Hi all. I new to the boards. I really needed to vent and possibly get some advice.
About 10 days ago I did the blood work for the quad screen, which I'm sure most of you know (and may have been through) is the screening to test for the likelihood of spina bifida and downs syndrome. A few days after that I got a call back that my test came back positive. I started crying my eyes out at work. After a long tearful phone call to my husband, I started making the phone calls to get additional testing. We are going tomorrow for a consult visit and sonogram. It's been 5 very long days of worrying. Whenever people start to ask how I'm doing (with the pregnancy) I want to snap. Several times I've just started crying and ranting at my poor husband because the stress got to me. We were supposed to go last Saturday to have the anatomy ultrasound and find out the baby's gender. We weer going to have a date night afterwards. I have been looking forward to it for weeks. But that got cancelled, and all moved to the appointment with the genetic counselor. Something that should have been really happy has just turned into something dreadful.
I know a lot of people have come up positive and had nothing wrong with their babies. I'm trying not to worry, but how can I not? The thought of something catastrophic being wrong that I would have to terminate makes me want to break down all over again. I've felt the little wiggle worm moving around for weeks now. I don't want to destroy it. And if it's somewhere in between, then what? I've asked myself that over and over. I don't know. The emotional part of me says keep it no matter what and the logical part of me says that bringing a child into the world that is disabled is just hard on parent and child. And as a person who always internalizes problems, I feel like this is all my fault. Even though he has done everything to support me, I feel like I've let my husband down. Things reproduce all the time. There isn't any skill to it. It just happens. And somehow I've screwed that up.
What really makes really angry though is my OB/GYN's lack of communication. I barely got any explanation from them. They hardly explained that this was a screening and not an actual test. The few questions I got out before I started bawling they couldn't answer. I asked if the test came up positive for spina bifida or downs and the secretary couldn't answer. The answer I got was 'you remember that test you took a few days ago?' Yeah, how could I forget them drawing blood for a test! The test was for multiple things. Which one came back positive? No answer. They didn't give me the odds (1:whatever, as most people I've seen online have gotten) or tell my what added to my risk factor (like id it because I'm in my 30's or what). The girl told me 'you may just be in a high risk group.' Which to me, implied that the test could have been diagnostic, not just a risk screening. When you are on the verge of crying, you don't think to ask these questions. Most of the information I've gotten has been from the internet and other people who have gone through this. I don't really understand how a test that only has a 5% false positive rate has so many people that have had 'false positives' and healthy babies.
Anyway, sorry for the long post, but I needed to get it out. If anyone would like to share stories, I'd appreciate it.
Re: Positive Quad Screening
2nd round exp 8/20/18.
I think positive is really bad wording for this sort of test since it isn't telling you definitively if you have something or not. Even the most logical people will freak out when they hear a doctor say a test came back positive. I think high or low risk is better wording for a test that is supposed to give you odds, not a yes or no answer. People who work with the public more are at higher risk to catch the flu, but they aren't referred to as 'positive'. They are at higher risk. I'm not arguing the accuracy of assessing that there is a risk, but labeling something using a word commonly thought of as black or white when the actual situation is grey is misleading.
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