This is gonna be a long rant. My apologies. I know being pregnant Im not supposed to stress and im supposed to stay calm and relax and enjoy it. But I am seriously just so flippin terrified its unreal haha. Which I guess is normal too, i don't see many ladies addmitting to being scared either.
Before anyone asks questions ill give a background because I know theirs some here who assume ladies like me are young or wasnt ready.
Im 23, i was with my now husband for 7 years and we got married this past August. He runs a business and i stay at home and hold down the fort.
I was on depo for 5 yrs and quit taking it about 2 yrs ago because i was aware it could possibly take some women up to that long to completely vacate the system. Of course I was that girl who wanted kids so bad in the future, destined to be a mom, waited and waited (still knowing it can take time but impatient as hell). I was like ehh im probably one of those who wont be able to have kids like some in my family. And i kind of shrugged the possibility off. And now here we are finally pregnant! Im im shock still. I am also happy beyond belief and excited! But man I'm scared. Im scared of it all. The body changes, the symptoms, the giving birth, the bringing home a newborn, the knowing I have to get up and down through the night to care for this beautiful blessing we created, the years n years ahead of knowing no matter what im going to always worry about my child and worry about his or her well-being.
This is normal right? I mean, to be super happy and excited all the same time terrified im gonna miscarry because its still so early and im so very attached already. My mind is constantly racing and i feel like someone just needs to shake me and tell me im going to be just fine. Even though no matter how much i hear "you're going to do great, you'll be a wonderful mom" it doesn't seem to help unfortunately haha