I am so stressed and nervous about having the C Secrion tomorrow I'm not excited.
Tomorrow is like suppose to be the happiest day ever and I'm so terrified and upset that I have to have one that I can't think about anything else.
I feel like I'm already a horrible mother.
TTC: Started May 2012
Bloodwork - potential ovulation issue which seemed to be fixed by clomid.
SA - Mot (36%) and count low 9.3 mil (updated)
HSG - Oct 16 2013 - came back clear
Clomid #1 - Nov. 2013 - BFN
BFP#1 = Clomid #2, Dec. 2013 - EDD 9.9.14 Loss Jan 9
Femara #1 + Trigger (2/21) Feb. 2014 +ruptured ovarian cyst - BFN
SIS clear
April 2014: 50IU Follistim CD3-CD9 + 25IU CD10-CD13+CD13 trigger 1 mature follie= BFN
IUI #1: May 2014 50IU Follistim + trigger + IUI = BFN
IUI #2: June 2014 50IU Follistim + IUI (3 mil sperm)= BFN
TI #2: June 2014 50IU Follistim + Trigger = BFN
BFP#2 = IUI# 3: Aug 2014 75IU Follistim+ Trigger + IUI (2 mil sperm) EDD May 15
Love bugs unite!
Re: Tell me I'm not alone...
I'm never had surgery before so I'm terrified of something going wrong and of the recovery aspect. All I keep thinking is that physically I'll be miserable and I can't focus on thinking about the little person I get to meet.
Like pp said, it is scary and stressful so don't be upset with yourself over these feelings. Once your baby is here and in your arms you will be fine. Also know that being a FTM is a learning experience. You're not going to be perfect but you will take care of your baby better than anyone else can.
The recovery hasn't been as bad as my expectations. It's not great but also not terrible.
Good luck and try to stay calm!
https://www.cordmama.com/blog/2015/4/8/three-truths-about-c-section-mamas