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jjhp2018 · January 2015

Hi ladies. I don't know which board fits me.

We had a miscarriage at 5 weeks with our FET baby Sept 2013. Summer 2014 we adopted embryos & just transferred in December.

We got through rising betas the last week of Dec. (212 & 508). Then went in Friday at what should have been 6 weeks by my transfer dates but all we seen was a sac & yolk sac. Possible 2nd sac. Visibility was very
Bad with my tilted uterus.

My RE said he gives 3-4 days difference so he said I was only at 5w 3d by his calculations. Didn't say what the sac measured. I got an early BFP at 4-5dp5dt & have been spot on with my last transfers so I still feel I was about 6 weeks.

I know 6 weeks is right when hearts start beating but with my other kids we had heartbeats by 5w 6d so I'm a mess. Next u/s is Friday which of course seems forever away. My RE was only bummed he couldn't say how many & said he had no reason to worry right now but my anxiety ridden brain is terrified we're going to go Friday & it will just be a black hole again .... it's not personal to him. It's just science. I love my RE but even his reassurance doesn't feel like enough. I know I can't change anything but I can't get rid of the worry.

My anxiety had actually calmed alot after my betas went up & I even felt good going into the ultrasound but walking out with no definite answers has brought all the emotions back.

I don't feel I fit in on any other boards right now & wanted to intro here ....

mrsjg2013 · January 2015

I'm so sorry for your previous loss. Welcome to the PGAL board and congrats on this pregnancy. Sending you many positive thoughts as you await your next scan on Friday. It's such a hard wait. I don't have any experience with measuring smaller and then catching up, but I know there are ladies here who have. I hope you are able to find support here. The mantras posted at the top of the board are great- Today you are pregnant and you love your baby/babies.

littlecookie · January 2015

Welcome. Thinking of you and hoping you get good news on Friday.

tlc35 · January 2015

Welcome and congrats! The waiting and not knowing is hard. FX the week goes quick and for a great u/s on Friday.

jjhp2018 · January 2015

Thank you all so much!

jjhp2018 · January 2015

Thank you! I am praying that's all this one is too. I have read so many stories where heartbeats didn't come till later in the 6th week & this may be a slow starter too. I may be a few days behind on growth or something. RE didn't actually say.

But we all know that anxiety .... ugh. Wish it was gone. I do have some hope for Friday. At least I'll have better answers by that point.