May 2015 Moms
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Personal Rant
jennilarkspur
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It almost 2 in the morning, and I'm awake because I had to spend some time vomiting. I couldn't find my "Back-Up Rolaids" and nearly got in the car in my pajamas to drive to the store. I'm constantly starving, and take lots of nausea medication. So in spite of the nausea and vomiting, I still keep more down than I regurgitate, and I have put on almost 50 pounds. Nerve pain and muscle spasms have left me screaming in agony, and I ended up staying overnight in the hospital for the first time, accepting my first doses of pain medication in my 27 years of life... also exposing my unborn son to his first doses.. My job requires speed, and I can't seem to keep up to 1/4 my old pace these days. I find myself crying anytime I'm left alone. I'm starting to wish I'd never gotten pregnant. THEN, Kadence kicks. Thank God he does that. :-) I love this boy! But, holy cow, I find myself fantasizing about this pregnancy being over sooner than later. (In my fantasies, my son is healthy of course.)
I'm sure these are things your just supposed to suck up, and not say. But, yes, I am miserable, and ready to be done! Am I alone here?
I'm sure these are things your just supposed to suck up, and not say. But, yes, I am miserable, and ready to be done! Am I alone here?
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Re: Personal Rant
I'm just trying to look forward to May and enjoy as much of this as I can.
I understand your pain, I'm a part-time grad student that works full-time. I'm so behind with school since anytime I sit down for a night and write a paper, my sciatica gets so bad that I can barely walk at work for about three days. I'm exhausted all the time. I'm sob about this sometimes. I'm barely holding on by a thread. I also am trying to put it all in perspective. It's a lot.
About the pain meds, cut yourself some slack. Small doses are not going to hurt the baby at this point in your pregnancy. I have to take vicodin to deal with the kidney stone pain (I had this with both my other pregnancies and took it the last 20 weeks of each pregnancy). The risk of using a narcotic pain medication near delivery is that it can cause withdrawal in the infant and respiratory depression at birth. Neither of my children had withdrawal issues although both did have some respiratory issues at birth. And I was taking a pretty high dose. So please, know that taking a couple of doses of pain meds at this point is perfectly okay and nothing to worry about.
I'm not going to tell you to try to enjoy the last half of the pregnancy ... just try to make it through. Take each day as it comes. Be gentle with yourself. Are you having a scheduled induction/c-section? I find that knowing I only have to make it to April 29 (when my c-section is) helps. In the mean time, enjoy your little boy kicking. As much as I hate pregnancy, it's the one thing I absolutely missed when I wasn't pregnant - it's such a cool feeling! Take care!
BFP 4/8/14, MMC 5/5/14, D&C 5/9/14
BFP 8/26/14 Due date 5/8/15
This is why this community is so great, you're surrounded by women who understand.
IT'S A BOY!
C.G.M.
Due 5/25/2015
Likely to arrive via induction or c-sec 1-2 weeks early
Sorry things have been so rough. Hard to believe this but soon this will all be a distant memory.
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Right there with you.
If you ever need to just sound ridiculous and "cry" internet style or even just send me a bunch of curse words bc you're not feeling well you an send me a private message and I'll listen to ya!
X_X
Randomly saw the name comments - maybe go with Cade or Caden? I know it's your choice but I worry he will have a rough time growing up with a feminine name like Kadence.
Our rescued fur babies, Harley and Maya
BFP 1/23/14, EDD 10/1/14, M/C 2/13/14 - Forever loved