anniversary of loss today

jessicamaister · January 2015

Today is the 6 year anniversary my 21 week pregnancy with my baby girl Juliet coming to an end. This is the milestone I've been waiting to get past and I am not going to spend today in the fetal position crying though I give myself permission to every year. I am so grateful to be healthy today and that my high risk doc was comforting at our ultra sound on Thursday. It feels good to have a healthy little boy in me and a purse full of his ultra sound pics for reassurance. I started to feel guilty and cry the other day for how happy I am and said to my husband in afraid I'll forget her or leave her behind. Has anyone else felt like this? Dh said something along the lines of its time to heal and no longer have so much of my life taken up by grief. I thought that was a little extreme and hadn't realized how much he perceived my pain.

BackstreetPixie · January 2015

::hugs:: I'm sorry Your H doesn't understand. I know what you mean I sometimes feel like I'll forget the baby I lost and feel guilty about being happy for this one. If it helps at all, my mom's first baby was stillborn. She has never forgot her. She feels guilty when she doesn't think of her on her birthday (Like this year my friend hosted a baby shower for me that day and mom didn't think of it till the next day) But she never forgets. I don't think you can every really forget. ::Hugs::

dawnstar898 · January 2015

so many (((hugs)))

girlymama79 · January 2015

((Hugs)) days like those are hard.

jjbmstinco · January 2015

((Hugs))

asglover514 · January 2015

Lots of *hugs*

jessicamaister · January 2015

Thanks for your support

stephy1221 · January 2015

I am so sorry, anniversary days are so rough. You won't forget her. Hugs.

mpiemont · January 2015

Hugs for you

sandj918 · January 2015

I'm so sorry

It doesn't matter how much time passes, you'll always remember (and mourn) her loss.

jessicamaister · February 2015

Thank you for the love

keilani28 · February 2015

My husband and I have two angel babies from pregnancies we lost at 14 weeks (2/13/12) and 9 weeks (8/2/13). I didn't want to forget them either. I was so devastated. After our first loss, I felt like I needed to do something to help me heal and to help me always remember the baby we never got to hold. So my husband and I went to the local garden shop and picked out a beautiful blue pot and planted a fuchsia tree in it on the day that our baby was suppose to be born. I found a porcelain angel that fit right at the base of the tree. We put it right at the entrance of our front door. And just seeing it bloom there was comforting to me. We planted an azalea bush in another blue pot (I picked blue, because it has this feeling of heaven) on the day our second angel baby was suppose to be born. We placed it on the other side of the entrance of our front door. Some days when I come home I am rushed and don't really take time to look at them as I enter, but many days (especially days the flowers are at their fullest bloom) I look at them and remember and somehow am comforted in seeing the life in the bright green leaves and a blossoms. I know it might be corny but, it gave me peace. The plants are something tangible for me...to touch, to see and to remember.

*hugs* to you

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anniversary of loss today

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My baby lives in my heart. Juliette Marie 1/17/2008 - forever

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Me (28) DH (34) actively TTC since 2010

My baby lives in my heart. Juliette Marie 1/17/2008 - forever

Me (28) DH (34) actively TTC since 2010

My baby lives in my heart. Juliette Marie 1/17/2008 - forever

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