TTC after 35

Femara blues/rant

Hi ladies... I'm feeling super blue tonight. I don't know if it's the Femara or what. I'm on day 4 of taking it. I am just feeling like I'm completely consumed by this endeavor. I'm not working right now (I've got a couple of job interviews lined up) so I have way too much time on my hands.  I just read and read and read. Tonight I was on another over 35 forum and there's all these posts "37 and TTC #5", "38 and TTC #7" and I just want to scream. I know to each her own but I'm 37 and I'd be fine with just one. I just want to this to be done with and I can't imagine if it takes years. I just don't think I can mentally handle it.  Sorry for being a Debbie Downer.  Sigh.

image
Me: 37
DH: 35
Married: 9/26/2011
Hormones: All normal except AMH: Sept 2014 .022, Jan 2015 .05

image
My Ovulation Chart
 

My Babies 
image

Re: Femara blues/rant

  • I'm sorry you're having a rough night. Others have said Femera and Clomid cause mood swings for them so it may be the drugs, but regardless you're down and that sucks. Don't listen to the static. What others have done or are doing has no bearing on your jouney so tune it out. I know the feeling of "I'd be happy just to have one," too. (((Hugs)))
    TTCAL January Siggy Challenge: Animals in the Snow

    image

      
    About Me: 

    AMA 35 :  DH 33
    BFP#1 1/26/14 (EDD: 10/7/14).  MMC 3/10/14 D&C 3/14/14
    RE Consult 11/3/14 - AMH 2.25 "great" . FSH 7.10 . Low Vitamin D
    Myomectomy 12/17/14.  Benched until March.

    image

    My Ovulation Chart
  • Loading the player...
  • I'm sorry you're having a bad day *hug*

    It's hard when you're at home and have so much time to think.

    Is there something else you can do? Read a book that's not TTC related?
    I am not sure how to say this without getting a "solicitation" warning so I guess I just say that I am not longer active on THIS site. 



  • I'm sorry you're feeling down. I'm with you in the "if be so happy with just one" camp, too. Here's a hug...
    36, DH 31 TTC #1 since we got married, July 2014. http://FertilityFriend.com/home/522fa4/
  • I know you're about to start a new job, but is there any way you and DH can plan a trip somewhere?  Or redo a room in your house?  I find those two things consume me and I can step away from myself.  It sucks to feel down.  I'm glad you can turn to us!!  I hope your day get's better and these interviews go well!
    **child mentioned**
    Me(38)PCOS/Hypothyroid   DH(43)Low T/ED
    MMC at 10 weeks 03/2011 DD born 01/2012   TTC #2 since 04/2014
    BFP 8/26/2016


  • I have some things to pass the time like I do a lot of baking and cooking but DH wants me to cool it with that because he's putting on some weight. :P I also do some crocheting and various crafts. I don't know, must be the meds because I'm just really feeling sad about not trying sooner.  I know rationally that I was not in the place to have had a child even 3 years ago but still. Tomorrow will be better. 
    Me: 37
    DH: 35
    Married: 9/26/2011
    Hormones: All normal except AMH: Sept 2014 .022, Jan 2015 .05

    image
    My Ovulation Chart
     

    My Babies 
    image
  • I'm so sorry you are having a bad night. I think the meds cause some major mood swings and too much time in your own head is never a good thing. I know that for certain! I hope tomorrow is a better day and that there will be some non TTC distractions!
    **Losses Mentioned**
    Me 41, DH 38 
    TTC #1 since 9/2014 AMH 3.68, FSH 6.6
    IUI#1 12-02-2015 Letrozol, Gonal-F, Pregnyl, Acupuncture, BFP 12-17-2015 beta 1=72, beta 2=64, beta 3=10 MC 12-20-14 
    IUI#2 01-08-2015 Letrozol, Gonal-F, Pregnyl, Acupuncture, BFP 01-23-2015 beta 1=151, beta 2=450, beta 3=6524, beta 4= 29380 u/s at 7w5d baby with heartbeat measuring 6w2d. u/s 2-24 gestational sac only, beta 59400 MC 2-24-15 @ 8w6d D&C 2-27-15. Pathology results 47XX +20

    Diagnosis AMA and compound heterozygous MTHFR
  • I'm sorry your feeling down. I feel the same way I'm also 37 and took Femera for the first time this month. I agree with your feeling of being happy with one child. I think ttc with no children past 35 feels a little different then if you already have children. Sometimes I feel almost desperate like there won't be enough time to complete this journey.
  • Thanks for the feedback ladies. I am feeling better today, although I'm super tired, at least I'm not in a crappy mood too. I had acupuncture today so that felt good.  Glad I can come here and spew once in awhile.
    Me: 37
    DH: 35
    Married: 9/26/2011
    Hormones: All normal except AMH: Sept 2014 .022, Jan 2015 .05

    image
    My Ovulation Chart
     

    My Babies 
    image
  • Glad you're feeling a bit better! :) 
    I am not sure how to say this without getting a "solicitation" warning so I guess I just say that I am not longer active on THIS site. 



  • I know how you feel - someone who is TTC #5 or #7 clearly is not in the same boat as someone TTC #1. The best advice I can give you is the advice my husband gives me - stay off the internet as much as possible. When it first became apparent that we were indeed having trouble TTC, I spent hours on the internet googling everything I could think of. Now I stick to this board and one other that keeps the crazies to a minimum!
    Me: 37  DH:39
    TTC #1 Since May 2014
  • I just finished taking Femera for the first time (cycle I mean). It has very much made me touchy and down. I feel very unlike myself right now. After TTC just over a year I have noticed a change in my personality. I don't like it but I don't know how to change it. It can be totally consuming.
This discussion has been closed.
Choose Another Board
Search Boards
"
"