TTC After a Loss

~*~June Bugs Check-In 12/29/14 ~*~

This is a Bi-weekly check-in for women who have suffered the loss of an angel with an EDD in June, no matter what the year.  Please, only bump up this week-in for the first week.  If you have any updates, consider posting them on the main board so everyone can support you.  I’m always here so feel free to PM me if we are in an off-week.  You are welcome to join us, just post an intro including your EDD and the information below:


Where are you in your TTCAL journey/cycle, etc? Any updates/appointments you'd like to share?


Good luck to all of you!! If you leave for PGAL, please send me a PM so we can all congratulate you. If you are taking a bump break, please do the same!


BFPs below the QOTW. Please skip if you are having a difficult day.


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QOTW: Any exciting New Years Eve plans?


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BFP Warning:








Congrats to @CheesyPeas, @MrsOscarFelix, and @CFearsy on your BFPs! We wish you all the best on PGAL!






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June Bugs:


@rmpar29 6/26/2013


@MrsG80inTN 6/4/2014 - Hey love!  How are you doing?  Were you able to move your RE appointment up at all?


@kittymeowbark 6/21/2014 -  I’m so sorry to see that AF came to visit.  ((((HUGS)))  How’s the pregnancy kit going?  Have you sent in your information on your monitor?


@towncargirl 6/27/2014 -  Hey lady!  Haven’t seen you in a bit.  Have you seen the RE yet?


@AngieL610 6/3/2015 - We missed you on the last check-in.  How are you?


@jmicole1005 6/3/2015 - We missed you on the last check-in.  How are you?


@MrsRed09 6/4/2015 - We missed you on the last check-in.  How are you?


@schuebja 6/5/2015 -  YAY for a negative beta!  Any plans for the spring to look forward to?


@catvaughn5002 6/5/2014 - Have you decided whether to just use OPKs or temp this cycle?


@agpjt413 6/14/2015 -  Has AF come to visit?


@nange12 6/14/2014 - I’m sorry that you’ve been diagnosed with PCOS, but I hope that the Metformin helps.  My RE suspects that I have “mild PCOS” since I seem to ovulate normally, but a bit late (CD18-21).  Did you have a sugar test done before going on the Met?


@kingscross145 6/22/2015 - Again, welcome!  Are you into your first cycle TTC?  I wasn’t sure when you expected AF.  


@Charmndmom 6/23/2015 - We missed you on the last check-in.  How are you?


@KatyF0813 6/24/2015 -  Did AF show up?  I hope that she didn’t ruin Christmas for you.  What are your plans for this cycle?


@Mommie2be18 6/24/2015 - How is this cycle going for you?  Have you O’d?


@Kellybenelly83 6/25/2015 - When do you expect AF?  Yay for burning the bench!


@CutiesMommy420 6/25/2015 - Again, welcome!  Has AF shown her ugly head yet?


@readinglove 6/26/2015 - I’m sorry if I’ve missed your update, but how was your appointment?


@jones6863 6/27/2015 - Nice to see you!  I’m glad that AF has returned and definitely take as much time as you need before TTC.  We are always here!


@jordangoodnight -  How’s your charting going?


If your name is missing from above, please let me know and post an update. Some are not included as we have not heard from you in many weeks.


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TTC #3 since 8/2012 image
DX Endometriosis 2/2002 (lost left tube due to a cyst), PCOS
6/2010
 BFP - 10/18/2012, EDD - 6/26/2013, Baby Girl lost at 22 weeks (T21), D&E 2/15/2013
BFP - 4/23/2014, EDD - 1/2/2015 Twin Boys lost at 12 weeks, M/C 6/25/2014

My chart here  All ALers welcome!
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June 3Missing Our January Snowflake

Re: ~*~June Bugs Check-In 12/29/14 ~*~

  • AFM:  I'm in my FW so DH and I are HIO EOD.  I'm sorry I wasn't around last week.  I took an impromptu internet break to try to enjoy the holidays.  As most of you know, I lost my mom this year and so I was anticipating this holiday to be very tough.  I can honestly say that I'm just feeling numb right now.  I didn't have any breakdowns, but I didn't really have any Christmas spirit.  I already took all of the decorations down, which is so unlike me.  I'm just glad to have it over with.
    TTC #3 since 8/2012 image
    DX Endometriosis 2/2002 (lost left tube due to a cyst), PCOS
    6/2010
     BFP - 10/18/2012, EDD - 6/26/2013, Baby Girl lost at 22 weeks (T21), D&E 2/15/2013
    BFP - 4/23/2014, EDD - 1/2/2015 Twin Boys lost at 12 weeks, M/C 6/25/2014

    My chart here  All ALers welcome!
    Baby Birthday Ticker Ticker
    Lilypie Angel and Memorial tickersLilypie Angel and Memorial tickers
    June 3Missing Our January Snowflake
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  • @rmpar29 - Thank you for the check in! I'm sorry that your holiday season was tough.  ((Hugs)) Fingers crossed for you and DH this cycle.

    I think I'm just going to use opks this cycle.  I want to get into temping but my DH does feel some pressure during the fertile window already so I'm thinking it will be better to hold off on that for a while. He feels like he is the only one responsible for getting us KU.  I have to remind him it takes two. AF showed yesterday for me which of course is never fun.  But, we are that much closer to HIO! 
    Me: 26 DH:28
    TTC - Sept 2014
    # 1 BFP - October 5, 2014 EDD June 5, 2015 CP - October 14, 2014


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  • jones6863jones6863 member
    edited December 2014
    Thanks for the check in @rmpar29‌ sorry christmas was so hard for you this year. I feel like it brings out so many emotions.... At least your house is clean before the new year! I'm dreading taking mine down after we get back from out of town.

    Thanks for the support- feeling much better these days having benched myself! ((Hugs)) for everyone!
  • @Kellybenelly83 - I'm glad that I can cheer you up!  Yes, you could very well be a little wonky.  I hope AF shows sooner rather than later for you.

    @catvaughn5002 - Could you temp but not really involve DH in it?  My DH knows that I temp, but isn't interested at all in my temps.  I just tell him when it's FW and not even my estimated O day so he doesn't get performance anxiety.  Good luck!

    @jones6863 - Where are you?  When will you get home?  I hope that the undecorating fairy will visit your house, but I wouldn't hold your breath.  ;)
    TTC #3 since 8/2012 image
    DX Endometriosis 2/2002 (lost left tube due to a cyst), PCOS
    6/2010
     BFP - 10/18/2012, EDD - 6/26/2013, Baby Girl lost at 22 weeks (T21), D&E 2/15/2013
    BFP - 4/23/2014, EDD - 1/2/2015 Twin Boys lost at 12 weeks, M/C 6/25/2014

    My chart here  All ALers welcome!
    Baby Birthday Ticker Ticker
    Lilypie Angel and Memorial tickersLilypie Angel and Memorial tickers
    June 3Missing Our January Snowflake
  • Nikolie93Nikolie93 member
    edited December 2014
    Hi ladies, is it OK if I join? I joined the other two EDD months and feel a bit bad about not joining the one for my June 15th angel.

    @rmpar29‌ I'm sorry to hear about your mom *hug*

    Also, so many *hugs* to all you ladies. The holidays definitely proved to be difficult.

    Edit :words are so hard today!
    I am not sure how to say this without getting a "solicitation" warning so I guess I just say that I am not longer active on THIS site. 



  • Hi @Nikolie93 :-h
    Me: 26 DH:28
    TTC - Sept 2014
    # 1 BFP - October 5, 2014 EDD June 5, 2015 CP - October 14, 2014


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  • Hi @Catvaughn5002 :)

    And I forgot the QOTW ; MH and I are going to DC and got a hotel for new years eve! We are usually surrounded by all our friends in Florida but I excited to share this one alone with him.

    I swear if CD1 comes and messed up my hotel sexy time I may rage! Lol
    I am not sure how to say this without getting a "solicitation" warning so I guess I just say that I am not longer active on THIS site. 



  • @Kellybenelly83 - Thanks hon!  It's certainly been an emotional roller coaster, so feeling numb may be a good thing for a bit.

    @agpjt413 - I'm glad that your holiday went OK too.  For me, I think the anticipation of the holidays were worse then the actual days.  I hope that this month goes better for you timing wise. 

    @Nikolie93 - Of course you can join honey!  I'm so sorry that you are here with us though.  I'm so jealous of your and DH's NYE plans!  That sounds fantastic!

    @MrsRed03 - I'm so sorry that your NY trip was such a nightmare.  Forgive me, but that is so incredibly insensitive for them (or just her?) to keep bringing up your loss.  That makes me ragey for you!  I hope that you are feeling better soon love!  I'm glad that you've gotten your first +OPK and that it seems like your body is going back to "normal".

    @readinglove - I'm glad that your appointment went well and I'm so sorry about your ugly cry.  Those triggers can just creep up so quickly...it sucks.  Many, many (((((HUGS))))
    TTC #3 since 8/2012 image
    DX Endometriosis 2/2002 (lost left tube due to a cyst), PCOS
    6/2010
     BFP - 10/18/2012, EDD - 6/26/2013, Baby Girl lost at 22 weeks (T21), D&E 2/15/2013
    BFP - 4/23/2014, EDD - 1/2/2015 Twin Boys lost at 12 weeks, M/C 6/25/2014

    My chart here  All ALers welcome!
    Baby Birthday Ticker Ticker
    Lilypie Angel and Memorial tickersLilypie Angel and Memorial tickers
    June 3Missing Our January Snowflake
  • @rmpar29 - Yea i could probably start temping just for my own knowledge without making it too hard on my DH.  Thank you for the suggestion.

    @agpjt413- It is my second "normal" cycle post loss too.  Time does seem to go by quickly.  Italian sounds yummy that is my favorite type of food.

    @readinglove- I'm glad that your appointment went well and that you like the OB.  The pajama party sounds like my kind of speed.

    @MrsRed09- Congratulations on being cleared to TTC! Also, on your body getting back to normal. I know how that can seem to take forever.

    Somehow I missed the QOTW.  My DH and I are going to my parents cabin in the North Georgia mountains.  We will probably be watching a lot of football and relaxing by the fire.  We normally go out downtown and party all night but this year it will be nice to have a low key celebration.
    Me: 26 DH:28
    TTC - Sept 2014
    # 1 BFP - October 5, 2014 EDD June 5, 2015 CP - October 14, 2014


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  • Temping is going well I think lol. My chart is beginning to really look like a chart at this point. Now if I can just get AF2 here and gone I can really put my temping to the test.
    QOTW: no NYE plans as of yet... DH and I usually decide something last minute. Lol
    Me: 24 (hypothyroidism)
    DH:25
    Married June 2012 
    TTC September 2014
    BFP #1 October 17, 2014
    MC #1 October 26, 2014
    Benched 2 cycles (hoping to TTC January
    Off the bench as of Jan 2015
  • Hi @rmpar29‌ thanks for the check in. I really do look foward to them. I think I O'd around the 23rd according to my temp chart but then again this is my first attempt at charting. fingers are crossed. My grandmother ended up passing away after a year battle w pancreatic cancer on Christmas so I'm just not feeling the holiday spirit and will prob just stay in on NYE.
  • Leahks77Leahks77 member
    edited December 2014

    Hi ladies, can I join you here?  I haven't intro'd on the main board yet, but I have been lurking for a while trying to get a feel for everything.  So here goes... SO and I found out we were expecting 9/20/14 (EDD 6/5/14), MMC 11/14/14 (baby stopped developing 3 weeks prior, at 8wks), had a D&C 11/20/14 since my body didn't seem to understand what had happened...  The holidays were pretty tough; my mom was diagnosed with ovarian cancer a couple days before we got our BFP so this had been a little ray of sunshine that ended up making everything even harder...  But we are all hanging in and trying to be positive and hopeful (which is hard sometimes, dammit).  Good news is AF showed up right before Christmas and we were cleared to TTC.  Not temping or charting this cycle, just seeing where things go.  I look forward to getting to know everyone a little more and here's hoping that 2015 has all sorts of good things and rainbow babies in store for all of us.  QOTW:  I'm a nurse so I work on NYE, haha.  Not exciting.  But we will do dinner first.  I'm really looking forward to saying goodbye to 2014... Bring on the New Year! 

    ETA: I changed my avatar to something non-pregnancy related but it isn't coming through. My tickers are gone though, so that's a plus... I will work on the avatar problem!!

  • @Mommie2be18‌ I'm speed to hear about your grandmother *hug* I have my FX for you thos cycle!

    @Leahks77‌ I'm sorry to hear about your mom *hug*. I'm also sorry you're here but welcome.
    I am not sure how to say this without getting a "solicitation" warning so I guess I just say that I am not longer active on THIS site. 



  • So happy, Just found you guys! Suffered a loss this June, TTC for the first time since..I'm on cycle day 16, so 2 more weeks before the PT. My emotions are all over the place. Hope to get to know you all!
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  • @jordangoodnight - I'm glad that temping is going well.  If you'd like to post a link to your chart I can friend you and stalk you easier.  ;)

    @Mommie2be18 - Oh honey, I'm so sorry to hear about your Grandma.  Please know that my T&Ps are with you and your family! 

    @Leahks77 - Welcome to the check-in!  I'm so sorry for your loss and your mom's diagnosis.  How's she doing?  I'm glad that you are cleared to TTC. 

    @Rcvb22 - Welcome to the check-in!  I'm very sorry for your loss and that you have OPPs to deal with.  Please know that getting pregnant again may not take away your sadness and you should wait until you are cleared by your doctor, if you are not already.  Also, be prepared for the PGAL brain...it sucks!  Have you been seeing an RE?

    @brendisimma - Welcome to the check-in!  I'm so sorry for your loss, but I'm glad that you've been cleared to TTC again.  It's normal to be emotional now.  The TTC/pregnancy journey is so much scarier after suffering a loss.  Please know that we are here to talk or vent to.
    TTC #3 since 8/2012 image
    DX Endometriosis 2/2002 (lost left tube due to a cyst), PCOS
    6/2010
     BFP - 10/18/2012, EDD - 6/26/2013, Baby Girl lost at 22 weeks (T21), D&E 2/15/2013
    BFP - 4/23/2014, EDD - 1/2/2015 Twin Boys lost at 12 weeks, M/C 6/25/2014

    My chart here  All ALers welcome!
    Baby Birthday Ticker Ticker
    Lilypie Angel and Memorial tickersLilypie Angel and Memorial tickers
    June 3Missing Our January Snowflake
  • Hi everyone.
    Thanks for the check in @rmpar29 . I am so sorry that the holidays have been tough. They do seem to bring back so many thoughts about loved ones. HUGE HUGS!!!!!!!


    AF arrived on Christmas eve (yay) :disappointed: I honestly feel crushed. I was once again super hopeful and even began thinking about putting together a little gift to tell H the good news. I think this is going to be my last month fully ttc.  I will be discussing this with H if AF shows up next cycle. It is consuming my every thought and when I see yet another BFN I go to a bad place. I have not started the kit yet. I believe I need to start it 5 days before O. I will re-read the instructions since now I am unsure...lol I also sent the info for my monitor yesterday so we will see what they say. Sorry for being such a downer. I am just not in a good place right now and have been keeping a bit of distance from bumping. I keep thinking about how I was pregnant this time last year and how not only do I not have a LO, but I am not even KU. I am hoping things turn around soon.


    Yelena + Rubere Married: 05/13/2011
    TTC since 2012
    BFP#1EDD: 06/21/2014  ~  TFMR --Holoprosencephaly 
    Said goodbye on 2/10/2014 at 21 weeks. We miss our baby girl "J"
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  • Thanks for the check in! Sorry to be late!
    I was off work for a whole 6 days so i was somewhat forced to be away from TB! :( But Im here now :)
    Hugs to everyone, holidays are hard :( 

    So I am actually in Cycle 1 post MC/D&C - AF is due Thursday/Friday but obviously nothing can be for sure since Im not temping, but based on OPK's and CM I O'ed on CD 15 (December 18)
    But then again Im all fucked up on weather or not I'm actually in Cycle 1. My doctor said yes so i think I should just listen to him, but Dr.Google says maybe not tho. I don't know, I'm confusing myself more! blah.
    Me: 29 DH: 30
    DS born 12/29/12 @ 41+1 
    TTC#2 07/2014
    BFP 10/14/14 MC 11/14/14 D&C for RT 11/18/2014 
    Given all clear 12/15/2014 - back to TTC



  • @rmpar29‌ Thank you, she's doing okay. She started chemo right when they found out in sept but it was already fairly widespread. It's been working though, so surgery is scheduled for Jan 9th. Then a few more months of chemo and hopefully she will be doing well! She's my idol, and the strongest woman I know. I think she will do great. I will keep you updated :)

    Warning *** OPP mentioned***



    I understand what others have mentioned, re: friend's pregnancies... My best friend in the world is due 9 days before I would have been. It's so hard, because I love her so so much. And she is amazing and sensitive but I feel like a shitty friend for not being able to talk about it more. I saw her for the first time in a couple months (we live in different states) right before Christmas, and she is showing and I spent a lot of time crying in the bathroom. It's so hard. Like others have said, I really hope to be pregnant by the time her baby comes, because I think it would make that part a little easier. SO doesn't get this one as much... He's usually so good but for some reason he forgets how hard it is for me to see her... Ugh ladies... Life is hard sometimes. So many hugs to all who need them. Sorry for the long vent!
  • @kittymeowbark - Oh darling, I'm so sorry that you are struggling so much.  So many (((((HUGS))))))  Have you thought about seeing an RE?  You must be close to the year mark now (and please know that I don't mean to upset you by saying that).  I wish I lived closer so I could give you a real hug and a shoulder to cry on.  I forget...did you have a problem conceiving before?

    @kingscross145 - Step away from Dr. Google!  I would go by your doctor, so if your doc says that you are in cycle 1, then I would go with that. 

    @Leahks77 - I'm glad to hear that your mom is doing OK.  Yes, please update when you can!  You and your family will be in my T&Ps!
    TTC #3 since 8/2012 image
    DX Endometriosis 2/2002 (lost left tube due to a cyst), PCOS
    6/2010
     BFP - 10/18/2012, EDD - 6/26/2013, Baby Girl lost at 22 weeks (T21), D&E 2/15/2013
    BFP - 4/23/2014, EDD - 1/2/2015 Twin Boys lost at 12 weeks, M/C 6/25/2014

    My chart here  All ALers welcome!
    Baby Birthday Ticker Ticker
    Lilypie Angel and Memorial tickersLilypie Angel and Memorial tickers
    June 3Missing Our January Snowflake
  • Sorry so late again to the check in. Thanks @rmpar29‌ for the check in. I'm sorry Christmas was so hard for you. I'm actually starting to run again and am hoping to run a half marathon in May. I'm hoping that training will help the next few months pass by quicker.

    QOTW:  I think we're going to lay low and stay in.  I work all day tomorrow and have to work early on Firsay, so no exciting plans for us.
    Together since April 2004.  Married since June 19th, 2010.
     BFP #1: January 31st 2012: CP. 
     BFP #2: June 1st 2012, Due:2/8/13. Avery was born via unplanned c section on 2/13/13. 
     BFP #3: Sept. 25th, 2014. Due: 6/5/15.  MMC on 10/23/14. Confirmed complete molar pregnancy per D&C 10/29/14, 
    HCG officially negative 12/10/14.  Benched until June 2015.
                                                        
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  • @rmpar29‌ -- Thank you for the hugs!! I am begining to think about an RE. I know protocol is at least one year of actively trying. I am creeping up to the one year mark. I believe we began ttc this time in April. Honestly out of the seven cycles, our timing was only good for 4 of those I think. We were "trying" for about a year last time, but without temping. I used the CBFM and got my BFP on the 3rd cycle of using it. I dont know what is going on this time. Maybe 2014 is just not my year.


    @Rcvb22 -- Thank you for the hugs as well. This process is very very draining, but it is so nice to be able to vent and share with people who know what you are going through. Thank you!
    Yelena + Rubere Married: 05/13/2011
    TTC since 2012
    BFP#1EDD: 06/21/2014  ~  TFMR --Holoprosencephaly 
    Said goodbye on 2/10/2014 at 21 weeks. We miss our baby girl "J"
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  • well it's my first time TTCAL and im not handling the 2 w wait very well. Im going back and forth on testing early or not. Wish I could just have a glass of wine and relax
    Baby Birthday Ticker Ticker
  • towncargirltowncargirl member
    edited January 2015
    Hey! I'm still here. Sorry that I have missed the last few check ins, I've been really busy with work (yay for working retail during the holidays) and the holidays have been a mess with our cousin passing away during the summer and my BIL not being able to get leave to come home.
     My Appointment is Wednesday(Jan 7th)! Also part of my being distant. I'm incredibly anxious about it and trying to not to over think anything. I'm off to fill out the 8 pages of paperwork now! 

    Edit- My brain is all over the place.. I wanted to tell you guys.. I ran into a older lady that we see at church the other day (she considers herself a grandma to us) She told me that she had been praying for us but she didn't really want to tell me what she had been praying for, but she did want to know if there was anything I wanted to tell her. So I mentioned that we had to go to this appointment and that I was really nervous. Her eyes filled up  with tears and she gave me this huge hug and told me that she had been praying that we would find answers and be able to get pregnant. Of course all this happened at my work so I was a blubbering mess and had to get through the rest of my shift.


    Married since June 2012
    TTC Baby#1 Since 2012
    BFP 10-11-13 / Saw HB(110bpm) on 11-4-13 / Miscarried @ 8wks (11-18-13)
    Started Charting and TTC again Feb.2014

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