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Hi everyone. I'm hoping you will allow me to lurk and post here from time to time. I have a 26 month old whom we love and adore. It took us 2 years to conceive her. I found out I was pregnant when she was 18 months old after only a few months of trying but sadly miscarried. We were told to abstain for two months because of an infection in DHs semen and then told that was a mistake and we could try again. As we started to try again DH was diagnosed with cancer. The one month we were able to try resulted in a bfn. We froze sperm however have just been told we would need IVF to get pregnant. Financially and mentally I'm not sure we can do IVF. I've also been told I have low AMH for my age. I'm 33. The RE suggested I try treatments right away. My husband is done with treatments and will have a scan in 3 months to confirm remission. I'm not sure where to go from here as I can't imagine my life without another child. Being an only child the one thing I wanted for my DD is a sibling. I'm feeling that the world doesn't think I deserve to be a mother again and that's why the sequence of events that happened last year did between the miscarriage, being told to wait, then told that was a mistake then my DHs cancer. I cry multiple times a week. I'm sorry ladies I'm just looking for support or advice. It's hard to look at my little girl at times because I break down thinking that I may never be able to give her the sibling I so want her to have. I'm looking forward to getting to know you all as I try to get through this part of life.