Update for my girls who know my story Trigger warning loss mentioned

MamaBish · April 2015

Hi ladies, I struggled whether to even post but wanted to say hello. To those of you that know my story, I just wanted to say thank you for all of your support. I like to come in here and check on my girls to make sure you are all still happy and healthy (and you usually wind up making me laugh, which is rare these days).

To update: DH and I are in therapy which is helpful, especially for him since I am not really very good at supporting him right now. DH has been amazing and is really the only reason I am still here. We miss Cadence every day and it's still pretty tough one month later. We are both back to work which is sort of strange but will hopefully get us some normalcy back. As we are adjusting to our new normal, we have been talking about our future. We are nowhere near ready, of course, but we have decided that one way or another, we will raise a child. We both have so much love to give and need somewhere to put it.

The good news is, the Doctors have no reason to believe that I cannot carry a full term child since they are 99% sure the accident was to blame. I just need to decide if I can mentally handle another 9 months. Otherwise, we will be looking into adoption. Regardless of how it happens, it will happen, and we will be ok.

Love you all

laurendutch · April 2015

Thank you so much for an update! I think about you guys often.

ElRuby · April 2015

Thank you for your update... I continue to think of you and wish you peace and happiness... Therapy sounds like a wonderful outlet for both of you to begin to process and plan... Best of luck to you and your husband!

aj1327 · April 2015

I think of you often. I don't know what to say other than you are in my thoughts and prayers. Be kind to yourself and give yourself all of the time you need.

MrsWiggleWaggle · April 2015

So very glad to hear from you. Good to know you guys are working on building a new normal for yourselves! Was so glad to see you chime in the other day. Sending love and good fortunes your way!

KaLikeAWind · April 2015

Oh, @MamaBish I heart you and think of you often. I am glad you checked in. You and your hubs are going to be wonderful parents. I'm sure it has been difficult for both of you and that you both may have troubles relating to each other - I know me and my DH handle grief differently, so its hard for me to feel like he's with me sometimes. I'm glad for the counseling you are receiving, I'm sure it is helpful for you both.
Lastly, my DH was adopted at birth, so if you do decide do to that, it's a beautiful gift.

❤❤❤ Much love and hugs to you

ngaines27 · April 2015

@MamaBish Thank you for the update. I think and pray for you guys often. Glad to hear you've found an outlet in therapy and are looking towards your future. I will continue to pray for you all as you navigate an incredibly difficult time. Love and hugs to you!!

lovethatcolosun · April 2015

Thank you for the update. I always smile when you comment on someone's post. I think of you often and have been sending prayers your way. I am happy to hear you are in therapy and are on the road to feeling better. If you feel up to it, keep checking in with us, I know I'm lot alone in saying that we miss you and want to know how you are doing too. Sending love and hugs your way. ❤️

virginiaunicorn11 · April 2015

So good to hear from you. And that you and DH are getting support, both from and with each other. I am in awe that you are one month out and already discussing next steps in your parenting journey. I hope your road will be smoother in the future. It is probably a mix of reassuring and also maddening that the accident was the cause. Life is just so freaking unfair sometimes, I hate it. I am so sorry this happened to you and Cadence.

Wishing you and DH all the very very best. You are loved around here, so please do keep coming back whenever you want xo

Emilywooddesign · April 2015

Wishing you and your husband the very best xoxoxox

megtyrrell · April 2015

Thank you for posting an update! I think of you often and while I can't imagine what you've been through, I am happy that you are thinking about the future. Take care of yourself and keep up the good work. Your strength is truly an inspiration.

knwilliams01 · April 2015

So glad you are finding help in therapy! And I want to wish you all the luck and good karma in the world on your journey to parenthood (no matter which path you take)!

karaelaine1991 · April 2015

Thank you so much for checking in! I'm glad to hear that therapy has been helpful and you're coping with the new normal as best as possible. You and your husband are so strong! You will be fabulous parents one way or another and I wish you the best of luck with whatever comes next. I'll keep praying for continued healing for your family!

finchfeeder80 · April 2015

Glad you guys are getting help and working on healing. It's so great that you are having hope and turning your eyes towards the future, even if it's just for little glimpses. I wish you both the best, and I'm glad we can help you even a little.

Mommaswizz · April 2015

I'm happy to hear you and your DH are taking care of yourselves and using therapy to help you both through this extremely sensitive grieving process. I think I echo everyone else when I say I truly think of you often and continue to send lots of positive thoughts and prayers for you and your husband.

ksimo6 · April 2015

I'm so glad that you and your Dh are taking the time to heal. It sounds like you both see the hope in the future ahead. Thinking of you!

dancegurl1118 · April 2015

So happy to hear from you. I think of your family often. So happy to hear you are in therapy. Take everything one day at a time. You are so strong!!!!

frankengibbs · April 2015

I'm so glad you updated. I, like so many of us on here, think of you often and miss your posts. I am so glad to hear you and your DH are doing well with all things considered and happy to hear you are being gentle with yourself. Grief is journey and I hope that you both will come to find that there is still beauty in this world. When the time comes, I know you guys will make wonderful parents whether to a baby of your own or a baby in need of hearts big enough to love it as though it is.
In loss, I try to remember this: "Take what hurts you and let it help you" ...I hope that this will help you the way it did when I lost my son.
We love you and you will always have a home here on J15.

OnWayto3 · April 2015

Oh, I'm so happy to know that you're actively working on healing... undoubtedly a long process, but reassuring you're moving forward already. I love when I see that you pop onto the board, dropping tidbits of humor or wisdom or support. Positive thoughts as you seek a new normal.

amabarne · April 2015

So glad you're checking in. I hope with the grace of God you and your DH can have healing. I wish the best for y'all in this journey and will keep thinking and praying for you!

FloGirl82 · April 2015

I'm so glad to hear from you and have been thinking about you-miss you around here! Very thankful that you are doing as well as you are, and that you are being kind to yourself, and are giving yourself time and patience needed for healing.

Barbgray14 · April 2015

I am so happy to hear from you, hoping for the very best for both you and DH. You are an amazing supportive person.

mamahawk12 · April 2015

I'm so happy you came to update!! You guys will stay in my prayers, that you can come to the decision that is right for your family. Either way, you are an amazing mama.

lovemywildgirls · April 2015

Thank you for the update. I think about you often when I'm checking out J15. Thoughts and prayers to you and your husband for continued healing and strength.

KonaCoffeeBean · April 2015

Glad to hear you're finding some for the future. You continue to be in my thoughts.

momtobe613 · April 2015

So glad you updated. I pray for you & your family often. I can't imagine what you're dealing with but I am glad you and your husband are getting help with grieving. My heart is always with you.

Kathjnr22 · April 2015

Thanks for the update... love seeing you pop up on threads every now and again. So glad to hear ye are doing ok and having such a positive attitude. I often think of you and ur dh.

toodaloo · April 2015

So glad you popped in to update us. I have seen you "love it" on some posts periodically and have wondered how you guys were doing. It's good to know you guys have professional support and we will continue to keep you in our prayers.

rolson8947 · April 2015

So happy to read your words. You are a strong woman and Cadence loves you very much, just as much as she would if she were here

my thoughts and prayers are with you and your husband. You will both be amazing parents (and already are to Cadence).

HMack4742 · April 2015

Thank you for the update!
I think of you often.
Lots of love and light your way as you travel this journey.

MixedCurlsXo · April 2015

I'm so glad to see an update from you. Take it one day at a time & I wish the very best for you & your family.

HoosOnFirst · April 2015

I'm so glad to hear from you and that you and DH are working through this together. You always have a home here!

Addelie · April 2015

I'm also happy to hear from you. You're missed on this board although it's nice to see that you're still here at times. I wish you all the best and am happy to hear that you are actively healing. xxx