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Broken and alone

firefly143firefly143 member
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I know everything is choas around here but I need some hugs and T&P. Today is the 2 year anniversary of my Dad's death. I was his first born and his pride and joy. I have 3 younger siblings, twin girls age15 and a little brother age 10, they could use some T&P too. I feel like shit because I had to call my mom for my dads medical history today, sitting at an appointment filing out paperwork I completely blanked. MH has been on a business trip all week and won't be home till late tonight. There is one wonderful thing that happened today, my MIL sent me flowers to make me feel better! I just feel so alone today since I live 1400 miles from any family.

Pics of my flowers below!

Me:21 Hubs:23

Married 5/19/12

BFP#1: 6/6/12 EDD: 2/8/13 DS: 2/11/13

BFP#2: 8/18/14  EDD: 4/25/15 MC: 5wks 5days

Holding out hope our firefly will light up our world again!

 

 

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    RachaeleighRachaeleigh member
    So many ((((hugs)))) for you

    4 Losses (2003, 2008, Apr 2012, & Oct 2012)
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    firefly143firefly143 member
    Thank you ladies! I feel bad even reaching out to y'all.

    Me:21 Hubs:23

    Married 5/19/12

    BFP#1: 6/6/12 EDD: 2/8/13 DS: 2/11/13

    BFP#2: 8/18/14  EDD: 4/25/15 MC: 5wks 5days

    Holding out hope our firefly will light up our world again!

     

     

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    MellyMel15MellyMel15 member
    I'm sorry today is a hard day. Thinking of you and sending hugs.
    * Me: 31, DH: 33 * Married 10.16.10 * Parents of our furbaby Sophie *
    BFP: 8.28.14 | EDD 5.6.15 | MMC Discovered 9.25.14 (8 weeks)| D&C 9.30.14

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    "Everybody here has got a story to tell. Everybody's been through their own hell. There's nothing too special about getting hurt, but getting over it that takes the work. Because one way or another, we all need each other. Nothing's going to turn out the way you thought it would. Friends and lovers, don't you duck and cover because everything comes out the way it should in the end." -Glen Phillips, "Duck and Cover" 


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    MenrandesMenrandes member
    Huge **hugs** for you. 
    We met in middle school. We got married 15 years later in a February blizzard of 2010. 
    TTC since February 2010
    Diagnosed with Lyme Disease June 2010 Diagnosed with PCOS March 2011 Diagnosed with Celiac Disease January 2013
    BFP #1: August 25th 2013 EDD May 4th 2014 SCH MC October 3rd 2013
    BFP #2: February 14th 2014 EDD October 25th 2014 CP February 17th 2014
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    renegadewhitrenegadewhit member
    Big squishy ((hugs)) I'm sorry for your loss. Anniversaries of loss are hard. Im sending T&Ps your way.
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    I'll be at a new place providing support. 


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    stephy1221stephy1221 member
    Big Hugs : (
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    lcwedlcwed member
    I am so sorry.  So many hugs from me to you.
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    DD 3/29/12
                      BFP 6/4/14 ~ MMC 7/7/14 ~ D&C 7/15/14            
    BFP 11/28/14 ~ MMC  12/29/14    

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    CC1017CC1017 member
    Big ((hugs)) that was really sweet of your mil to send you flowers
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    BFP #1 DS born 10/16/12 at 39w6d
    BFP #2 DD lost 11/17/14 at 17w2d
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    rubysirubysi member
    I am so sorry. So many hugs.

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    O2girlO2girl member
    So many hugs!!! Like you, I was my father's firstborn and pride and joy.....I lost my dad several years ago and it is super rough! So I understand how you must be feeling Just so may ((((((hugs)))))) and T&Ps for you and your siblings!
    Me: 38
    DX:  Adenomyosis, Compounded MTHFR, PAI-1 4G variant

    DH: 34
    MFI due to Testicular Cancer

    Married March 2012 <3
    IVF w/ICSI #1
    10 little polar bears
    FET #1 with 2 polar bears ~Nov 6, 2013 BFN :(
    FET # 2 with 2 more polar bears ~March 19, 2014 BFP!!!
    Beta 1= 276
    Beta 2= 662
    4/19/14 ~ baby A became an angel
    5/02/14 ~ baby B became an angel
    5/3/14 ~ D&C
    FET #3 with 1 male polar bear ~October 3, 2014
    October 13, 2014 ~ BFN
    Fur Children:  Memphis 3y, Dutch 3y, Marcel 2y, Meadow 1y



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    Nikolie93Nikolie93 member
    @firefly143‌ so many *hugs* to you and your family.

    And please don't feel bad for reaching out, we are still here for you when you need us!
    I am not sure how to say this without getting a "solicitation" warning so I guess I just say that I am not longer active on THIS site. 



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    vmatt850vmatt850 member
    So many ((HUGS)) and positive thoughts. I'm 900 miles away from the majority of my family, so I get that most times a phone call doesn't make us feel better.
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    aswedishbeeaswedishbee member
    Keeping you and your family in my thoughts and prayers... And sending lots of { h u g s }

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    rslh10rslh10 member
    Many hugs.
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    Elliecat17Elliecat17 member
    ((hugs))
    Me: 24 
    DH: 25
    BFP: 1/12/14       EDD: 9/18/14     MC: 1/15/14
    BFP: 5/6/14         EDD: 1/5/15       MC: 5/10/14
    BFP: 12/29/14      EDD: 9/12/15      MC: 1/5/15
    Dx: PCOS - 8/20/14, Hashimoto's - 10/10/14, Gluten Allergy 10/10/14


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    rmpar29rmpar29 member
    Oh honey, I'm so sorry that you are all alone today. I know how hard losing a parent is. I hope that you make it through the day ok and that you got to talk to your family. Please know that you're in my T&Ps. 
    TTC #3 since 8/2012 image
    DX Endometriosis 2/2002 (lost left tube due to a cyst), PCOS     6/2010
     BFP - 10/18/2012, EDD - 6/26/2013, Baby Girl lost at 22 weeks (T21), D&E 2/15/2013
    BFP - 4/23/2014, EDD - 1/2/2015 Twin Boys lost at 12 weeks, M/C 6/25/2014
    My chart here  All ALers welcome!
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    FrenchteachermamaFrenchteachermama member
    Sending you all my love and thoughts and prayers



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    TTC #3 since June 2013
    BFP #1 7/21/2013--EDD 3/30/14--D&C 9/24/13
    BFP #2 1/28/14--MC 2/7/14
    IUI #1 5mg Femara + trigger = BFN
    IUI #2 5mg Femara + trigger = BFN
    IUI #3 5mg Femara + trigger = BFN
    IVF #1, Stimmed for 12 days, ER 8/22/14, 9 retrieved, 7M, 7F!!  Freeze all due to fluid in uterus.
    FET end of October 2014 cancelled due to fluid in uterus due to possible c-scar defect
    Surgery scheduled 12/12/14 to fix possible isthmocele
    3/26/15 transferred one 8 cell grade 4 embryo and one 6 cell grade 3 embryo = slow rising betas for 2+ weeks = ectopic MTX shot 4/29/15
    Repeat c-scar surgery June 2015
    2nd and last IVF cycle August 2015, stimmed for 12 days, 2 egg retrieved, both mature and both fertilized.  Transferred both 8-cell embryos on Day 3, beta 9/5/15 = BFFN
    MOVING TO ADOPTION!  


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    Littleowl913Littleowl913 member
    ((Hugs)) T&Ps for you and your siblings
    TTC since August 2013 BFP #1 1/15/14...MMC 2/24/14...D&C 3/3/14 BFP #2 5/11/14 ... severe pre-e placental abruption our angel born sleeping at 22 weeks Lilypie Angel and Memorial tickers
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    MrsPhD83MrsPhD83 member
    Sending so many hugs to you and your family.
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    Me: 31, DH: 30, Married July 2013
    TTC since March 2014
    BFP#1  5.17.14, EDD 1.26.15, MMC (measuring 6w3d at 8w3d), D&C 6.26.14
    BFP#2  9.19.14, EDD 5.29.15, AF on 9.23.14 CP
    BFP#3  12.17.14, EDD 8.25.15, AF on 12.21.14 CP#2

    Current plan: TTC while waiting for RPL results to come back
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    firefly143firefly143 member
    Thank you so much ladies! MH is home and rubbing my shoulders while I catch him up on my week.

    Me:21 Hubs:23

    Married 5/19/12

    BFP#1: 6/6/12 EDD: 2/8/13 DS: 2/11/13

    BFP#2: 8/18/14  EDD: 4/25/15 MC: 5wks 5days

    Holding out hope our firefly will light up our world again!

     

     

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    bumpuser10605721bumpuser10605721 member
    Hugely huge big bear hugs to you!
    Me: 29 DH: 30
    DS born 12/29/12 @ 41+1 
    TTC#2 07/2014
    BFP 10/14/14 MC 11/14/14 D&C for RT 11/18/2014 
    Given all clear 12/15/2014 - back to TTC



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    Nikolie93Nikolie93 member
    Glad he's home.. And a shoulder rubbing is always good :)
    I am not sure how to say this without getting a "solicitation" warning so I guess I just say that I am not longer active on THIS site. 



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    MSU_Girl1202MSU_Girl1202 member
    I'm so sorry lady. Sending tons of ((hugs))
    Married 07/2006, TTC since 2010
    08/2011: Clomid 50mg, IUI --> BFN  ,
    10/2011: Clomid 100mg, IUI --> BFN
    04/13: Clomid, IUI BFP --> MC at 6w1d
    05/13: Femara 2.5mg, IUI --> BFN  , 08/13: Femara 2.5mg --> BFN
    03/14: Femara 5mg, IUI --> 1 follicle @ 27d --> BFP! EDD 12/02/14--> blighted ovum, missed MC 6w6d --> D&C
    4/23: D&C...starting over again, with a little part of my heart broken off
    5/31: Femara 7.5mg --> cancelled cycle, no follies
    7/14: Femara 5mg + brevelle + menopur + IUI --> converted to IVF, ER 7/28 --> ET cancelled due to severe OHSS.
    9/20/14:  Frozen Embryo Transfer --> BFP--> EDD 6/6/15 --> MC at 5w3d      
    10/16/14: Frozen Embryo Transfer --> BFN
    2/6/15: Frozen Embryo Transfer --> BFP --> MC at 5w4d
    3/20/16: PGS-tested Frozen Embryo Transfer --> BFP, Living Child born 12/1/15
    6/6/17: Fresh IVF Cycle --> Severe OHSS, 5 PGS-tested embryos frozen
    2/23/18: PGS-tested FET --> BFN
    3/30/18: Cancelled cycle due to lining 4.2mm
    6/21/18: PGS-tested FET --> BFN
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    ellebelle2384ellebelle2384 member
    Big huge ((hugs))
    Me: 31     DH: 33
    Dx: Me: Recurrent Pregnancy Loss; DH: Low Morphology (2%)
    BFP#1: MC 3/1/11 at 6w1d - EDD 10/21/11
    BFP#2: 5/3/11 - EDD 1/9/12 - DD Born 1/6/12
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    TTC #2 since 12/13
    BFP#3: MC 2/8/14 at 4w5d - EDD 10/13/14
    BFP#4: MC 5/6/14 at 4w4d - EDD 1/9/15
    BFP#5: MMC discovered 8/4/14 at 9w1d - D&C 8/5/14 - Baby Boy with Trisomy 16 (maternal origin) - EDD 3/8/15
    BFP#6: CP 11/6/14 at 4w2d - EDD 7/14/15
    IVF #1 with ICSI & PGS: May/June 2015, ER 6/3/15, 17R/17M/15F
    IVF #2 with ICSI & PGS: July 2015, ER 7/16/15, 16R/11M/9F
    PGS results = 6 normal embryos (4 boys, 2 girls)
    FET 9/23/15 = BFFN
    Natural FET 11/4/15 = BFP!
    Beta 9dp5dt = 92

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    LittleMrsWLittleMrsW member
    Huge ((hugs)). Keeping you and your family in my thoughts and prayers.




    Me-27 DH-29

     TTC#1 January 2013

    BFP February 27th 2014, MMC ended in D&C

    Working on our rainbow!

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    this+gamer+chickthis+gamer+chick member
    I'm sorry for your loss. Anniversaries for stuff like that are always difficult.
    MC 13w2d D&C 01/03/2014.  Miss you, my little butterfly.
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    catvaughn5002catvaughn5002 member
    I'm so sorry. ((Hugs)) being sent your way. Take it easy on yourself.
    Me: 26 DH:28
    TTC - Sept 2014
    # 1 BFP - October 5, 2014 EDD June 5, 2015 CP - October 14, 2014


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    meredithcarolemeredithcarole member
    So many (((hugs))).
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    AMA 35 :  DH 33
    BFP#1 1/26/14 (EDD: 10/7/14).  MMC 3/10/14 D&C 3/14/14
    RE Consult 11/3/14 - AMH 2.25 "great" . FSH 7.10 . Low Vitamin D
    Myomectomy 12/17/14.  Benched until March.

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    mrspippmrspipp member
    I am so sorry. Lots of (((hugs))). Glad MH is administering back rubs!
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    TowerClimbersWifeTowerClimbersWife member
    Big (((Hugs))) to you. Tough stuff to deal with on top of everything else!
    Where there is love, there is life.
    -Mahatma Gandhi-

    !*All Welcome**!

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    NTNP Since January 2014
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    TashaCNTashaCN member
    Sorry Firefly! Sending so many thoughts and hugs your way. 
     Me: 30, DH: 30. Dating since 2007- Married: 5/18/13. 
    BFP: 9/3/14, Found out we had triplets 10/10/14,  EDD: 5/14/15, Confirmed MMC: 10/14/14. D&C: 10/16/14.
    Formerly TashaCN and wonderigwhatmyfutureholds

    All AL welcome. 
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    kittymeowbarkkittymeowbark member
    So many hugs your way!!!
    Yelena + Rubere Married: 05/13/2011
    TTC since 2012
    BFP#1~  EDD: 06/21/2014  ~  TFMR --Holoprosencephaly 
    Said goodbye on 2/10/2014 at 21 weeks. We miss our baby girl "J"
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    firefly143firefly143 member
    Thank you all! Today is a new day. I have picked myself up, dusted myself off and even managed a true smile. There was a beautiful Cardinal on my patio this morning, I so wish I had snapped a picture, but it warmed my heart to see it strutting about. I'm going to head to the store and pickup some bird feed in hopes of keeping him around!

    Me:21 Hubs:23

    Married 5/19/12

    BFP#1: 6/6/12 EDD: 2/8/13 DS: 2/11/13

    BFP#2: 8/18/14  EDD: 4/25/15 MC: 5wks 5days

    Holding out hope our firefly will light up our world again!

     

     

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    eliidaeliida member
    (((HUGS)))
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    Nikolie93Nikolie93 member
    So glad to hear you're doing better today :)
    I am not sure how to say this without getting a "solicitation" warning so I guess I just say that I am not longer active on THIS site. 



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    jordangoodnightjordangoodnight member
    So many ((hugs)) and T&P for you and your family
    Me: 24 (hypothyroidism)
    DH:25
    Married June 2012 
    TTC September 2014
    BFP #1 October 17, 2014
    MC #1 October 26, 2014
    Benched 2 cycles (hoping to TTC January) 
    Off the bench as of Jan 2015
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