I am 16 weeks and I am still not ready to announce to public! I only told my immediate family and my best friend. I have been out of work the last week and I am out this week. Originally I was supposed to go on vacation but once I was diagnosed with a hematoma/blood clot, I cancelled the trip and decided to stay home to rest. I am supposed to go back to work next week and I plan to announce the pregnancy then. Some of my co-workers already guessed that I am pregnant but noone asked me to my face so I have not said anything (they talked behind my back and one of my co-worker told me).
I went to an ultrasound yesterday and OB said the blood clot is still there (although the size got smaller) and she wants to be out of work for at least 2 more weeks until my next ultrasound. So that means I HAVE to call my boss and tell her. And that means the rest of my co-workers will know something bad is happening to me.
I can't help it but I am just not ready to tell. I suffered a MC in Jan and I am now at a higher risk for miscarriage because of the blood clot. I didn't want kids growing up and I was pretty vocal about it. I changed my mind last year after my beloved mom passed away and I got to spend a lot time with my niece and nephew! I didn't tell my co-workers about my change of mind because I wasn't sure if I can conceive being in my late 30s. They had harassed me in the past for not having kids and several co-workers (all in their early 30s) had kids last year without any complications. I am sure they will talk behind my back once they find out about my complications now - partially attributing them to my "old" age. I read that you can get blood clot at all ages, but being in an advanced age does poses higher risk generally.
I plan to just tell them the reasons I need to stay home. I don't think I can hide it anymore but I am just stressed out about this. I suppose my biggest fear is if this pregnancy does not work out, I have to face them and I know they will pity me and tiptoe around me when they talk about their kids (which is all the time). My hubby doesn't understand why I would care about this but I can't help it. He has a positive outlook in life (which I admire) and he is convinced everything will work out. I think the MC took away my innocence of the pregnancy.
What would you do if you are in my shoes? Tell everyone the truth (about the blood clot and pregnancy)and pray that the pregnancy would work out? That's what I am planning to do although I don't know how to tell them since I am not going to be at work for at least couple more weeks. Part of me wants to just go back to work and tell them just the pregnancy and not the blood clot, but I don't want to jeopardize my baby. I know this is silly but I am stressed out