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Feeling extra emotional and useless....

Chichi93Chichi93 member
in May 2015 Moms
Gah. Today I just feel so mad at the world and everyone in it... I'm bitter toward everything... I feel useless... like no one cares... I sit at home all day and no one calls... no one texts... no one talks to me... I reach out to "friends" and rarely get a reply... so I've been a pain all dang day today because I just feel so sad and depressed... ever since the baby's dad left me... I just hate everything and wonder why this had to happen to me.. we were together 3 years... he was my high school crush. I had a major thing for him since I was in the 7th grade... and now we don't talk and it's like I'm a stranger... I just want to bawl my eyes out constantly... :"C I've had terrible suicidal thoughts (obviously I'd never do anything to risk my baby) but I've had to be on antidepressants before and I can't be on them right now due to the baby... I'm so thankful for him because if he weren't here idk what I'd do... I just don't want to think of him being with someone else....... :"C it kills me...... sorry for such a depressing post everyone
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  • MrsWhiteToBeMrsWhiteToBe member
    I'm so sorry you're going through all this. But your not useless- your gonna be somebody's mommy soon! Call your doctor because there are things you can take while you're pregnant and if you're feeling that low then it would be better for you to be on them. Please hang in there.
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  • SunshinE870SunshinE870 member
    Hang in there! Things do get better! The best thing you can do for yourself and your baby is tell someone how you're feeling and get help. It's okay not to be okay! The sun will come out again
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  • Chichi93Chichi93 member
    Thanks ladies.. yea I think I should invest in seeing a therapist because it just keeps getting worse and worse. I have to fake happiness every day.. it breaks my heart every time i see my ob because hes alwaus gushing about how fun and happy and glowy i am... when im really the complete opposite...

    i'm terrified of postpartum and the depression that comes with that... but don't get me wrong, I'm excited and ready to be a mommy and to have my boy..
    I just never imagined being alone...
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  • MAranda2427MAranda2427 member
    Know that you are not alone, things shall be tough but you are a strong person, and soon you will be able to pass that along to your LO.
    This is my second, however with my first I was in the same situation and unfortunately I did go through PPD. The first couple of months were very hard, but it's not breaking down to ask for help (from your OB or family).
    This time around I asked early on, and have a few game plans set up after LO is born. Maybe you too can do the same!
    Stay strong and know that there is help, even if it's on an Internet board.
    This too shall pass. And you will be one heck of a mommy!
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  • Chichi93Chichi93 member
    @MAranda2427 thank you so much for your comment! I feel a little better now. Its just hard when I feel like I've got no one. But I know when my boy is here I'll be overwhelmed with love ♡
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  • MAranda2427MAranda2427 member
    @chichi93 Not a problem! Sometimes all we need to know is that we are not alone.
    If you have any questions don't be afraid to ask.
    As I said before I was BAD with my first. She would not have survived if my mother was not around. I was a severe case, and luckily for my mother and the motivation of others, I have a wonderful 5 y/o awaiting a LS.
    It's tough, but creating and carrying a little life changes people, and when he gets here, you're going to hold onto him look in those little eyes and realize that all the love you're ever going to need is wrapped up in that little blanket!
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  • saric83saric83 member
    I would also start trying to find some mommy group-like things for you to start participating in as soon as that little fella arrives to give you a bit more support and chance to spend time with other people who will understand some of what you're going through!  I'm not sure what area you're in, but maybe check with your hospital, anywhere that offers prenatal classes (since they probably have post-natal classes/event too), local community education classes (mine has quite a few parent groups), Meetups and your local group here on TB.  

    Good luck!! 
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  • Sunshine4020Sunshine4020 member
    Be strong and stick with it!  Soon your little one will be here and eventually down the road you will see why this all happened like it did and for what reason.  There is always a good reason, I promise!  Better days are ahead!  :) 
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  • Knottie54288128Knottie54288128 member
    I'm sorry you're going through this. It's rough when the baby's dad is a jerk. My ex-husband was never around when I was pregnant with my first, and was constantly cheating on me. It was an awful time, but, leaving him was one of the best things I've ever done. Gang in th err, talk to a therapist, and you've always got this forum at least to talk to us on. :)
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