Scared

Guennie · April 2015

I just went to the bathroom and there was blood on my pad. It wasn't a lot and it was very light in color. There was nothing when I wiped. I don't know what to think but I'm scared.

Guennie · April 2015

I just used my second pregnancy test and it's negative. I'm completely in tears. I really wanted to believe in this one.

hooligans4 · April 2015

Oh Guennie, I will be praying for you.

dolphin012 · April 2015

Oh i am so sorry Guennie. Thinking of you.

kindershlitz · April 2015

@Guennie it's painful to read this. So many hugs to you.

jilligan14 · April 2015

Oh no!! Could the second test be wrong? I'm really hoping that everything is okay. Hugs!!

Guennie · April 2015

More bleeding now. I think it just didn't stick. I know my urine was diluted but by now I should still at least get a faint positive. There was NOTHING. I just can't believe it. I didn't even see it coming. This is so unfair.

emsmama15 · April 2015

Oh @Guennie. I'm so sorry. Praying the second test is wrong...

KirstenAlecia · April 2015

Im so sorry @Guennie. ((hugs))

FemShep · April 2015

I'm so so sorry. (Hugs)

FLY106 · April 2015

I'm so sorry @Guennie. I'm praying for u. Really sad to read this.

dukegirlsc · April 2015

@Guennie I'm so sorry, I'm saying prayers for you.

kindershlitz · April 2015

@Guennie Still thinking of you.

Guennie · April 2015

Thank you everyone. The bleeding is heavier today and my symptoms are gone. At least it happened early enough this time that I won't need surgery. I am heartbroken- again. I had so many positive signs this time and I thought everything was going to be ok. I really didn't see this coming.

We can't go through this again. Seven losses is enough. My h is going to get a vasectomy.

I somehow have to find a way to move on from the dream of having a sibling for our daughter. It isn't going to be easy, but I know that we are so lucky to have her since my body obviously just doesn't want to do this. I hope she won't grow up feeling lonely wishing she had a brother or sister. It just isn't going to happen.

I've enjoyed being on this board again among so many wonderful and supportive women. I hope all of you find your happy ending. I am going to take some time to lick my wounds. It would have been easier had I not gotten pregnant again. I don't understand why this had to happen if it was just going to end this way. It's no use asking why.

I will be back on the parenting 35 board where I truly hope to see each and every one of you someday. I'm sure I will lurk here and there to see how you are doing. Best of luck to everyone- all of my gratitude for your support.

emsmama15 · April 2015

@Guennie, I'm so sorry that your journey is ending this way. My prayers are with you as you heal from this.

hooligans4 · April 2015

My heart is breaking for you.
I can't imagine 7 losses.
I hope you find peace soon in your decision.
Your daughter will be fine, she has you and that's the most. important thing.

FemShep · April 2015

I'm so very sorry for your loss. Please don't worry about your daughter wishing for a sibling-as an only child, I was grateful for my wonderful parents and never felt like anything was lacking. I'm sure your daughter will feel the same.

You'll be on my thoughts.

jilligan14 · April 2015

I'm so sorry you are going through this. It's just so sad. I know how hard it must have been to make a decision to move on and to stop trying. But it sounds like it's the right thing for both of you. I know your daughter is so lucky to have such wonderful, loving, devoted parents and that's what matters most in life. Hugs!