My miracle poppyseed (bfp mentioned)

WaitingMay14 · June 2015

Hi all,
I'm crying right now while writing this.. I have been on an emotional roller coaster this past year. Literally told some of the worst odd's (Diminished ovarian reserve, endometriosis, high FSH and slow motility). Literally the likelihood of conceiving naturally was very slim. In May, during my last cycle after to unsuccessful medicated iui cycles my last cycle was canceled due to 6 cysts. I was so devastated. My lining was thick and was told I was on a "rest cycle" for a week. Clearly we didn't rest In the midst of all this I needed to schedule my ivf consult and begin blood work and exams like a saline ultrasound. I left the RE's office realizing that we needed to find 15,000-20,000 in the hopes of even being able to attempt to have a child. Infertility treatment can make you feel like a medical robot being tested on and compared to. It was not an easy journey thus far. I try to take one day at a time...
To make matters worse I was told the longer I wait the less likely my eggs would be as viable as they were.
What did I do? I cried and cried. I spoke to my family who have been so supportive and I wrote on here. Then I cried to DH knowing the strain and financial pressure it was putting on our relationship. The last few days I prayed about it. NO joke literally asked for my miracle. I truly believe this was an act of GOD.
Yesterday AM I tested negative in am. When I got home I was like "lets pee on a stick". I ran out of my bathroom and came back a few minutes later to find a clear BFP. Well I freaked, cried, ran around the apt and thought of every irrational thing. So the most logical thing to do is pee some more on a better test. Sure enough POS on a FRER.
That brings me to this morning another positive. I decided to go to my RE during monitoring hours. They saw me walk in and looked at the schedule and said "what are you having done today"? I quietly whispered I got four positives and I want to get a Beta and progesterone draw (I just knows something off) BE YOUR OWN ADVOCATE!!!!
MY RE face was priceless when he heard I was had a BFP on a HPT. Shock wasn't the word. Well the wait was SOOOOOO hard all day with my pre-k kiddies. Was it a mistake? are my numbers too low? Is it chemical? Well..........
Beta is POSITIVE its really early 11 dpo so my number is 29.9 and progesterone is 9.5
Before I left the office I asked them to put me on progesterone as I suspected an issue all along. They disagreed since my last draw was 13 during my medicated cycle turns out I was right so going on the suppositories should help. It's very EARLY am cautiously optimistic that this will be a healthy pregnancy but my worries and anxieties will only dissipate as my number get stronger.

M/C:
14 (MY lucky number)

What I did:
Charted BBT, CM, and OPK's. Green tea and Preseed during my fertile window.

Timing:
-3,-2,-1 x2,0,1,2 - all missionary at nighttime

Testing:
Started testing at 8 DPO -10 DPO followed by my first BFP on 11 DPO at night getting stronger since. I’m 12 DPO today!!!! I’m pregnant!!!!

Symptoms:
Normally before AF I’m crampy, boobs hurt, bloated etc. I feel fine other than the occasional cramps

How you told the hubs:
My husband works late. I never thought I would be home at 11 pm finding out I was KTFU running around my apt freaking out and crying. I think quickly and have a drawer with a, “I am totes Preggo” pink shirt, an owl “guess what” card and a binky. I set up my camera to record when he comes up the stairs and I am sitting on the couch. DH immediately says “what's wrong” I say nothing. My ipad recently broke and I had it sitting on the table. I said yeah I was trying to power it on, maybe you could try. He opens up the case and the card falls out. He asks me what it is and I say I'm not sure maybe a card from my kids at school. He opens it, jumps off the couch and says “get out of here”. The card said "I think you're going to be a daddy. 4 positive tests I love you". He was thrilled. The financial burden of IVF right now was lifted. I could not be more thankful and gracious to GOD, my husband and my family and friends.

You ladies are so compassionate and knowledgeable. If I didn’t understand MY body I am not sure if I would have been able to defy the odds given an extremely RARE condition for someone who is only 28 years old anyone can. I am still in shock and won’t feel secure until I hear that I will be moving to a OB @ 8 weeks!!!!!
EDD: 2/27/16 Preg for approx. 3 weeks 4 days so its super early I’ll be going back on FRIDAY for another beta and progesterone draw. Praying my numbers go up!!!! Thank you once again ladies. For those of you who feel defeated I was given the WORST scenario the DR’s said it was a 2 % chance. Find your faith and know in time you will get your miracle baby too. Thank you so much for sharing your knowledge with me! Sorry for the long post

I leave you with my thoughts this entire process, "for this child I have prayed". Cross posted in group.

marnief · June 2015

Wow! What a story. I'm teary-eyed reading it. Huge congrats to you, and FX for happy doubling betas!!

WaitingMay14 · June 2015

Thanks so much. I am worried about my low beta

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Roeni · June 2015

Loved reading your story! thanks for sharing and congrats!

Knottie4978096 · June 2015

This story is awesome! Congrats!

jaimejean22 · June 2015

That is so awesome! I don't think you have anything to be concerned with on that Beta #. Everyone is different, but I know for me, I had it checked on dpo 13 or 14 and it was like 76. Which, counting backwards with doubling time, would have put me around where you are at dpo 11, and I am now 13w1d pregnant with a healthy little one. I know the worry can take over, and if you are like me at all, there really is nothing that anyone can say to help, but it will pass! Blessings!

WaitingMay14 · June 2015

So I turned a digi this morning.

On wed my beta was 28.9
Progesterone was 9.5

I was put on supplements for the past 48 hours

Today my numbers were 80.5 with 24 progesterone. More then double. Whooooo hooooo

Thank you for all of your positive thoughts.

LittleRocket · June 2015

Congratulations!!! Amazing!

przemosbabe · June 2015

You definitely beat the odds! I deem your baby a miracle as well

congrats!

WaitingMay14 · June 2015

Yay !!!! Just got a call finally ! I can breathe.

My numbers went from 80.5-388
Prog from 9.5--24--21

Dr said all is good. I get my first ultrasound on wed 2 days away.

WaitingMay14 · August 2015

Triggers mentioned ***

Well I'm sad to read this and say 10 weeks and I just miscarried. I had an emergency d&c on Saturday.

heartbroken.

marnief · August 2015

Oh, I'm so so sorry for your loss. sending you gentleness and comfort, and best wishes for healing physically and emotionally.

pettycrocker · August 2015

So sorry for your loss.

Justone13 · August 2015

I'm so sorry to hear that. Take time for yourself to heal. Sending big hugs your way.

LittleRocket · August 2015

I am so so so sorry.

MKLEWIS2010 · August 2015

I am so sorry for your loss

CTinNV · August 2015

I am so very sorry for your loss. ((Hugs))

przemosbabe · August 2015

No! This is just so awful & not the update that anyone wants to hear. I can only imagine how you must feel right now & my heart hurts just to think of it. I am so sincerely sorry for you honey. We all are.

jeannaqueena · August 2015

I am so sorry for your loss. I had a very similar situation happen. We were not using BC bc we had done IVF to get pg. I always hoped we would get pg on our own, but every time I had it never resulted in a baby. It was weird one month I was like wow I think I just ovulated...I marked it on my calendar and thought i should jump my husband, but was tired and didn't. Later that cycle I realized my period was due any day. I decided to POAS and was shocked to see a BFP. I giggled and ran around my house so excited and my arm pits were sweating! I barely could wait till my husband got home and actually told him on the phone. We had 2 u/s one was really early and didn't see much, the second we saw a baby at 7 weeks and heard the heart beat. I went on tired and nauseous till week 11. When I just knew. I didn't feel pg anymore and at the u/s we begged for they found the baby didn't grow much past 7w4d probably only a day after the last scan. I miscarried at home that weekend and it was horrible. But I did make a huge placenta and that explains all the symptoms. I hope that you can get pg again quickly or find a way to finance IVF. I had thought that baby was my miracle, the surprise blessing from God but sadly it wasn't meant for this world. I have so many babies waiting for me in heaven, in some ways it's comforting and in others it is heartbreaking and so unfair.

I will be praying for you and the other women who go through losses and continue to try for their baby.

meganfauer · August 2015

@waitingMay14 our stories are so similar it is crazy. But the short version, I got off the pill t he day we got engaged May 2008, and then we we started seeing a RE in 2010, we went through 2 failed IVF's and 3 medicated IUI's and yes in that order, we switched Re's who had more faith in us. Well anyway we suffer from Male Factor and I have DOR and my AMH is lowering by the minute. We were lucky and had a beautiful baby boy in October 2013 from our 5th procedure. Well fast forward to this year. We started to try for baby #2 naturally June 2014 to now. I went back for IUI #4 (procedure #6) and only created 1 follicle even on very high dosage of meds. I canceled the IUI bc I didn't want to pay for the procedure when I know the odds with my eggs. So we started IUI #5 (procedure #7) and again was on very high dosages of FSH and had 3 follicles, on CD 10 my follicles were still very small and my dr saw fluid in my uterus leaking from my c-section scar (VERY RARE, in fact when I googled it couldn't find much), my dr told me we had to cancel the cycle b/c any embryo would get washed away with the fluid in there and we needed to keep an eye on why this was happening. I was devastated. SO we stopped, I still took the OPK to track my ovulation, b/c I will never let a month pass me by at 35 with severe DOR. So on CD 20 I FINALLY ovulated on July 28th, we BD on July 29th and were on vacation. Just for fun on Sunday 12 DPOI took a pregnancy test and it was ever slightly, very hard to even see positive. I immediately called my RE's office so they would call me first thing in the am and they did, had my Beta and it was 9.2, I was SOOOO worried b/c that is so low. They did not seem worried as they just felt I was early. Today I had my second Beta and it more than doubled to 39 and my progesterone is 18. I am still so worried and cautiously optimistic.

I love my RE but like you she was SHOCKED when she saw me coming in to get a BETA done. I have had unprotected sex with my husband for 7 years and never has one sperm made it to my eggs to make this happen. At first I thought it was a cruel sick joke. It is a true miracle for us and I sure hope that yours as well as mine keeps on rising. I am still in utter shocked and scared S%^&less. Good luck!!

I just scrolled down and read that you miscarried I am so sorry to hear this as I just wrote my whole story. But as my mom has told me, she is a scientist. Dr's did give you much of a shot and you did, all on your own. DOnt give up!!

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