I lost my LO this past Monday after a horrifying experience where I was hemorrhaging so badly, I was transferred via ambulance between two hospitals before getting a D&C. I was 9w2d, but spotting since 5wks, and we saw the heartbeat and on-track growth just over a week ago. I think I have some mild post trauma stress from the sheer amount of blood loss: 6 maternity pads in the first 40min in the ER, 4 pairs of panties, 4 gowns, 2 large bore IVs, something like 14 puppy ("chuck") pads, and an unknown amount of linens. Clots were golf-ball to fist-sized and could've filled a half gallon container easily. I took to calling the blanket over my knees my "shred of dignity". I've been having phantom sensations of passing clots, and having trouble relaxing enough to pee... I associate that feeling with my uterus rapidly voiding. I have a therapist appointment tomorrow, so going to try to get through some of those issues.
I was able to find out today why I hemorrhaged so badly. The ultrasound showed the sac was firmly wedged in my cervical canal so my body was throwing everything it had at it to flush it out. So now I have 1/2 an answer. The other half I'm waiting on but not expecting much is why I lost it in the first place. They'll be following my betas weekly because they're concerned about retained placental tissue. I was 10,000 Monday before the D&C, doc says I should be around 2,500 already today (falls by 1/2 each day).
The good news is that my PCM says that as soon as my two weeks of pelvic rest are up, we can ignore the 1-3 month recommended waiting period because I'm well versed in TCOYF/temping/Billings. Due to my mentality surrounding this... having had a month of spotting to come to grips with the possibility, accepting the loss as soon as I was told there was no heartbeat, and expressing frustration that I've lost 2-3 precious months, he thinks it'll just make depression set in if I'm forced to wait. So that's good news. I've already done the math and my level should be close to zero by July 3rd, and my 2 weeks pelvic rest should be up by the 6th.