thank you...
    *** Child & current pregnancy mentioned ***
    Me - 41 (PCOS), Hubby - 43 (healthy)
    7/2013 - Sweet baby girl born (Clomid + TI)
    3/2014 - TTC #2, return to RE 7/2014
    12/2015: IVF #1 transferred two great looking embryos - BFP!
    First ultrasound: TWO beautiful little heartbeats!!
    Harmony: negative; level 2: babies look great and are boy/girl! :) 
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