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Emotional Ride

kleshellekleshelle member
edited July 2015 in December 2015 Moms
I'm having an emotional night, I'm not sure why.. Might be because I didn't get my craving fix or because I'm running on 4 hours of sleep in the last 48 hours... Possibly because one of my friends has her first ultrasound at 12-13 weeks next week and she's SO excited, it threw me back thinking about my first ultrasound and the first time I heard that little galloping noise. Just thinking how BIG of a deal that was, how amazing it was to hear my child's precious heart beat for the very first time and having tears running down my face with a smile I couldn't shake off the rest of the day. But anyhow I finally hopped in bed and was thinking how my pregnancy is half way over.. How I feel like I'm guilty of getting too busy or staying too stressed and not taking every day in like I should. Also, how I don't want to take this pregnancy for granted.. After all half of its over which is SO sad but such a great thing. Many of us have had a loss or more, me being one of them. I feel like going through that has opened my eyes up so much to see how big of a blessing it truly is to have a healthy baby bouncing and kicking around. Had I not had that, maybe I wouldn't look so deeply into this pregnancy. I feel so much more appreciative after having gone through a tragedy. But late night rambling of me feeling guilty and needing to start taking at least an hour out of a busy day to sit and bond while Ainsley kicks. Hopefully you ladies are taking in every bit of your pregnancy before it's over.


(Sorry this is scattered, very tired, just wanted to share this hoping to maybe bring attention to some that might have been getting too busy or stressed like I have)
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  • LihnleeLihnlee member
    Hope your night gets better. Get some rest and enjoy those little baby kicks!

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  • mbecca11mbecca11 member
    You sound like you're going to be a great momma. Enjoy these last few months while you have them and cherish every moment you can with baby safe inside your tummy.
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  • vppittmanvppittman member
    CMDD said:

    Do you have a journal you could write in? Maybe getting some thoughts and feelings down on paper would help. It might also give you time to reflect on your pregnancy every day so it doesnt feel like it's flying by.

    This is a good suggestion. I'm keeping a journal that I plan to give to my daughter one day. It really helps me to focus on enjoying the moment. Also, I know I'm going to forget some moments down the line that I'd like to remember. Having the journal to read and help me to reflect will be nice. You should try it!
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  • kleshellekleshelle member
    I never thought of that! I love that idea!
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  • navyblueladybugnavyblueladybug member
    That's such a sweet idea with the journal! I might have to steal that idea... Maybe start on Thursday when I'm at week 20 ;)
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  • ACarter0914ACarter0914 member
    If you can find 5 minutes to sit down alone, it's amazing. Right before bed I sit on my deck and just think about baby. Its hard to do it everyday but it's great bonding time. It brings me back to reality after a long, hard day and makes me realize what's one of the most important things in my life right now (besides my husband and daughter).
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  • rmj28rmj28 member
    The journal is a great idea. I hope you get some rest. You sound like you'll be an amazing momma.
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  • daylynjdaylynj member
    Ditto on the journal!  My best friend had twins a year and a half ago and started  a journal the day she found out she was pregnant.  She just wrote things down every day and hoped that one day she'll be able to share those thoughts and feelings with them. She said it not only  helped her enjoy each day, but kept her centered on whats most important.  Anyway, I had meant to start one as I loved the idea. Part of me felt like if I started one, I'd jinx all of the good stuff as I felt it was all too amazing to be true.  Yesterday, after an emotional day, I sat down and wrote my first entry.  It made me feel really good and connected.  

    Anyway, I too feel bittersweet that its half over!  I hope you're able to get some rest.  Take care!
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  • vppittmanvppittman member
    daylynj said:

    Ditto on the journal!  My best friend had twins a year and a half ago and started  a journal the day she found out she was pregnant.  She just wrote things down every day and hoped that one day she'll be able to share those thoughts and feelings with them. She said it not only  helped her enjoy each day, but kept her centered on whats most important.  Anyway, I had meant to start one as I loved the idea. Part of me felt like if I started one, I'd jinx all of the good stuff as I felt it was all too amazing to be true.  Yesterday, after an emotional day, I sat down and wrote my first entry.  It made me feel really good and connected.  


    Anyway, I too feel bittersweet that its half over!  I hope you're able to get some rest.  Take care!
    There are definitely moments when I am writing or reflecting that I think "this is too good to be true and I'm so blessed" I think that's the beauty of it. I have a hard time living in the moment in many aspects of my life and didn't want to miss these. I read what I've written to my husband and often tear up thinking about sharing it with DD one day. He kind of laughs at me, but I know he thinks it's sweet.
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  • Mands1010Mands1010 member
    I'm 18 weeks now and I worry about that too. I have had losses before this pregnancy, so my whole mindset is "Hurry up and be time to deliver already so I can see for sure that you are safe and healthy!" 
    I'm worried I'll look back a year from now and miss being pregnant and wish I enjoyed it more, but at the same time I know exactly why it's hard to enjoy.. everyday I feel a little nervous worrying if I'm still pregnant. 
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  • kleshellekleshelle member
    I also had thought about closer to meeting her for the first time both my SO and I write her a letter to keep in the belly book so she can look back at that too. It would be so neat if we could keep that up each year at her birthday to write a letter and experiences w her over that year. Just another idea...
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  • kleshellekleshelle member
    And I totally relate to your post 120% @mands1010
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  • daylynjdaylynj member
    kleshelle said:
    I also had thought about closer to meeting her for the first time both my SO and I write her a letter to keep in the belly book so she can look back at that too. It would be so neat if we could keep that up each year at her birthday to write a letter and experiences w her over that year. Just another idea...

    I saw a post on Pinterest about writing a letter each year and sealing it in an envelope with a bit of money ($20-$25ish) and then giving them to their child when they are 18 or even graduating college.  I thought that was a cute idea :)
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