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May 2015 Moms
cpage2211
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**Monday Bitchfest**
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my mother has dropped the ball several times on my baby shower planning and I've had to gently remind (she sent out the invites 2 1/2 weeks beforehand) and move her forward with plans. It's not how I imagined it would be (I had to cut my list way down due to her not reserving a space and it will now be in her apartment) and I know I should just be thankful but when I get an rsvp and let her know she proceeds to tell me "you aren't supposed to be this involved you know. You shouldn't know who's coming or what your getting" (I've been checking my registry-shoot me). Well then maybe you should have planned better so I didn't have to be so fucking involved.
Again, I know I should just be thankful I'm even having a shower, but the lack of planning and my ocd has me reeling!
How about you!? Let it loose
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Again, I know I should just be thankful I'm even having a shower, but the lack of planning and my ocd has me reeling!
How about you!? Let it loose
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Re: **Monday Bitchfest**
Also, my winter coat no longer fits/zips up and this winter just won't give the eff up. It snowed this weekend and the high here today is 22 and with windchill it's currently feeling like 7 I feel like spring weather will never come!!
I'm a teacher and I have one week until Spring Break and my high school students are driving me crazy. If I hear one more time that their parents are pulling them out a day early to leave for some vacation, I may scream!!! This is high school! We don't have parties on the last day before a break. We have tests! You already get a week plus a day. Don't take more!!!!!!
(This is also a lesson for future parents that may want to do this in the future to save money.)
Our spring break starts today and I had at least 10 students start spring break TWO days early. Take your quiz before you leave or get a zero.
Thank god for the iPad and kids being able to submit homework remotely, but, REALLY?
My bitch: after 70 degree temps in Chicago I woke up to 4 inches of snow. Wtf. Took me 45 min to get to my doc apt that is normally 10 min away.
I'm in Chicago too! Luckily we start school so early that the roads where I was at weren't that bad.
And I was the mean teacher who said you have to take your quiz when we get back.
I actually get the opposite. "You look so small!" Because that's not nerve-wracking to hear when you're trying to grow a healthy baby and you started out underweight. I agree with the other part you mentioned though. Just tell us we look great or don't say anything at all! lol
Rant over.. for now
Then she will be all "Do I have to call the doctors to get an appointment?" I'm like "Yes grandma we've went over this before." She goes "Oh well I must be too old to remember this stuff, I'm so stupid." Yet, she passed her memory test last year with flying colors? Yeah seems a little planned to me. So now when we ignore her comments, she will keep it going and going until someone says something. And its not only dh and I, it's everyone! She will play with candle flames (until MIL has to say something) then when MIL turns back around, She's doing it again! Seriously?! I hope she knows that once our daughter is here, there will be a lock on our door, and she can fend for herself because she is completely capable!
I'm tired of sticking my finger to check sugars. I do it though, to live for starters... but now even more frequently so I can have the healthiest pregnancy my baby and I can possibly have. And being type 1 I have to check a LOT. Not only is the pricking annoying but then there's the issue of blood strips!! I need to test at LEAST 10 times a day minimum being pregnant if I want optimal control. 10 times a day MINIMUM!!! and rarely is that even enough. But does insurance cover that many strips? Of course not! This further brings me back to the point of it not all only being a physical and mental and emotional toll, but a financial one too. Dealing with doctors and medications and pharmacies and prescriptions and having every damn thing written and figured out to perfection is hardly easy!! Prescriptions are always wrote wrong, insurance puts a limit on what they cover, the pharmacy can only fill so much at a time because of so, doctor visits never end, the bills never end... I'm just so beat!!!!!
Then there's the injections. What can I say, I've had no other option in order to live than to get used to them. But seriously do they grow old and seriously is it ever good enough!!! I go to bed with a good sugar, only to wake up 3 hours later to check and see it spiked for no reason. So I have to do another damn shot to correct it. Like that doesn't wake me up and make it difficult to go back to sleep...
I'm tired of feeling like the worst person alive when I have a bad number. I'm tired of the only diabetic support threads that are ever active, being for gestational diabetes. I get gestational diabetes is a struggle and scary for the woman that get it but I just want to cry and scream when they stress over their so called "bad" readings. Rarely is gestational ever a huge life threatening problem. Type 1 is so much more difficult. It just is. FACTLY. and guess what. It doesn't go away!! Never. Never frickin ever until one day when it just kills me. It won't go away after the baby is born, it doesn't go away on vacations, holidays, weekends, celebrations... I never EVER get a damn break from it!!!
I think today I reached a point where I'm just so beat, if it weren't for my baby I would just go into a huge depression over it. I struggled with it being 200 for HOURS and nothing I did brought it down. Finally after a full day of awful high glucose it goes down, only to crash to 50. That feels great... not. I didn't even get to eat dinner today because I would prefer to fix my sugar when it is this bad, rather than add to it. And now it's too late in the evening for me to eat anything at all that won't spike my overnight levels. I don't eat meat, I don't want eggs... pickles aren't filling. I'm sick of cheese. There is literally no no-carb options for this pregnant diabetic vegetarian to eat right now, so here I sit hungry. Why? Because diabetes.
I also hate how mad and bitter I am right now, because of all this. I don't want to be that bitchy angry pregnant lady but good grief... I'm only human and boy does the stress add up!!
I want to enjoy this pregnancy and not have such a rational fear of losing my baby. I want a normal pregnancy. If nothing else in my life can be normal from diabetes, I'd at the very least for my innocent little baby to be unaffected. All I can do is try. Struggle with the daily bs. Do the best I can. And pray.
Feels good to vent I guess.
On to my least fav SIL- she will be nice to my face and act all sweet to me when i'm around her, then tell my other SIL-the one who lived at the farm with my FIL, that i'm a bitch and she hates me for god knows what. She didn't come to my baby shower b/c she hates me, and all this BS because she was my FB friend and she would write bitchy stuff on my statuses for others to see, so I blocked her ass, and just can't get over it, eve after I unblocked her and added her back as my friend, but restricted her from seeing my statuses. I try to act civil but there's a point where civility needs to be returned.
That feels much better to get all this off my chest in a place where none of DH's family can see it and comment how I just need to get along-when i have been trying to get along with an unreasonable man since my DH and I got engaged 2 years ago.
OK, rant and venting over.
*Lovebugs2012*