Dealing with loss

i just miscarried today (fully and naturally) and I'm a mix of emotions. I had an ultrasound yesterday after I was experiencing bleeding that I thought to be worse than spotting. The ultrasound showed an empty sac and they found it to be smaller than what a normal 9wk sac should be. I went to the ultrasound by myself and that picture of an empty sac with no heartbeat stuck in my mind for a while. It being Mothers Day weekend we were going away with my in-laws and I felt being away would be better for me. I didn't know what to expect, except for bleeding, and when I got back from my walk this morning I noticed that rather than just passing blood I had actually passed the sac and it was probably the worst thing I could ever imagine looking at (sorry for over description). I think my biggest issue now is that I feel I can't talk to any of my close friends or even my family because they're all moms (and even I have a 3y/o that I am so thankful for and should be focusing on) and I don't want to ruin their special day with this news...I guess that's why I'm talking about it on here. I want to be sad and I feel like there are a million things I could have done differently that maybe would have kept me from miscarrying. And my husband has been wonderful in keeping my busy and not letting me be alone or just sitting around, but now I feel like I just want to be sad and just allow my body to cope with what happened. But this is just me venting and I'm so glad this board is here because I need it tonight!