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dragonfly1809
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Last BPF 37 weeks :)
dragonfly1809
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Happy Friday everyone 
This will be my last BPF! In just five *FIVE* days I will have baby Oliver in my arms. I'm beyond emotional, crying at everything, feeling very déjà vu-ish, disbelief, anxious, scared, and so full of love.
I've been using positive visualization techniques, yoga & qi gong breathing, acupuncture, and just simple calming meditation to get through these final days.
The more scary days are ahead ...as much as we try not to be full of fear, it's there. After losing a perfectly healthy infant so suddenly I'm not sure how I'll ever sleep again, close my eyes, or ever let go of him. Somehow..we will figure this out and my precious new baby boy is going to live a long, happy life. I'm willing it so.
I made a compilation of my bump shots ..though I missed weeks here and there I'm happy to have these to remember this pregnancy. This is likely my last - as I'm about to turn 42, and at this point all I want is Oliver safe, healthy, and alive..that's all that matters to me.
Today's rainbow photo will be followed up with a newborn shoot with Oliver wrapped in the rainbow linen. I can't wait to photograph him!
Love to everyone!
This will be my last BPF! In just five *FIVE* days I will have baby Oliver in my arms. I'm beyond emotional, crying at everything, feeling very déjà vu-ish, disbelief, anxious, scared, and so full of love.
I've been using positive visualization techniques, yoga & qi gong breathing, acupuncture, and just simple calming meditation to get through these final days.
The more scary days are ahead ...as much as we try not to be full of fear, it's there. After losing a perfectly healthy infant so suddenly I'm not sure how I'll ever sleep again, close my eyes, or ever let go of him. Somehow..we will figure this out and my precious new baby boy is going to live a long, happy life. I'm willing it so.
I made a compilation of my bump shots ..though I missed weeks here and there I'm happy to have these to remember this pregnancy. This is likely my last - as I'm about to turn 42, and at this point all I want is Oliver safe, healthy, and alive..that's all that matters to me.
Today's rainbow photo will be followed up with a newborn shoot with Oliver wrapped in the rainbow linen. I can't wait to photograph him!
Love to everyone!
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Re: Last BPF 37 weeks :)
TTC since Sept 2012
M/C on 5/01/13 at 8 wks
AF finally appeared 11 wks later per Provera
Diagnosed with PCOS on 7/29/13
Three Failed Medicated Cycles, NTNP Indefinitely
BFP #2 9/14/14, EDD 5/23/14...MMC discovered @ 9w2d; D&C 10/23/14
My Chart
***** All ALers welcome *****
BFP 5/19/2013. MC 7/2/2013 (9w6d) with est. loss at 8w. Miso 7/3/2013 and emergency D & C 7/6/2013.
BFP#2 11/6/2013. CP 11/14/2013.
BFP #3 12/13/2013. Beta #1 @ 15dpo- 239. Progesterone 27. Beta #2 @17dpo - 90. CP 12/21/2013
Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. -Philippians 4:6-7
All PgAL and PAL welcome.
Married August 2003
Me 34 DH 31, Together since 2003, Married August 20, 2011, TTC since May 2013
BFP #1 August 24, 2013! MMC discovered Oct. 3, 2013, D&C Oct. 4, 2013
BFP #2 December 17, 2013! MMC discovered Jan. 28, 2014, D&C Jan. 30, 2014
Testing done: male with complete Trisomy 16, not hereditary. Tested me for clotting disorders, all normal.
Feb. 2014 all clear again to TTC! Will start progesterone supplementation with the next BFP just in case. Oct. 2014 more testing just because, thyroid and autoimmune panels = normal. Diagnostic U/S = no abnormalities. Will keep trying for 3-6 more months, doctor still optimistic!
BFP #3 December 11, 2014! Beta #1 14DPO = 122.4 Beta #2 17DPO = 296.8 Please stick little one and be our Rainbow!
Perfect little heartbeat of 156 seen 1/7/15
***Everybody Welcomed***
EDD 8/21/2015 Team Green!
August 2015 Siggy Challenge: Favorite mean girl from a movie or show: Kathy Bates in "Misery"DS2 born 2/22/13
MMC 5/16/14@8w2d
DD due 5/9/15 Please be our RAINBOW
TTC #1 since January 2013
BFP #1: April 5, 2013; EDD December 11, 2013; Missed M/C May 15, 2013
BFP #2: February 17, 2014; EDD October 30, 2014; M/C March 15, 2014
BFP #3: August 1, 2014; EDD April 14, 2015 - Praying for our RAINBOW!
US (with RE) 3/24/2014 (two healthy HB), US (with OB) 3/31/2014 (three healthy heartbeats)
BFP#2: 10/22/14 | (beta #1 75, beta # 2 219) | EDD 7/3/15 ~*Please be our RAINBOW*~
BFP#1 EDD 04.20.2010, SUNSHINE baby boy born 03.31.2010
BFP#2 EDD 12.07.2014, natural mc 04.09.2014 at 5w3d
BFP#3 EDD 01.14.15, RAINBOW baby girl born 01.16.2015
jan'15 january siggy challenge: baby fails
Um, I love this. Especially week 21 (I'm a tree hugger myself!) and the rainbow one!! So exciting! Hang in there!
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BFP# 1 7/7/12 Beautiful DD born still at 36 weeks 5 days on 3/2/13
Diagnosed with PCOS in 2005. Started Metformin July 2013
Please be our rainbow!!
**All AL Welcome**
I can't believe Oliver's birthday is just 4 days away, so very excited for you! Can't wait to hear all about him!
I love the rainbow linen, you're going to have beautiful photos of Oliver with it.
Since I ready stole your nursery pillow idea (Harrison now owns one) I may try to find one and steal that idea as well!
I love that little Harrison and Oliver have matching pillows ❤️
I bought the rainbow linens (cheesecloths) from another Etsy shop - HookMadness - ...her shop appears to be on vacation right now, but she seemed to have the best deal on the number of cloths for a complete rainbow. She's got lots of other great photo props too.
Thinking of you... xo
And I meant to say Oliver's birthday is 5 days away, not 4! Stupid phone typing, mobile bumping is not as good.
***Losses mentioned.*** TTC #1 since May 2012. Me: 37, OH: 41. Ectopic August 2012 => tubal damage.