Reaching out for support/ Intro (CP mentioned)

mandielea2002 · June 2015

Hello everyone! I have been a long time stalker but this is my first time posting. I'm really not sure where to start but I wanted to reach out to you all for some insight and support. When I try to talk to family and friends about what I've been going though, it seems like they don't know what to say and that I'm making them uncomfortable. Here's my story:

DH and I started TTC in January. I had been off of the pill for over a year and my cycles were very regular. We got pregnant on the first try and were we excited but it ended in a CP 5 days after finding out. In February, no success. In March I began using fertility friend and charting my BBT among other signs and I got pregnant again. This time I went to my GP for testing and found out that my HCG was 9 and my progesterone was 1.4. Sure enough, 4 days later I miscarried. In April, I had a 7dpo progesterone level drawn and it was 7 so she started me on a compounded progesterone 9% vaginal cream (was waaay cheaper than crinone) to be used during the luteal phase but I started it pretty late at 9dpo. I had to stop it at cd 30 to get my period to start after several BFNs. In May I consulted with a OB that a friend with infertility issues referred me to. He said that while he wasn't sure about the effectiveness of progesterone supplements, I should continue using it and he had high hopes for us since I got PG so easily and also suggested I start baby asprin (which I was already doing). That's the month that things got wonky with my cycle. I never got a postive on a OPK (which I did the months prior) and my BBT never showed a major or sustained thermal shift. My 21day progesterone level was only 2.1. Also, I started my period on cd 30 even though I was still on the progesterone. This month (June) I was set to ovulate last Saturday and even got a postive OPK a few days prior but here it is Tuesday and have yet to see a rise in BBT which leads me to believe that I haven't ovulated and won't again this month.

I'm just so frustrated! How can I have gone from a fairly normal cycle but now I'm suddenly not ovulating! Did the progesterone cream create the problem with ovulation even though I'm only using it during the luteal phase? Is the stress of TTC to blame? Has anyone else ever gone though this before?

I am trying to learn to deal with this fairly new problem in my life without it bringing me down. My newsfeed on facebook is filled with baby pictures from friends and coworkers. While I'm happy for them, it brings me a pain I've never experienced before. I can't help but to wonder if God is telling me "No, stop this isn't for you" Or "No now is not the time but keep trying"

Anyways, thanks for reading and please feel free to lend me words of encouragement or understanding. I sure could use them right now.

EDIT: I just heard back from my OB and he wants me to try clomid 50mg next month.

Oh and BTW, Im new to forum posting and wasn't sure how to link my FF charts but here's a try at it if anyone is interested <a href="https://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/59b1f5">My Ovulation Chart</a>

GoldenKeys · June 2015

Welcome! First let me say that you need to run away from that OBGYN and find yourself a reproductive endocrinologist. As you already know by now, your OB doesn't have a clue about why you aren't successfully carrying pregnancy to term. He's using a scattershot approach which is HURTING your fertility.

Clomid without proper testing and monitoring is the worst thing that you could do right now. You could thin your lining so that implantation becomes impossible (which is why ultrasounds should be done while you're on it), and it still probably won't solve your issue with miscarriage. Or you could end up with high order multiples.

I'm not sure which country you're in but if you don't have access to an RE, you should insist on the normal bloodwork tests (estrogen, progesterone, LH, etc) + a day 3 and day 10 ultrasound to measure how many follicles you have + uterine thickness.

mandielea2002 · June 2015

Thank you for your reply! I was worried that I should have gotten more testing first. I have been hesitant to go to an RE just yet due to finacial reasons and the fact that I'm just starting out with all of this TTC/Infertility stuff but maybe I should. I didn't know that it could cause issues with your lining. I'm glad that you mentioned that.

Tricia3000 · June 2015

I completely understand, your paragraph ab new problem ttc, Facebook feed and wondering if God is telling u no right now hit home. These are my feelings exactly I have been ttc 11 mo every month goes by w a neg test and period I can't help but wonder if something is wrong im getting so frustrated it seems like it happens easy for others:(

mandielea2002 · June 2015

@Tricia3000 It is really unfair! My DH and I have been together for 9 years (married for one) and sometimes I wish I could have just 'accidentally' got pregnant instead of waiting and now going through this!

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